I've always felt like being alone.

It's not the same as loneliness.

I felt lonely as I sat at the door of Su Qing's rental house and looked through the window of the stairs at the white snow under the street lamp outside.

Suddenly, I remembered the wanderings of my childhood. At that time, my little self was walking on a strange street, and I only had garbage bins in my eyes. Sometimes I pick up leftover meat from other people, and then I laugh so happily.

At that time, I was not afraid of the night, I liked the night, and it was the most beautiful in the dead of night.

I was afraid of the crowds, of the bustle, of the strange stares.

Maybe that's when you started to get used to and like solitude?

Savor your life in solitude, and walk in solitude......

We all have parents and friends, but we are all lonely individuals after all.

Smoke is lonely.

A cigarette was lit, and the lights in the hallway were lit by the sound of a lighter.

That light quickly pulled me back from my memories.

When the light went out again, the sound of Su Qing's high heels woke the light again.

"Heh......," she smiled at me at the corner of the stairs.

That kind of beauty is really beautiful, more beautiful than those stars on TV, and the beauty makes people can't believe that she is a woman who does a night show.

"It's coming. I stood up and said hello.

She walked up with a smile and hugged me without saying a word, "I just finished the fight, aren't you very sad now!"

"It's fine. I laughed.

I feel that her warmth is so natural, and it can naturally warm my heart.

Su Qing is very good at taking care of people, Su Yan is seven years younger than her, one year older than me, seventeen.

The two sisters are not from Hongren County, but from neighboring counties.

When Su Qing was in junior high school, her parents had a car accident when they were out and they were gone.

Again, unfortunate people have their own misfortunes. Su Qing started working to support her sister before finishing junior high school.

She plays the role of an older sister and also plays the role of a mother.

When there is no support in life, the strength in the inner child will grow and support her step by step to the present.

She vowed to let her sister live a good life, she said that her childhood was full of the shadow of her parents, but Su Yan's childhood did not have any shadow of her parents, and when she went to work, Su Yan was locked in her home by herself.

She felt that Su Yan lacked too much love in her life, so she especially wanted to give her more and more love.

She bought her a lot of toys and spoiled her like a tsundere princess, but her sister will always be an older sister, and she can't replace her parents. The rebellion in Su Yan's bones, she can't suppress it.

The rebellious Su Yan finally got into trouble, and took a pencil knife to scratch the face of the male classmate who scolded her. Long, deep, heavy, disfiguring scars that mean huge compensation.

She got into the business.

Life propelled this beauty into the neon-lit night scene.

Speaking of beauty, Su Qing doesn't like people to praise her for being beautiful, she herself always says that beauty is a disaster, and always says that beautiful women don't end well.

Because, beautiful women will always encounter more lies and temptations than the average person.

She said that she wished she was an ugly bastard, so that people might not lie to her and would honestly say "I don't like you".

She is sixteen years old and now twenty-four, and in eight years, she has experienced a lot of men and a lot of lies.

She had been in pain, she had cried, and her heart was dying.

However, she can always smile and say: "There will be love, and there will be ......"

At that time, I asked her, "Is love so good, is it so beautiful?"

She crossed her legs, hugged the big headrest, and smiled very nymphomaniac: "It's beautiful, it's beautiful, it's just ...... That kind of beauty is hard to come by. ”

"Why don't I feel that way, is it because I'm too young?" I asked curiously.

She touched my head, and those beautiful eyes stared at me and said, "You have it...... Through your eyes, I can see that there is a man living inside you. ”

At that moment, I stared into her eyes, and suddenly I forgot to breathe.

She reached out and lifted the collar around my neck, "Is this the man?"

Lu Li?

However, why is it that when I think of him, there is only a white expanse?

I didn't feel the emotion that made people smile, and I didn't feel the beautiful taste, all I could feel was "stuffy".

"Did Wei Zizhou send you?" she asked again.

"It's not...... I don't love Wei Zizhou. I smiled wryly and lay down, and never spoke again.

