When I heard that Feng Li was leaving, I slammed the door hard!

But after a few smashes, I felt that I couldn't hear their voices anymore, so I quickly quieted down and listened!

"If you dare to go to him, I'll break your legs directly!!" Feng Yan shouted loudly.

"What's wrong with him? He's my own father!Who are you!?"

"I'm your real mother!!"

"I don't want to be the mother of a girl standing on the street! I don't want you to be such a cheap mother! Do you know why I fight? It's all because of you! It's all because of you! It's all because of you!!"

Feng Yan immediately burst out and shouted, "Don't go!"

"You let me go! I'm going to find my dad! You're a young lady! I won't let you do this, you have to do this! You don't do it! My classmates scolded me and laughed at me! They beat me together! I don't want such a mother! I don't want it! I don't want !!."

I've never heard Feng Li's screaming so hideous, I've never heard it!

His calm and stubborn appearance suddenly became illusory at that moment!

However, I know that he is because of his mother, and he has taken off all his pretenses, all his strength, because of his own mother!

He just wanted to express ...... I don't want Feng Yan to be a young lady, he doesn't want so many strange men to touch her mother!!

"You give me back!!" Feng Yan shouted to chase after her, her voice getting quieter and quieter!

I slammed the door and shouted, "Brother, brother, brother!!"

When I couldn't hear their noise, I ran to the window on the other side and leaned out to look out!

saw Feng Li running hard in front, and Feng Yan was chasing more and more weakly.

When Feng Li ran to the intersection and disappeared at a corner, Feng Yan, who couldn't catch up, stopped, trembled with her hands on her knees, and bent over to cry.

When many people gathered around her, they turned around and wiped their tears as they walked.

When I saw her walk into the store, I ran over and slammed the door!

"Bang, bang, bang!"

She ran up, opened the door, grabbed me by the collar with red eyes, and dragged me down!

Dragged me all the way to the door!

"Get out, get out, get out!" she shouted as she pushed me out of the doorway.

I don't know why she reacted the way she did.

Her face was crying so really, as if she had lost a loved one. The atmosphere was gasping as if he couldn't breathe.

"...... Get out of here!!"

Where do I go? Where can I go?

I ...... "I don't know what to say."

"What are you! You're like your brother! You all get out! He's gone, you're running! Run! Run! Run!!I'm a miss, I'm cheap! I'm cheap! You're all running...... Run!"

I was still stunned and looked at her almost crazy.

Seeing that I was stunned, she turned around and ran into the store, took out an old chicken feather blanket with only a few hairs left, and ran out quickly!

"Run!" she cried out and ran up to me and slammed it on my ass.

I looked at her incredible tears and jumped up and hugged her.

At that moment, I felt that she loved Feng Li more than me. It's true. At that time, I felt very strongly, she had beaten Feng Li for so many years, but she also loved him for so many years.

She gave me a few hard blows, then crouched on the ground and began to weep.

At that time, I wanted to call "Mom", but I couldn't. In his heart, he hated her like Feng Li. However, at that moment, she squatted on the ground and cried bitterly, but I inexplicably felt a sense of sympathy.

The kind of same-on-fellowship that no one wants, and everyone rejects.

……

Feng Yan didn't hit me again, she hugged me and cried for a while. A few young ladies in the store next to us were smoking cigarettes and looking at us very indifferently.

When I look at them, they smile a little weirdly. It feels like I'm just like them.

I avoided their gaze, but I felt a slight panic in my heart.

Back in the store, Feng Yan sat on the sofa in a daze. I went and poured her a glass of water.

She didn't drink either, and looked at the cup in a daze.

After dinner in the evening, she started to put on makeup again.

After putting on makeup, he leaned against the door frame in that posture again. Only this time, she was a little tired, and her head was slightly pressed against the door frame, a little more desolate than before.

When a guest arrived, I went back to my room and continued to listen to their shouts. When I used to live with Li Sheng, I would be scared when I heard those voices. However, now that I get used to it, I feel so bland.

Perhaps, there is a reason why she is not my real mother.

Man is a very adaptable animal.

No matter how harsh the environment, you can survive.

However, there are certain influences in certain environments that can profoundly change a person's heart. It's just that many times, I don't know that I have changed.

Just as I was unconsciously, I was no longer nervous and scared when I heard those voices.

On the second floor, I heard Feng Yan's countless patterns of conversations with strange men, and I went to peek more than once. Sometimes, watching that kind of thing is addictive. Of course, it's more curiosity.

