"Do you have a way for me to know who I am?" I asked.

When I asked this question, I felt a little confused in my heart, like a person who has been understanding something for a long time, and I feel that I have suddenly discovered something, but I can't understand it yet.

Who am I?

- This is a question that anyone who has meditated on and reflected on will raise such a question mark.

"In this world, there are very few people who can be themselves. Father said with a sudden smile.

I picked up the wine glass, touched it lightly with my father, and tasted it, and the strong wine flowed down my esophagus into my stomach, and it was hot everywhere I went. This kind of physical feeling is something that everyone has, their own feelings are best understood, and their own experience is only known to themselves, so isn't everyone being themselves?

"Dad...... I don't understand, I feel like everyone in the world is being themselves. You're you, I'm me, and we're all being ourselves. ”

"Didn't you just say you didn't know how to do it yourself?" asked my father with a smile, and after taking a sip of the wine, he exhaled as if it were a wonderful wine.

"I may not mean what you think. You know, I have several identities now, I want to take the police academy, right? However, I am still the behind-the-scenes boss of Tiandao Group; moreover, I am still a model, and our teacher Xu will talk to me about the brokerage company later. I'm too busy to know where Gu is, and I feel that with so many identities, I don't even know who I am. "I said in distress.

My father smiled and didn't say a word, as if waiting for me to calm down.

I took a sip of wine depressed, put down my glass and chewed a few more bites of food, feeling very boring in my mouth. The mood at the moment is that no matter how good the dish is, there is no appetite.

"Dad, do you think I should go that way in the future?" I asked.

"Actually, it doesn't matter what path you take, what really matters is what kind of role you want to play. The father smiled, straightened up, and said very gently:

"In life, a lot of people can't be themselves, you take a random person from the street, you ask him who he is, and he will tell you a lot of answers - for example, he is so-and-so's father, he is so-and-so's husband, he is so-and-so's son, he is so-and-so's subordinate, he is still so-and-so's superior, or he may be a prisoner, and so on. ”

Listening to my father's words, my thoughts, which had just been a little clear, suddenly lost again. So, I continued to listen carefully.

"Fei Fei, everyone seems to be an individual in life, but in essence, it is actually a collection of scattered characters. We all play different roles. Like your father Zhang, when he was at home, he was your adoptive father, he was Zhang Liang's biological father, and when he faced your mother Fu Xiangqin, he was a husband again; when he went outside, he was still the head of your family; when he went to the unit, he had more roles, he was the subordinate of the leader, and the leader of the subordinates. After putting on that police uniform, he is a police officer, a character who is afraid in the eyes of criminals. ”

At that moment, I realized that everyone's role was so complex. Swapping roles one by one, it's so tiring.

"Many people say that people are the most tired when they reach middle age. This is true, there are old and young, this is not only the economic tiredness, but also the tiredness of changing in different roles. When people reach middle age, their identities will become more complex, and there are many special roles, busy and busy, and many people don't have the slightest time to be themselves......"

As he spoke, my father picked up the bottle and poured me a little more wine, and after pouring it for himself, he clinked glasses with me, "What do you think of after I said so much?"

I put down my glass and said, "Is it only when you are alone that you can find out who you are?"

Father smiled and shook his head, "No, in fact, you found out in the end that as long as you live and you only need to be in contact with people, then there is no so-called "me" in this world." Because there is no concept of 'who I am' in this world. ”

"Didn't I... I'm who I am......"

"You are Mo Fei, but you are also Mo Fei, you say you are a student, but you are also a model and a little boss. Putting all of this aside, you are my daughter and Fu Xiangqin's daughter, you entered this house, you are my daughter, but you went to Fu Xiangqin's house, you are her daughter. Who do you say you are?" suddenly darkened my father's eyes.

At that moment, I suddenly felt that my father's thoughts were really deep.

He wasn't fooling me, nor was he deliberately trying to stun me with sentences, what he said was true. At that moment, I suddenly lost and didn't know who I was, only that I knew that I also had a lot of roles to play.

When I went to Fu Xiangqin's house, I was her daughter, when I saw Zhang Liang, I still regarded myself as my sister, and when I saw Ah Long and Li Shan, I was their boss.

By the way, the yellow-haired role changes quickly. When I was at home, I was my godbrother and called me sister. But as soon as I got out of the house, he stopped calling me sister.

It's just a threshold distance, but his identity is different.

