Their sarcastic words rang in my ears, but I didn't have time to argue with them.

I tore through several big holes in the gray cloak and threw it to the ground and stomped it hard!

When they saw it, they looked at me with even more disgusting eyes.

"This Mo factor is really crazy!"

Yes, when I was a kid, I was in a stupid, crazy state.

I don't have their brilliant and colorful childhood, nor their carefree growth, everything about me is a mess, chased by everyone like a puppy, coaxed by others to sell, and even become a little prostitute and woman in their eyes because of ignorance.

Looking at the ravaged cloak, I seemed to see my own childhood and so-called youth.

"It's on! The game is on, let's go check it out!"

"I heard that Su Liya will appear second, and Mr. Tian said that she is likely to be the champion of next year's model contest!"

With that, they all ran out of the dressing room and backstage.

"Player No. 2, Suliya. After the teacher's voice sounded, a cheerful campus ballad was heard.

Hearing the fast-paced music, I could tell how cheerful Suliya's steps were on the runway.

She is innocent in her own right, and she is also very talented, and every expression and movement is very balanced, which makes people look very comfortable.

After getting the cloak done, hurry to the side of the clothing area to find another dress, and when you find it, quickly change into it!

The music has to be changed......

Hurriedly ran out of the backstage and ran to the mixing room, "Teacher, change the music on the 35th." ”

"Where's the USB flash drive?" asked the tuning teacher.

"Pick any one...... Don't be too cheerful, but a little sad. ”

"Sad?" asked the tuning teacher, frowning. Every teacher in this training camp is a master, and the mixing room in front of me knows more about the music and lighting in the catwalk. For a youth show, he naturally wondered why I would choose such a kind of music......

"Yes, I wanted a song that had strength in sadness. ”

"How's All by myself?" he asked.

"I haven't heard of it...... You're good to go. ”

"Okay, then this one! I'll give you a screenshot, and sing it softly in front of it, and when it reaches the high notes of *All by myself, it will be very powerful, but it is an emotional ...... that begins to rise fearlessly after the sadness is on the ground."

"Yes. ”

"Are you sure? This is a youth show. ”

"I'm sure!"

"Okay......" he said, turning to regulate, "Huh...... However, if you change the music like this, you will have to be the last one to play. ”

"Okay, I'll go talk to the teacher. As I spoke, I ran out of the mixing room, found the field teacher, said that I had changed the music, and tuned it to the end.

It is very unadvantageous to play at the end.

After all, fifty or sixty students should take turns at about half past twelve at noon, when the teachers' attention will drop, and there will be a sense of aesthetic fatigue. The score, compared to before, will be reduced. Flaws that could have been ignored can also be exaggerated.

Because I wanted to be familiar with the music, after arranging all this, I ran back to the mixing room and put on headphones to listen to the song "All by myself".

When I started, I didn't expect it to be so sad, but when I wanted to change the music, I started to fall in love with the song......

The teacher gave me a screenshot of the middle part.

“Hard to be sure

It's hard to be sure of something

Sometimes I feel so insecure

I often feel insecure

And loves so distant and obscure

Love is so ethereal

Remains the cure

But it is also an antidote

All by myself

It's just me

Don't wanna be

I don't want to be alone anymore

All by myself

It's always myself

Anymore

Nothing more"

In the music, I seem to hear myself, walking alone on a deserted street, rummaging through the trash cans in search of food.

I longed for security, but I was dragged into the abyss step by step.

I don't want to be so lonely, but I'm still so lonely, no one, all by myself.

"Is that okay?" the tuning teacher asked, looking at me worriedly.

"Yes...... Very good, I love it. I say it from the bottom of my heart.

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Standing in front of the mirror in the dressing room, looking at himself carefully, looking at the floral dress on his body, it was not pleasing to the eye.

Finally, after taking it off, I put on a plain white dress.

This dress is very, very plain, with a suspender belt on top, and after a simple waist, the lower body reaches the ankles.

Let's take this one......

Then, pull up the corners of the skirt to reach the hips, and then put on the dirty cloak to wrap the white skirt inside.

The dirty skirt represents my past wanderings, and the pure white skirt is my insecure heart like that frightened sister-in-law.

My youth was so different that I wasn't sure if my expression would satisfy my mentors.

