On the taxi ride back, I was in a depressed mood all the time.

Tian Sen next to me asked me what was wrong, but I was quiet and didn't speak. He was also interested and didn't ask again.

When I got back to my accommodation, he made me coffee.

"I know you're in a bad mood, so you won't go out to eat tonight, I'll go buy some food and come back and make it for you, okay?" he asked with a smile.

"Oh...... Good. I looked up and answered.

He gently touched my head, then turned and went out.

……

In the quiet room, I sat quietly, thinking of the little girl and the aunt, and I couldn't help but think of my own childhood.

My childhood was not happy, my childhood was always longing to be guarded, but I was always wandering alone.

Although so many years have passed, although the memories of childhood are not particularly clear, there are many scenes that people have deeply rooted in cannot forget.

I can't forget the scene of being chased by a group of children shouting fools, I can't forget the smirking face of my biological mother after she was crushed to death, I can't forget the woman who was kind to me and sold me to Li Sheng, I can't forget so many cold faces, mocking looks, and excited smiles when chasing me......

Slowly, I understood why I didn't have the taste of youth.

Most people's youth is actually an amplification of childhood, and there is no material pressure like childhood, and some are just physical growth and knowledge growth. They still have a childlike heart, and they use that childlike heart to look at everything in this world, which is gorgeous and colorful.

And I am different, I don't have a childhood, I don't have someone else's carefree......

Even after growing up a little later, I was careful everywhere, for fear of being scolded as a little chicken girl and a little biao.

If I were asked to show a person's strength and perseverance, I could;

If I were to show a child's loving eyes for their parents, I would;

If I show a lot of hatred, I can too!

Can......

Previously, when they asked me to dig into the carefree and flamboyant youthful atmosphere in my heart, I dug for so long, but I didn't find it.

Today, I realized that it was because my childhood, my youth, and my school days were different from them, and the purity in my heart was not at all the same as theirs.

However, the difference is not without ......

When I saw the little girl's vigilant and relaxed eyes, I found the innocence that belonged to me.

It's different, but, it's true......

And the true value of all art is a depiction and sublimation of real life!

At that moment, I felt that I could achieve the "expression of youth" required by Mr. Xu, but after I made it, I don't know if those teachers would agree. I was greeted with a smirk.

……

For dinner, Tian Sen was busy for more than an hour.

When I was done thinking about it, I also came over to help.

He was very skillful at getting in the way, and he thought I was in the way, so he asked me to watch TV.

I asked him why he cooked?

He smiled and said: "My mom died early, and my dad was busy, so I learned to be self-reliant at a very young age, but hobbies are also a big reason, I like to stir-fry and cook." ”

"You said you are such a good man, why did you take a fancy to me......" I said with a smile as I sat next to me and tasted his fried meat slices.

"Oh, it's going to be cloudy, and it's going to be sunny at night?" he asked, squinting at me.

At this moment, he is getting more and more familiar with me, and there are many expressions on his face that I have never seen before.

Looking at his face, which was a little bad, but he felt cute, he said, "I was thinking about the problem, and now that I have thought about it, I will naturally be happy." ”

"What are you thinking about?" he picked up a piece of chopped tomato and stuffed it into my mouth.

At first, I tried to dodge, but in an instant, I reversed my mind and opened my mouth to catch it. I kept reminding myself that I had to play his girlfriend well.

"You know...... However, thank you today, if it weren't for you, I'm afraid I wouldn't be able to find the answer for the rest of my life. I laughed.

"Really?" he asked, surprised.

"It's time for you to put oil in it, the pot is going to run dry......" I said, gesturing to the pot.

After he hurriedly poured the oil, he turned around and asked with a smile: "Then tell me quickly, why did you suddenly understand? Is it that the Buddha has appeared?"

"Well, the apparitions. I smirked. I think that maybe it was indeed the Buddha and the immortal spirit that made me encounter that scene, and it also shocked and purified my heart.

"And how can you thank me?" he said, pouring the tomatoes into the pan and putting the scrambled eggs in again.

"Do you want to be thankful?"

"Of course, I am not grateful at all for relaxing with you, solving problems with you, and now cooking for you......" he said pretending to be sad.

"Nah!" I shouted softly, and when I saw him turn around, I shoved a small piece of cucumber that I had just broken directly into his mouth, "Reward you!"

He was stunned for a moment, then looked at me with a smile on his face, and suddenly reached out and hooked my neck......

Then, suddenly, he pulled me closer!

As I rushed to the cucumber with him mouth-to-mouth, I instinctively opened my mouth to prevent it from breaking my lips.

As a result, we each ended the cucumber......

He blinked his eyes closely, and then saw that his eyes were happily bent into crescent moons.

With a soft "click", he bit off the cucumber and hurried to stir-fry!

His lips touched a little just now, and he still pretended that nothing had happened!?

"How do I feel like you're getting worse......" I squinted at him as I bit off the yellow light.

He smiled happily at the corner of his mouth, and after turning his head to look at me, his face flushed when he wanted to say something but didn't know what to say.

