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Looking for a library card today, I didn't find it in all the places, but I inadvertently turned out a diary, writing the diary of my freshman year, and turned two pages casually, turning out some past events:

12 November 2008

After chatting with Dan, she said that she went to Wuhan, I asked her what she was doing there, she didn't tell me, I didn't ask, just told her that girls should be well-behaved and don't run around, and later she told me that she fell asleep when she came back, and went to Xianning in a daze, but she couldn't find her way, she cried, and the uncle and aunt in the train were very good, gave her something to eat, and sent her back.

15 November 2008

In the evening, Xiang Feng told me that Dan sent a message to "tell Huang Huapeng, saying that I miss him so much." "I saw that it was sent at two o'clock in the middle of the night, I called and asked her why she didn't sleep so late yesterday, and suddenly sent such a message over, she said that she was playing at KTV, listening to "Sunny Day" very loudly, suddenly feeling very much, suddenly missing me, and then I asked her if she had been vaccinated against hepatitis B, and she said that she would take it tomorrow, and I hung up the phone with peace of mind.

I didn't expect to turn the page and see the memories of Dan, those were a long time ago, the diary was clearly recorded, if I didn't turn out this diary today, then it was likely to be sold as waste paper when I graduated, but fortunately I turned it out.

So how many years will I be able to find the diary I write now? I should be able to find it, I wrote it in the space, so that it will not be lost, but can I still remember it when I look at the current diary? Looking at this "countdown diary", will I still remember her face? Will I still remember the helpless feeling when chasing her? Will I still remember her nickname "skirt skirt"? Where was she at that time? I don't know.

The past, lingering,

The future has not yet come,

I'm lost in the present,

In remembrance of the diary,

Ahead, the future is unclear.

Today is yesterday's tomorrow,

Today is tomorrow's yesterday,

I stand today remembering yesterday and looking forward to tomorrow,

Write down my day in my diary.

I didn't find the library card after all, so I couldn't help Xiao Xia borrow books, so I went to the Internet café in the afternoon, and Xiao Xia gave me the stones, a total of three. Seven and a half went back to the dormitory, today Zhang Hang's birthday, at 8 o'clock together went to the homesick building to eat, set up three tables, some people I have an impression, but I don't know the name, only know that it was a freshman who played together for a while, and then I haven't seen it, and now I see it again, but I can't name it. The food was very delicious, I drank three glasses of wine, I didn't drink much, three glasses is almost the limit, Zhang Hang can drink very well, and he is very suitable for being an official in the future. After eating, I smoked two cigarettes, went outside to blow the cold wind to sober up, the night was dark, neon flashing, such a moment is easy to remember the past, and then said goodbye to Zhang Hangdao, and we went back to school together in the dormitory. When I passed through the campus avenue, looking at the shadow under the street lamp, I vaguely remembered the day of my freshman year, I don't know whose birthday dinner it was, after eating I smoked under the street lamp on the campus avenue, called the cloud, and didn't get through for an hour, I liked the cloud very much at that time, but then I lost contact, I haven't seen her for a year and a half, I haven't been in contact again, I don't know where she is, how is she doing, maybe I've forgotten me, I called her a few times last semester, she didn't answer, maybe she was running away, I won't call her again, I don't know if her mobile phone has changed。

Gemini is a nostalgic sign, and although I hate this very much myself, I can't help but think about the past, why did someone I loved so much become a stranger? I just want to love someone well, don't break up, and then get married, live a lifetime, falling in love is a painful thing, I don't want to go through it repeatedly. Young people are always very impulsive, saying that they will break up and break up, but they don't know that some people will never forget for a lifetime, and they are still entangled after the breakup, but they dare not approach, for fear of being hurt, when they are young, they will always let their loved ones be injured, and most of these injuries can not be healed, they can only be hidden in the depths, maybe when the lights are dim, when they are smoking, they will remember.

