leave

I'm about to leave, 3 hours later, the ticket from Changsha to Shanghai, 1177 kilometers, the distance between the two worlds, 14 hours of travel, but it is a lifetime. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 info Two eyes, a hundred and eighty degree perspective, all north, I can't see the hometown behind me, look up, the snowflakes are fluttering, I can't catch a meter of sunlight, the soil of the north country, suitable for sowing or burying, I dare to plant my dreams.

0 °C air, 37 °C body, my trembling body can't help myself, the mood is very chaotic, I can't press the keyboard, what kind of key order, there will be a paragraph of text that matches my thoughts, time is minute by second, but I can't exchange a word.

Since the age of 5, I have been staying on campus and have never thought about leaving, and since 5 minutes later, I have to keep walking and never stay again. This time I walked out of school, but it was forever, not a vacation, not a skipping class, not going to breakfast.

Good bye

From now on, I can only keep moving forward, I can't turn back, the teaching building is behind me, the dormitory is getting farther and farther away from me, the noise of classmates disappears, the teacher's homework can only be written in memories, the exam secretly cheats, it is still very exciting to think about, the girl who walked by with a book under the boulevard became a woman in the dance hall with a wine glass and shaken, and we sank together in the bright lights.

With 400 degrees of myopia, I can clearly see myself 4 months later - dragging my tired body after work, walking through the dark reflection of high-rise buildings, slowly wandering away in the neon glittering streets, many people on the street, but none of them know, the bright shop windows on the side of the street are printed with their cloudy eyes, and a mature face inside, completely insulated from the words vigorous.

The farewell moment reminds me of Rhett in "The Shawshank Redemption", and 1900 in "The Pianist at Sea", Rhett left forty years of prison, but 1900 did not get out of the ship that stayed all his life, I can't tell who is right and who is wrong, the former is reality, the latter is a fairy tale, and I am looking forward to fairy tales in reality.

Well, that's it, it's time to disassemble the computer and pack the luggage, goodbye, campus.

Huang Huayi, 2011.01.03