I thought about Lu Li's appearance when he was a child, the determined look in his eyes when he put his hand on my ear, and the way he looked when he put a finger ring on me before he left Hanjiang City.

"That man must be very important to you, right? Is he still in school?" Su Qing asked curiously, leaning on my shoulder.

Her hair hangs down to my face and is the smell of the shampoo that I love.

I turned my head and blew softly, and she was laughed at by me, her smiling eyes as beautiful as crescents.

"He's my brother, a very special brother...... He... Drug trafficking. I said.

After Su Qing heard this, the smile on her face disappeared, and her smart eyes were instantly covered with a layer of sad frost, "Then you... Then you must protect yourself...... Drugs, drugs ......"

“…… That thing kills people, and one of my adoptive mothers died from drugs. As I spoke, I recalled in my mind what Feng Yan looked like when she died, like a suffocating corpse.

"Didn't you say that you lived with your father since you were a child?" asked Su Qing curiously.

I suddenly felt that I had too many words, Wei Zizhou repeatedly taught me not to say what happened before, he was worried that the leopard master had any intentions, so I asked me not to tell others, especially not to the people in the Tao and the circle.

"My dad was not in good health, and when he was hospitalized, I was sent to live with that adoptive mother for a few months. "I'm lying.

"Oh......" she said with a smile, "Well, you're so smart, you'll be able to take care of your own affairs, go to sleep!"

She said, turning off the lights.

In the dark, we were covered with a quilt, and the electric blanket under us was warm.

Her hand reached over and gently grasped mine.

"Fei Fei?" she called softly.

"Huh?" I replied, feeling her hand clench again.

"I heard you're doing a good job...... While working in nightclubs and going to school, I can also take the exam very well. ”

"It's okay......"

"Su Yan used to study very well, she was very smart, but she didn't go to school after junior high school. She said.

"Oh, is it?" I replied simply. Although I could feel that she had something to say, I didn't ask much.

"Some time ago I met a guest who was a leader of the Education Bureau. She said, her cool fingers rubbing my hand gently. She was a little nervous, nervous only when talking about Su Yan.

"EDB?" I grabbed her hand with my backhand, not wanting her to be so nervous.

"Well, from the Education Bureau, that man likes me very much, but he's very fat and lustful, and he keeps trying to let me come out, but I haven't come out. However, last Friday, I went out with him......"

"Why did you come out when you hate him so much?" I asked. I know that Su Qing is not short of money.

"The man said that he could help Su Yan run a school, which is your No. 1 middle school registration," she said, turning around, looking at me and saying, "I know you are smart, my intuition tells me that you are not a simple girl." ”

"......" I looked at her a little stunned.

"Fei Fei, can you help me, help me persuade Su Yan to go back to school...... She's only seventeen years old, so it's not too late. If it takes another two years, then her life will really be ruined...... I... I was really scared, I was so scared...... Don't look at me laughing all day, but I'm really helpless, and I feel useless when I think of my dead parents...... But Su Yan happened to be in the rebellious period, and I... I don't ...... at all," she said, tears streaming down her face.

However, when she was talking about Su Yan at that moment, what I thought of was Liu Suyun.

I can't save Liu Suyun, what can I do to get Su Yan back to school?

"Fei Fei, you can do it...... Right?"

“……”

"Fei Fei, can you help me?" she burst into tears when she saw that I was silent.

"Well, okay, let's figure out how to get her back to school......" I said.

When she heard this, she hugged me and said, "Thank you! Thank you!"

She hugged me tightly, and my body was trembling with excitement.

However, can I really get Su Yan back to school?

With a bang, the door to the main house rang. It's Su Yan who is back.

The bodies we were hugging suddenly froze.

"Fuck! Xiaoxue!" she was on the phone, and her tone should have been aggrieved tonight, "You bring a letter to that coerced man!" The old lady won't come out now, but once the old lady comes out, she can't fucking kill that dog! Lang fuck mother! I won't inquire about my sister's relationship with the leopard master! When Lao Tzu gets a more awesome master, I can't fucking kill him!"