"I, I feel a little dizzy......" I said with a laugh.

"That proves you're thinking. The father smiled and said, "Actually, although your father and I are a rag picker, my father also picked up a lot of books, read a lot of things, and understood many people and things." If you look at the world, a lot of people's misfortunes, in fact, a big reason is that they care too much about the question, 'Who am I?'. ”

"What?" I asked curiously, "Who do you think I am, and it doesn't have much to do with people's misfortunes?"

"I'll give you an example...... I used to know an official, this person is very capable in his job, controlling waters, building roads, and rectifying cadres, which is one after another, but this person is divorced, and his parents have also broken off their friendship. Because, this person is too particular about 'who I am', he always thinks of himself as a "leader", and when he arrives at home, he also feels that he is a leader, and he yells at his wife; when he returns to his home and meets his parents, he still feels that he is a leader. Can his wife stand it? Can his parents stand it? Huh...... There is another person, a woman, this person is just the opposite, she is the youngest in the family, a group of people spoil her, and when she arrives at the unit, she still feels that people have to spoil her and let her, as a result, although she found a good job, she finally lost her job because she couldn't put her position and role correctly. You say, are there many such things in the world?"

Too much......

If you think about it, there are too many such problems in this world.

Many people will involuntarily bring their other roles into positions that they should not be replaced, in short, they are not good at changing their roles.

"It's a little complicated how I feel. I said with a wry smile and scratching my head.

"It's not complicated, it's actually very simple...... At what moment and in what role is very important. There are too many examples of this around me, people are constantly changing, and many people are slowly developing, but they are also lost. My former comrade-in-arms, after having money, regarded himself as a successful person, he unconsciously revealed a frivolous state, in the face of his former comrades-in-arms, not only did he cherish each other's feelings, but always frivolous and arrogant talk, and finally his friends left him. People should know who they are with at all times and what kind of identity they should be treated with. It's hard to keep your original intention......" said the father, raising his glass again.

I hurriedly raised my glass and touched him.

He took a sip of wine, took another bite of food, chewed slowly, and after swallowing, he said slowly, "Feifei...... In fact, to put it simply, when a person is a father, he must have the appearance of a father, when he is a son, he must have the appearance of a son, when he is a king, he must have the appearance of a king, and when he is a subject, he must naturally have the appearance of a subject. Simple, right?"

"It's that simple?"

"It's not easy...... Hehe, there are still a lot of details in this. For example, if you get married in the future, whether you are a good wife or not is not up to me, but your husband has the final say; after you become a mother in the future, whether you are a competent mother or not is known only to your own children, and we do not know. There are many positions, many characters, and only those who match them can know best. So, Fei Fei...... Do you still think there is 'who I am' in this world?"

I shook my head and said, "No...... It feels like only when I am a character. ”

"Yes, but it's very important that you forget who I am, but you know exactly who I am. ”

"Know exactly who you are?"

"Yes, at any time, you must know who your role is at the moment, when you are in the Tiandao Group, you must know that you are a CEO, then you must do your best to do your job; when you are a student, you must know that the essence of a student is to learn knowledge; when you get married in the future, when you return home, you must know that you are a wife, and know how to live with your husband as a respectful person...... This is the true meaning of life. ”

"Oh...... Forget who I am, but know exactly who I am. Dad, I feel like you can be a philosophy teacher!"

"Everywhere, it's all rustic. The father smiled and took a sip of wine, put down the glass and asked, "Do you understand what I just said?"

"Understood. ”

"Then do you plan to go to the police academy in the future, or do you want to be a model?" my father suddenly smiled, looked at me and asked.

My head was immediately stunned, "I ......"

I thought about what my father had just said, and then I shifted my various roles in my mind, and realized that I did a good job in each of them.

When I was a student, my academic performance was able to guarantee the police academy, the boss of the Tiandao Group, led them to lay down Hongren, laid down the Han River, and successfully transformed, and now the model has also won the all-model championship, and I am very good in each role.

"Dad...... I thought about the characters you just mentioned, and I think each of my roles is good. "I said it directly.

"Weren't you lost just now? Lost don't know what to do next. The father smiled and said, "What I just said is just a matter of roles, I want you to know that you are facing more roles than the average person." And next, what Dad wants to talk to you about is the meaning of the role......"

"What is the meaning of the role?"

"Yes, the role is your role, and it is also your life, and in a big way, it is the meaning of your life......" said the father, his eyes a little deeper.