Chapter 159 158
Chu Chenghui seemed to feel Mu Chujin's resistance, stopped the movement in his hand, and just hugged Mu Chujin. Breathing heavily, he lay on Mu Chujin's body, and his voice was slightly thick, with a **** that had never retreated. However, there was no movement in the hand.
"I know you're very resistant to me right now, and I know I'm not doing it right, I'm being selfish. There was a candle flame flickering and reflecting on Chu Chenghui's face, and there was light and shadow scattered, which made it even more lonely.
Mu Chujin was distressed at that moment, she did snub Chu Chenghui for a while, just because Chu Chenghui did not conform to what she wanted in her heart, nor did she fulfill the life she wanted, she felt that he didn't understand her enough, so she ignored him for a while, and the moment she saw such a haggard and tired state on his face, her heart softened slightly, she couldn't deny that she felt sorry for the man in front of her.
Mu Xiaoluo reached out and gently patted Chu Chenghui's back. "I know you're tired, is this country really so important to you? Aren't you tired? Such a broken body, such an absurd life, upheaval, and the flames of war, is this really what you want?" Mu Xiaoluo's voice was filled with a touch of helplessness, and there was a bit of cold comfort in the helplessness, she really wanted him to let go, let go of this country, and from then on idle clouds and wild cranes, and hold the world in her hands.
"That's my responsibility, I know, it's you. Chu Chenghui sighed shallowly, Mu Xiaoluo only felt a chill on his body, it was Chu Chenghui who let go of his embrace, turned around and took off his clothes, and looked like he was going to wash, but Mu Xiaoluo rushed up and hugged Chu Chenghui tightly from behind, there were broken tears in his eyes, but they did not fall.
"Actually, I just want to have a safe and stable home where no one will destroy it, in fact, I just want a quiet life, just like what you promised me, paradise, I want to have a child, a complete home, all I want is this, I'm just afraid, one day, you will be involved in the palace war again, and there will be no way to get out. I'm afraid I'll never be able to get that kind of security again in my life. ”
Mu Xiaoluo's tears overflowed from her eyes, penetrating Chu Chenghui's clothes and staining a piece of dampness.
"I understand, I understand, I thought you understood me, you really understood me, right? Chu Chenghui turned around, stretched out his hand to hold Mu Xiaoluo's shoulder, and looked at Mu Xiaoluo with a firm look in his eyes, and the tenderness in his eyes, even the soft pleading, fell into Mu Xiaoluo's eyes without dropping.
What he needs is her belief and waiting, but she desperately wants to use her stubbornness to correct the man's insistence, she is not a good wife, she is her wife, and she should have supported him, but she has always been stubborn and unwilling to admit defeat, and she is stronger than men, so even if she is a wife, she doesn't know the truth of softness.
She wasn't like this before, when did she change? It was from Chu Juegao's night when she didn't return, or because Chu Juegao betrayed again and again, or because of the death of herself and her child, which made her die for a moment, and she no longer believed that there was still a promise in this world. So even for Chu Chenghui, there was no way to completely let go of his inner guard.
"I know I should support you, but I'm really scared, no one wants to be a person with a story for the rest of their lives, and they don't want to be left with a life of constant displacement. Mu Xiaoluo said word by word, and even stubbornly refused to pause in the middle, and between her words, you could see how eager she was to express herself.
Chu Chenghui hugged Mu Xiaoluo tightly in his arms, and even his breathing became short. Chu Chenghui's eyes also moistened. "I want you to wait for me, but I understand that you have been displaced in this life, and you have lived enough broken and wolf, I should not force you, but I love you, even if I can't give you a quiet and far-reaching life, I will definitely be able to give you a pamper, I didn't protect you before, and from now on, I will definitely protect you well." Chu Chenghui's eyes looked firmly into Mu Xiaoluo's eyes, and looked at Mu Xiaoluo's broken eyes carefully.