Looking back now, I feel that I was a little abnormal at that time. However, for me at that time, it was probably more like a pastime. No TV, no books, just the action and laughter of their fornication.

When someone praised Feng Yan for her good life and threw the money, when I heard her laugh so heartlessly, I even laughed along......

A little girl sat at the corner of the stairs, smiling at the two adults who fornicated.

If ordinary people see the scene at that moment, to be precise, it is the 'smile' on my face at that moment. They would have been amazed and incredulous. If you ask a psychologist to look at it, it may be that there is already a depravity factor in the subconscious.

Then, I vividly remember one day.

The second day of the lunar month.

That afternoon, Feng Yan went out to buy groceries. And I walked to the old-fashioned barber chair, picked up the makeup in front of me, applied makeup to the mirror in front of me, and imitated her appearance. The eyebrows are well drawn, but when I apply lipstick, the corners of the mouth are slightly off.

When she pushed the door open, I was still holding lipstick. Her eyes lit up after watching me paint myself a little bewitching.

That bright-eyed expression is familiar to me, much like the look Li Sheng had when he first saw me menstruating.

However, the only difference was that Feng Yan's eyes had an extra taste of approval.

Of course, I remember that day because of another thing.

Before Feng Yancai could put it down, a seventeen or eighteen-year-old girl walked in from outside the door.

"Yo! Cui'er!" Feng Yan looked back and greeted.

After the girl glanced at me, she turned to Feng Yan and smiled and said, "Sister Yan'er, we will go back to our hometown tomorrow." My sister asked me to come over and call you, let's have a drink together tonight. ”

"Okay! What time is it?"

After Feng Yan put the dishes under the table, she stood up and responded with a smile.

"My sister said, I'll call a few of our relatives tonight, so don't be busy! As soon as half past six arrives, I'll go to the big dormitory in our bathing shop to drink. ”

"Okay!"

"Eh, Sister Yan'er, who is this girl?" she asked, looking at me.

When Feng Yan heard this, a smile appeared on her face, and she said happily: "My sister!

When I heard Feng Yan call me her sister, I felt a little abnormal, but I didn't speak.

"Okay, that's okay, it's a bark at night?" said Cui'er with a smile.

"Okay! take her to see!"

After Cui'er left, Feng Yan walked over happily, grabbed my hand and walked upstairs, and said with a smile as she went upstairs: "Don't wear these clothes tonight! I'll find you a good-looking body!"

The first day with a bra is a lifetime for every woman.

That was my first time. Twelve years old.

I'll tell you the truth, I wasn't developing well at that time. Although the menstrual period came early, the figure was obviously slower by more than half a beat. He is almost 1.6 meters tall, with only a slight bulge on his chest. Moreover, at some point, it is very concave (girls know it).

Another impression I remember about wearing a Bra for the first time is also because she made me try N types, N times.

Finally, at the end of the day, I chose the thickest Bra.

After putting on the thick clothes, I was a little embarrassed to look in the mirror. However, I wasn't a kid anymore. Quite a few things have been learned.

At the bend of that staircase, I peeked. I saw many, many men of all ages and colors. They will always praise Feng Yan while constantly praising her turbulence.

At that time, I wondered if I was developing abnormally.

So, when Feng Yan chose a super thick Bra for me and put on clothes, I was very happy in my heart.

Because, I feel, I seem to have "grown up".

It's like, if you put an adult dress on a child, they will unconsciously pretend to be an adult.

Feng Yan chose a bright red sweater for me, which was a little loose on my body. I still remember that there were a few places in the back of the sweater where the red wool fell off.

The pants are still my jeans, and the shoes are still my sneakers.

As she was about to leave the door, she looked back at me again. After putting down a handy bag of fruit in my hand, I took the toilet paper next to me and wiped my mouth. Then, I took the lipstick and repainted my lips.

After a few satisfied glances, he threw the lipstick on the table casually and said, "Let's go!"

……

Out of the door, it was so cold.

That loose sweater didn't work at all, and at that moment, I wondered how she was standing in the door in such a cold day facing the cold wind.

Fortunately, Cui'er's store is not far away, and it takes a few hundred meters to arrive.

It is a bathing center much larger than Feng Yan,

Feng Yan didn't raise her head and walked straight in.

I looked up at the words 'bathing center', and on the colorful luminous tubes, the big red characters were particularly beautiful.

"Hurry up!" she shouted back.

"Oh!" I replied, hurrying over.

"When you go in, you say you're sixteen. You know?" she whispered as I approached.

I didn't answer and nodded.