13. The love of gold - sinking
When Tian Jin recalled his unforgettable college life many years later, he still smiled and said with a slightly mature stiff face, and sometimes showed a faint smile.
I still admit that the traces left by those times seem to be carved into my bones, and these days of fighting, laughing, pain, and torture are all spent together, and I think that's enough.
Zeng Xiayuan's atmospheric, free and easy and innocent personality is the most important factor that attracts Tian Jin, of course, they also have contradictions and quarrels, but these are not able to separate two people who really love each other, but with these tribulations and setbacks, they know how to understand each other and support each other.
Love is a marathon, only by knowing how to support each other can we reach the finish line, and the process of going through the marathon is sometimes more important than the process. When you look at the mountains and rivers, you know that the lights are not for you.
We can't change the environment, but we can change ourselves, so that we can slowly adapt to this strange environment, when one day this environment slowly does not embarrass you, that is, the signal of becoming stronger, only by constantly exercising yourself can match the summer edge.
This has always been Tian Jin's idea, and since he liked Xia Yuan, he began to reinvent himself
He doesn't like to get up early, but Zeng Xia Yuan likes to go for a morning run, so he became accustomed to eating breakfast every day, he doesn't like to read, but Xia Yuan likes the artistic conception of flowers floating and flowing artesian, so he went to the library every once in a while Just to meet her to say hello, he doesn't like to nag But even he didn't expect that one day he would become so nagging.
He seems to have been weak, infatuated, and self-righteous, but now these are all in vain, and they have turned into lonely cigarettes and inhaled into his lungs.
"When the spring hatred came last year, the falling flowers were independent, and the swifts flew together" Every time Tian Jin saw Zeng Xiayuan every time he saw Zeng Xiayuan, it was like seeing spring, like seeing the scene of a hundred flowers competing for beauty, like seeing the spring breeze last night caressing the willow leaves.
The subtle sound of the spring breeze is the horn of love, the spring of the junior year is their first spring together, and he finally mustered up the courage on the last day of the first half of the junior year to make an appointment with Zeng Xiayuan At that time, the moonlight was so bright as jade, and she returned like a beautiful colored cloud
Tian Jin had already come to the girls' dormitory and stood under their dormitory waiting for Xia Yuan, that day Xia Yuan was wearing a simple dress and tied up a ponytail He watched Xia Yuan walk towards him step by step, as if all this seemed so unreal.
Although he has been a classmate for three years, today's Zeng Xiayuan has given Tian Jin a new feeling, as if from this moment on, they are no longer familiar and become strange.
Xia Yuan walked over and said softly, "I've made you wait for a long time," Tian Jin looked at her sincere and congratulatory eyes, and forgot to answer for a while, just looked at Zeng Xia Yuan in front of her blankly, she looked at Tian Jin who was stunned, and felt a little like laughing.
"Hey, what's wrong with Tian Jin, don't you know me" Zeng Xia Yuan said with a hint of doubt, then Tian Jin came back to his senses, scratched his head, and said embarrassedly, "No, I just feel that you are very beautiful today" Xia Yuan said angrily, "What do you mean, I am not usually beautiful?"
Tian Jin didn't know what to say for a while, and he was a little embarrassed, Zeng Xiayuan looked at him with a smile and said loudly, "Haha, you won't still be shy," Tian Jin also smiled and said, "How can I not be so thin-skinned," Zeng Xiayuan patted Tian Jin's arm and said, "Why do you want to ask me to go today?"
Tian Jin said very seriously, "Today, I want to ask our Zeng Da beauty to walk around, I don't know if you give Xiaosheng this opportunity" Zeng Xiayuan looked at Tian Jin in front of him for a while, and laughed for a while, and said slowly, "Haha, I'll listen to you today, haha" Tian Jin looked at Xia Yuan and said, "Then please let the eldest princess go, haha" As he spoke, he stretched out his hand and put on the appearance of a eunuch, and Zeng Xiayuan smiled and leaned forward and leaned back.
It was a quiet night, and there were not many people traveling outside the school, Tian Jin and Xia Yuan walked together, and there was silence all the way, but no one broke the tranquility. Tian Jin just walked a few steps to the side and looked at Xia Yuan beside him, he wanted to take the initiative to open up some topics, but he didn't know how to say it. But Tian Jin knew very well that he was here to say goodbye today, so he must say that he didn't want to regret it today, he just wanted to tell her everything about Xia Yuan in the past three years, he had made all the mental preparations, even if he failed, he had no regrets.
The dark yellow neon lights, scattered flower shadows and the bluestone slab return bridge are all the scenery that Tian Jin wants to take Xia Yuan to see, these are the scenery that Xia Yuan has walked through in the past three years, what she doesn't know is that she is lost and helpless, in fact, there is always such a person behind her who has been following her footsteps, she has been presenting the strong, not giving up, and grinning image of the people around her, only Tian Jin knows the tears behind this layer of disguise
She doesn't like to cry, she has to be strong, but she is a girl after all, she can't be as sad as an ordinary girl, so she can find a new hug Xia Yuan clearly understands that she has to rely on herself for everything Over time, the arrogance she raised has become a female man in the eyes of others, and only Tian Jin can see how many unwilling tears and despair are hidden behind her arrogance.
Tian Jin suddenly walked in front of Xia Yuan, and said to Xia Yuan seriously, "Actually, I have been liking and following you for three years, but I haven't said it" Xia Yuan looked at Tian Jin in front of him, couldn't believe his words, and said slowly, "You are joking"
Tian Jin looked at Xia Yuan and said affectionately, "I know you like to run every morning to exercise your mind, maybe it is also a kind of venting, I know that you like to read books in the library to enrich your knowledge, I know you like rabbits, I know you like to come here to sit here for a while every time you are unhappy, I know that you like to talk loudly with your face to the sky, I know that you like to carry everything to yourself, so this time I want to use my way to protect you, you never know how to take care of yourself Obviously, sometimes you are very tired and can't fall down." I want to make it happen to you that I can be a part of your life, I know it may be hard but I think I'm willing to try."
When Tian Jin said this sentence seriously, Xia Yuan knew that the man in front of her knew herself better than she imagined, and indeed she hadn't tried to open her heart to accept someone for too long, she was willing to make an exception for him this time, Xia Yuan looked at Tian Jin stupidly, and didn't know what to say.
Three years of classmates, but it seems that she really got to know him today. Such an affectionate and unpretentious confession is the most heart-to-heart words for Xia Yuan. [I finished writing this chapter in the Internet café today with a heavy heart, female men also have their own love, and I think they know better what love is, the most ordinary and casual love is the love that many people spend their lives to pursue, I am incompatible with this world but only cherish you]