"Okay, I'll wait for you, I thought you were a person who repromised, but you've broken the contract once, and this time, I don't want to see you break the contract again. Mu Xiaoluo snorted, and only tears flickered in her eyes, but she held back the teardrops that kept falling, Chu Chenghui laughed shallowly, and the brilliance that erupted in her eyes at that moment burst out at this moment, and in the silent night, her eyes were swayed.
There are red candles flickering, like the ambiguous fire of a newlywed, shrouded in the faces of the two people, constantly swaying. The snorts of the two people were silently entwined together, as if inadvertently, the air in the room rubbed sparks, showing an ambiguous taste, Chu Chenghui fiercely lowered his head and kissed Mu Xiaoluo's lips, the cold touch was close to the corners of Mu Xiaoluo's mouth, tossing and turning, and even his hands began to wander dishonestly on Mu Xiaoluo's body.
Both of them breathed heavily, one after another. Mu Xiaoluo's body was originally loosely on Mu Xiaoluo's shoulder, most of Mu Xiaoluo's spring light was all exposed to the night, and the white blow-off skin still had damp water stains, which looked even more attractive.
The moon seemed to have become shy and hid in the clouds. The light of the red candle was extinguished in the room, and only the cold light of the night shone into the room from the window, and only the sound of breathing was left in the room, and the breathing was staggered, making people blush with shame.
Huanbi opened her hand calmly, and let the maid put the red embroidered golden wedding dress on her body, the corners of her eyes were covered with the rouge of Kodan, and the corners of her mouth were also painted with a red color, which was very charming, coupled with the trace of coldness under her eyes, it was even more prominent and demonic, and there was a cold beauty, which soaked out from her body layer by layer.
"Mother, don't you have a straight face, it won't look good with a straight face. Tomorrow is the day of great joy, which many women can't ask for in their lifetime. The little girl's face was full of smiles, with a flattering look, carefully sorting out every part of Huanbi's body, even very fine folds.
However, Huanbi silently turned her head and looked coldly at the maid standing behind her. "Do you want it? I'll put it on for you if you want it. While smiling, he stretched out his hand and motioned to the maid to take off the phoenix robe on her body with her eyes, the maid didn't expect Huanbi to have such a reaction, and the whole person couldn't help but be stunned for a moment, and then knelt down with a pop, her shoulders trembled like chaff, and she knelt on the ground, her eyes were full of timid colors.
Kneeling on the ground and trembling. The little maid was almost weeping. "Niangniang, don't make such jokes with slaves, slaves really can't afford to make such jokes, they want to lose their heads. The little girl's hands were on the ground, and her shoulders trembled uncontrollably, like chaff, and then Huanbi laughed slowly. At that moment, the swaggering appearance of the flower branches seemed to be really happy, but the moment Huanbi's lips painted with Kodan were lightly hooked, it was also like a vampire-like infiltration, and when he looked at people with a smile, it invisibly added coercion, and the whole person of the maid was even about to prostrate on the ground. Seeing it, it seems that he is about to kneel down and kowtow to Huanbi.
"I'm just joking with you, what are you afraid of, I can really kill you. Huanbi stretched out her hand lightly to the little maid in front of her, Huanbi even showed a kind of Kodan color on her nails, with a breathtaking bewitching appearance in the bright red, that bewitching appearance, like a goblin, not at all a temperament that a person can have.
The servant girl knelt on the ground, and even hesitated to take a step back, not even daring to put her hand between Huanbi's palms. A flash of surprise flashed in Huanbi's eyes, and then she slowly straightened up, her skirt swaying on the ground, and Huanbi turned around like this, dragging the long skirt and walked forward.
"Since you don't want to get up, then it's not hard for me to do it for you. Huanbi's voice was slightly ruthless, and the little girl trembled on the ground before jumping up from the ground. "I stand up, I stand up, mother, you are angry. Then the maid hurriedly walked behind Huanbi with small steps, and followed behind Huanbi step by step.