About Dan, it's more about remembrance. She hurt me, but I also hurt her, I often think, if she can endure it in the first year of high school and not break up with me, then she will definitely be my wife, but at that time I didn't think so, I thought that I could forget it after breaking up, but we didn't forget each other, at least I didn't forget, she may have forgotten, but I remembered me again in college, and then we continued to contact, but one day, I found out that I had been in a long dream, and after waking up from the dream, I knew that for her, there was a man's story that was more memorable than mine, and I was just the second, and I reluctantly continued to date for a while, only to find that we can no longer adapt to each other, time has changed us, but also changed the world, or changed our vision, there are too many filthy things, we are no longer simple.

As for Yun, I think it's more of a pity, she's the kind of girl who is very suitable to be a wife, very obedient, but I'm a step late after all, when she likes me, I'm still immersed in the decadence of breaking up with Dan, and when I like her, she already has a boyfriend, and I chased her very hard in my junior year of high school, I like to pinch her face, almost every day, she tends to make a puffing look, but what she doesn't know is that I pinched her face just to see her angry, because that look is so cute. At that time, I liked to change the water, after the water dispenser in the classroom was empty, many times I carried the bucket to the basement to change the water, but every time I went to change it when the cloud was thirsty, I would not change it when the cloud was not thirsty, I would only go when she was thirsty, only for her to fetch water alone, a bucket of water was 17 kilograms, from the basement to two floors, and then through the small garden in front of the apartment, and then to the teaching building, up to five floors, very tired, but I just liked, carry the water to the back of the classroom, put it on the water dispenser, I stayed there, the classmates came to drink water I was not allowed, I stopped them, must be the first to draw water, the cloud is finished I am willing to give way, let them fetch water, they all like to make jokes about me and Yun, and at this time Yun will most likely blush. Yun likes to call me a scoundrel, I am indeed a scoundrel in front of her, she likes to say, "Your mother's!" That's not angry, but a very cute tone, I take her words every time, I say, "My mother is your mother, you haven't been married into the door by me to treat your mother like this?" and then Yun had nothing to say, and looked at me angrily and said, "Scoundrel!" That expression is the cutest, but it's a pity that the college entrance examination came too quickly, near the time of the college entrance examination, we were much farther away, her mind was on studying, I had no intention of studying, looking at her back in a daze, at that time she studied with her tablemates, and after studying, I would be jealous every time, yes, her table mate was a boy, but I wouldn't fall into a dead end, after all, she wasn't my girlfriend, I was at best her good friend. So I often skip class, so that I don't see them playing and playing, and my way of skipping class is often legal, I will only take the empty bucket to change the water after the class rings, and when the water is carried to the garden in front of the apartment building, I will stop, lie on the grass and look at the blue sky, the sun is warm, it is very comfortable to shine on my body, listen to the music in the MP3, which can make me forget all my troubles, during that time I like to listen to a few songs "Quiet", "You Are Not Away", "Love is Simple", "Butterfly", "I Didn't Go Home Today" Listening to the music, I feel like I put the water on my back to the classroom when the class is about to end, and at this time the teacher doesn't care about me, often as soon as I return to my seat, the bell rings after class, and the class is absent like this, and the evening self-study is more serious, and the cloud study is very hard, I am just a bad student who has nothing to do, and it is not good to disturb her again, but I can't stay in the classroom, after the old class leaves, basically I also go, take my MP3, climb to the roof of the dormitory building, there is a water tower on the roof, I often climb the water tower, sit there and listen to love songs, this moment of the day is my most relaxed time, looking at this city from strange to familiar, and from familiar to strange, thinking about somethingThe starry sky above the water tower is very beautiful, I often lie on the water tower to watch the night sky, often a few hours later, after the evening self-study, even the lights in the dormitory have been turned off, when they are asleep, I will go downstairs, go back to the dormitory to sleep, that is a feeling of loneliness and loneliness, a person is lonely, thinking of a person is lonely, and I think of a person when I am alone.

A lot of times, I like to be alone, but more often than not, I can only be alone......

2010-06-03