However, I know that a high-level model, a top-level model, to achieve the "unity of form and spirit" with clothing, my clothing is my heart!

If I want to win this game, I have to release my heart to the maximum, the most powerful strength in my heart is the fear of people who used to be, and the emotion that gathers the most in my heart is that loneliness......

When I think of this, I feel a kind of sadness rippling in my heart.

As the minutes passed, I worked hard to brew the power of sadness and loneliness, until my eyes were a little bleak.

Desolation is the opposite of this youth show, so there will be a reversal in the middle, when I take off this cloak, I want to express the power of hope in my heart!

"Number 61!"

When I heard the field teacher shouting No. 61, I quickly ran to the backstage.

I was really the only one left in the backstage, and when the field attendant saw me, his eyes immediately widened, "I'm C, you...... What are you doing? What are you wearing?"

"Can't you wear this?" I asked rhetorically.

"This ...... Heh, okay...... Whatever, you can ...... whatever you want" After sneering, the field manager looked at me with that idiotic gaze.

I ignored her and walked over.

"You don't have any shoes on?" she asked again.

I ignored her and walked to the backstage to wait for my music to play.

"No. 62, Mo-factor. Music. ”

As soon as the bleak music sounded, the originally noisy hall suddenly fell silent, and then there was a burst of incomprehensible whispering.

The lights change with the music, dark when sad, bright when cheerful.

In a slightly dim tone, I stood on tiptoe, which was the model's - shoeless catwalk.

After wrapping the cloak on the upper body, the lower body is wrapped around the upper body like a dirty rice dumpling. Two slender thighs were exposed.

The sound of the music drowned out a lot of the chatter, but through the complex sounds, I could hear the ridicule of the audience.

To the sad music, I stood on my tiptoes and walked forward step by step......

The light came down overhead, like a lonely walk barefoot in a foggy night.

There was no expression, only lonely eyes looking ahead in a daze, only wrapped in dirty clothes and walking forward in the night.

The sadness of the music is aggravated, my lonely mind is tumbling and turbulent, and my childhood is like a chaotic hill blown by a gust of wind, like a river of sadness against the current.

At that moment, I released all the fears, fears, loneliness, and tensions that were deeply buried in my heart!

My eyes were lonely......

Persistent... Persistent......

Aggravate... Aggravate......

When the sorrow was deepest, when Celine Dion's sonorous and powerful "All by myself!" shouted out,

I walked to the front of the stage,

The sad eyes, with the high-pitched sound of the phoenix, with the bright lights in an instant, with the cloak I faded off, and the white dress that fell, burst out in an instant!

I remember what my father said, this heart is bright!

I remember my father telling me that although I was poor, I couldn't be poor in my bones!

I remember all the hardships and stresses I went through, I remember too much, too much suffering!

I admit that there is no wanton running and no laughter in my youth, but I am the purest feeling!

Zhang Yang, Wei Zizhou.

Ah Long, Huang Mao, Li Shan, Qingfeng.

ZHANG Liang,TIAN Sen......

Su Qing, Su Yan, Su Yun, etc., etc......

Too many people have appeared in my youth!

They lit up my life and my eyes! Let me bloom with the self-motivation that youth should have.

We've done so much that others didn't do in their youth!

There is ferocity, there is killing, but it is also the true affection of flesh and blood!

There are joys and sorrows, but more than that, we are the light of hope to move forward together!

My sorrow is broken, and my joy is on my face!

In the midst of Dion's mournful screams, I turned 180 degrees and took off my cloak, half turned my upper body, and faced the camera with my youthful smile......

Half a turn again, 360 degrees turn, the white dress floats and falls, and the youth rises and falls.

No shoes, dragging the cloak to walk, dragging the half-time roundabout, in a series of difficult movements, the white skirt fluttered in the wind, like my smart soul......

From lonely wandering, to today's agility;

From a lonely gaze to today's depth;

From lonely roaming, to today's sonorous;

This is my youth......

Step by step, the music gradually subsided, and the lights slowly dimmed.

There was not a single sound in the whole hall, nor a single round of applause.

It's over......

There is no applause without applause, I just need to show my own youth.

"The youth show of all the models, the show is over. The host reminded.

"Whoa!!"

Suddenly there was a loud and belated applause from below the stage!