Huanbi walked forward indifferently, the soles of her shoes were so soft that she barely made the slightest sound, and the wedding dress was as hot as fire, and the sadness seemed to be cardamom red stained with blood. The little maid struck a clever slap, and Huanbi at this moment didn't look like a vibrant living person at all. Just like a dead man.
Huanbi pushed open the door in front of her, and the moonlight fell in like her cold eyes, reflecting on her bright red clothes, scarlet like blood, the little girl followed Huanbi and walked step by step, but found that Huanbi came and walked more and more towards the remote place. The little girl's legs began to tremble, and she didn't even dare to follow Huanbi anymore.
The moonlight shrouded Huanbi's face coldly, which set off the paleness of Huanbi's face more and more, and also highlighted the cardamom red of her lips. Huanbi is like a sleepwalking person, walking forward like a dream. The footsteps were mechanical and lifeless, and the red skirt was worn underneath, and there were golden silk threads delicately embroidered on the skirt.
"Niangniang, don't go any further, the place in front of you is where the people live, it's so late, and the people are almost all resting. The little girl's voice trembled, and she cautiously followed behind Huanbi, for fear that the moment Huanbi turned around, she would become a bloodsucking devil.
Huanbi didn't seem to hear the little girl's kind reminder at all, but she was still walking forward on her own. The footsteps were numb and mechanical, as if she was carrying out an action that had been habitually carried out, and the little girl was calm, even if she passed through the rockeries in front of her, and even the subtle moonlight was blocked, she still had to follow Huanbi carefully.
When Huanbi walked to the foot of a tree that seemed to have a year, she stopped, and her cheeks, which were still strict just now, softened like a glacier melting, and instantly softened into a pool of spring water, and even looked at the big tree in front of her with tenderness in her eyes, and gently leaned on her back.
Turning her head to look at the little maid who was following her, Huanbi smiled shallowly, I don't know if it was the problem of lowering her eyebrows, or because the moonlight was softening at this time, the little maid didn't feel that Huanbi's eyes were so terrifying at this moment.
"Do you know? Back then, I was just a maid like you who was nothing, I didn't even have a low position like you, I was just a little maid who was responsible for washing clothes, and what I had to face every day was the clothes that could not be washed, do you know how many years I had been in this palace? Ten years, ten whole years, I entered the palace at the age of eight, but I have always been a little palace maid who washes clothes, I am just a little palace maid, I am nothing. I washed my clothes for ten years. ”
It seems that there is no meaning to talk to anyone at all, from beginning to end it is just a person's confiding, from beginning to end, it is Huanbi who is stating, but Huanbi's sharp eyes are gradually blurred at this moment, chaotic, it seems to be caught in memories, constantly recalling something.
"Do you know? In winter, my water is very cold, cold and biting, my hands have been wrinkled in the water, numb to the soak, and even broken, and blood is constantly oozing out, but because I stained the clothes of the concubine, and beat me. As if thinking of some painful past, Huanbi hooked the corners of her mouth disdainfully, but the stubbornness and pride in her eyes never wavered at all. Huanbi's eyes looked into the distance clearly, as if she remembered something, and then smiled warmly and shallowly.
The exchange of pain and joy at that moment made the people watching slightly sad.
"At that time, I didn't even want to continue to live, the life in this palace was simply a life that was worse than that of a pig and a dog. You're also a handmaid, don't you say?" Huanbi's gaze penetrated the moonlight and fell straight on the little maid, and the look and inquiry in her eyes even made the little maid tremble, and she didn't even know how to answer.
This is the case in this palace, the people who live at the bottom of the palace are constantly living a life that is inferior to life and death, even pigs and dogs, this kind of life, as a little maid, she naturally understands better than anyone else. However, she didn't know how to talk to Huanbi, but Huanbi looked like a crazy person at this time, she was afraid that if she said the wrong thing, she would be pinched off by Huanbi