"Do you know how to be shy?" I deliberately him off.

"I was thinking how I could have gotten a little worse. ”

"I think you're crazy!" I kicked him lightly with my leg.

"Okay, don't dare, don't dare, don't do it next time!" he said, picking up the dish and preparing to take it out of the pot.

When I saw this, I quickly got out of the way for him.

……

That night, he unexpectedly opened a bottle of red wine.

I know he has a brain tumor and can't drink, but I can't say it, after all, I can't puncture this layer of window paper for the time being.

I have always kept in mind the task given to me by Mr. Zheng, and I have always been thinking about when to ask him. However, it is clear that this will not be time yet. I want to express it when my love is at its strongest......

As long as people think of a happy life in the future, they want to get those happiness more and more. At that time, he didn't need me to say much, he would take the initiative to go for surgery.

Now, this love is not strong enough.

At this moment, he may still want to use the remaining nearly two years to love me well. After all, if you have surgery, you may only be able to love me for less than half a year.

If you don't have surgery for two years, you have to do it within six months, and it's dangerous.

Two years is more than half a year, and now he wants two years more.

"Why are you drinking all of a sudden?" I asked.

"I don't know......," he smiled, and the smile clearly had a story in it.

"I don't drink it!" I said deliberately. I don't want him to drink either.

"What, don't you like to drink a little?"

"There is a grading exam tomorrow, and if you drink it, your eyelids may swell, and you can't drink it. ”

"Oh......"

"Don't drink it, you'll get hungry for me. I said.

"Okay...... he smiled and poured the wine back into the refrigerator, "We'll know when you're in the A gear." ”

"Hmm...... Sit down and eat, your fried food is much better than mine. "I'm very positive about it.

"Oh, if it's delicious, eat more. My dream is to raise you to be fat. He sat down with a smile and said to me.

At that moment, I unconsciously laughed. Then, if you think it's so simple, why do you laugh?

Perhaps, it's just because I found a way to go on stage tomorrow, so I smiled happily, right?

&

Starting at 8 a.m. the next day, preparations for the qualification competition began.

There is only one competition, and that is the youth series. Each person is presented individually, with their own choice of costumes, music and stage effects.

The so-called youth series is the name taken by Mr. Tian himself, and the clothes are picked in the prescribed bright colors, if they are thick, they are easy to become gaudy, and if they are light, they will be flat, so the colors are mainly based on green.

Also, high heels are not allowed.

This is very helpful for me, because at the beginning of the proportional measurement, my body proportion was ranked in the top three.

However, when Mr. Tian was approaching the competition, he didn't forget to "take care" of me and came to the dressing room behind the stage to hurt me.

"This is the outfit you chose?" she asked, looking at the outfit I was wearing.

"Hmmm......"

"Don't you think it's too easy?" she smiled.

The outfit is really simple, the T-shirt is simple white and green, a short skirt underneath, and a pair of white tennis shoes.

Look at the ones next to you, there are all-over pink skirts, there are pure blue wrap knee-length skirts, or one-piece pleated skirts, etc......

After those clothes are paired with small sandals, they really have a youthful taste. Originally, they were teenagers, and they almost had to go on stage in their true colors.

"I don't know, I thought Mo Factor was going to play tennis!" said the student brought by Teacher Tian with a smile.

"What do you know?" Teacher Tian scolded, I was surprised that she would say good things for me, but I was very wrong, she immediately stared at the group of students and said: "You want to learn the advantages of Mo Factor, she herself does not have the youthful breath of yours, so I want to use the sense ......of sport in tennis clothes instead of expression!" she said, turning her head and glancing at me coldly, "...... It's really hard for you. ”

Sorry for me?

Scold......

It's hard for me.

This is obviously a change of direction to say that I have no ability, and I have to be a model.

But......

However, I have to admit that Teacher Tian's eyes are tricky, she really saw through my thoughts.

Yesterday, I found "my youth", but I'm not sure they can read my youth.

So, this morning, after much thought, I decided to take the safe approach and make up for my youthful vibe with this sports series.

"Mo Factor, do you want a bracer here, and it will be a little more sporty after wearing it!" said the girl who had just spoken.

Another girl took a cap from the side and said, "I'll give you this too......!"

"I see that you two have good clothes, can you lend me them?" I asked, staring at them both coldly.

They probably hadn't seen my cold face, and they looked at me and took a few steps back.

That was an instinct of theirs, and those cold eyes were really cold that I had accumulated over the years, how could they not be afraid.

"Look at her like that, like a shrew, still young......" the girl next to her muttered quietly.

Hearing their thoughts, I stepped aside, looked at the dress and began to think.

"It's time!Ready to begin!" called the backstage field teacher.

When I heard this, I reached out and grabbed the garment and tore it as fast as I could!

"Look, she's going crazy with a lot of depression!haha!" look......" The girl pointed at me with a happy face.

"Huh...... Tear up her clothes to relieve her anger!?Where can she destroy this backstage clothes casually? We'll sue her later!"