"Don't beat me!" the woman shouted.

"Huh, big brother, this... What's going on?" asked Neko, turning his head anxiously.

"Ask your daughter-in-law what is the matter! Who should you give this land to, I will never come again!" said my father, ignoring me, limping to the back door.

I quickly took the woven bag and followed.

I heard the woman say something about me this and that, and wanted me to be a princess. As a result, as soon as I stepped out the back door, I heard a resounding slap in the face.

The footsteps stopped suddenly!

He... He beat his wife?

Is it just for her few words?

My father was very angry and climbed into the tricycle, put the crutches behind him, turned his head as if he remembered something, stared at me sharply and asked, "Do you know what that woman wanted you to do just now?"

"I don't know. "I lied.

"If you don't know, you are not allowed to come to this place. Come up, let's go back. Father said.

As soon as I sat up, Neko came running.

grabbed his father's handlebar and pleaded, "Big brother, big brother, don't be angry, don't be angry!

The father was silent.

He turned his head to look at me and said, "This, this is our girl? Okay! That's good! Don't worry, big brother, as long as I am in charge of this shop, it is impossible for our girl to do that!"

"Don't say it, it's not right for me to beat your wife just now, big brother will admit your mistake to you, my calf protector is too powerful. ”

When my dad said this, Genzi stopped laughing, and said very seriously: "Big brother, brothers know your suffering. We are all former soldiers, and no one in the city who has ever been a soldier does not respect you. I know your character, I don't blame you for today's incident, only my wife's bad mouth! ”

I think Genzi's words are so sincere, and when I was about to get off the bus, my father said, "I won't accept it." That money should be used as your wife's medical expenses. ”

As the father spoke, he gently pushed away the root of the hand and left.

When you go back,

Neither of us was in a good mood.

"Dad, the money has been given to others, and the root has such a good attitude, why don't you accept it?" I asked unhappily as I sat back. After all, I understand the principle of bowing your head when you should bow your head, why is he so stubborn?

"You don't know what that woman told you to do. How many of the girls in it ended up with a good end? The smart ones got out early, and the unsmart ones were ruined. How indecent is it to hug and hug men all day long?"

"I don't want to go to that place! you don't need to leave those bottles!"

&

When I got home, my father knew that I hadn't eaten breakfast and asked me to go for breakfast.

Thinking about the wine bottles in that place, and then thinking about the lost money, I went straight to the bedroom uncomfortably.

Remembering Ah Zhu's letter, he turned his head and saw that his father was still busy, so he pulled it out of his suitcase.

Ah Zhu scribbled himself, but he could still get a rough idea.

- Li Fei: I'm going to die.

Before I die, I will talk to you, whether you can understand it or not.

I've known you for a long time, and you may think I'm happy when you look at my hippie smile all day long, but in fact, my life is a tragedy. Death, in fact, is sometimes more like a relief. I've had enough of these rambling dark days, and I want light. I hate my stinky salted fish body, and I hate it when I lie in bed at night.

Li Fei, never follow my sister's path. Never be as stupid as I am. If you are cheap, if you let it go again, the faces of those men will be shrouded in your mind like a devil. Then, when you're vulnerable, they crawl out and laugh at you over and over again. It stinks, it stinks.

When you come to see me, I shouldn't stink. I'll wash myself up and put on the white lace pajamas I just bought recently, the purest white pajamas I think.

I don't know how to write, I have a lot of things in my head that I want to say to you, but I don't know how to express them.

It's a lot of chaos in our circle, I've been through a lot of circles, but these circles are all circles where women are played by men. I have been a princess in KTV, and I was sent by Sister Mei to take very special photos, if I hadn't given birth, I might have been sent to a bigger and more luxurious store. But no matter how luxurious or materialistic, men's minds are always the same, they just want to solve their desires!

At that time, you were not a person at all, you were a tool in the store, a tool in front of a man. So, you should never think that you are worth a lot of money, and no matter how much money they give you, you should never think that is a good thing. No matter how much you want to make money, don't step into this circle, once you do, you will be blackened by desire.

I've seen so much over the years! However, my heart is not dark, and if I did, I wouldn't have committed suicide. Li Fei, promise me never to set foot on this road. A way to vent for men.

By the way, maybe you are curious, what kind of mentality I was in before I committed suicide, I tell you, it was very cold, but it was also very warm.

I know I'm a little incoherent, and I've always been.

I miss my mom and dad very much now, but since I was a child, I was a left-behind child and a girl, and no one took care of me after the two of them divorced. You know, I gave birth to a child, and that child died, and I was in despair. I often think about the question of why do I love my children so much when my parents don't?

Why, exactly?

……

And then there's a blank space.

When I saw those blanks, my heart was also blank.

I've seen her live with her sisters, but I haven't seen how she serves those men in the KTV box, I haven't seen them do anything in that service bed, and I don't know what they mean by luxury living.

However, now I am no longer the ignorant child of the twelve-year-old, I am a person who has experienced abuse from others and experienced ups and downs.

What I know and what I have experienced is very different, and I can read every word written by Ah Zhu very clearly.

Those so-called 'tools', those so-called 'material', those so-called hearts blackened by greedy desires.

But I think that Ah Zhu's death is not because she is not material, not because her heart is not black, more because she has no love, and more because there is no one to protect her.

And I have love, at least at the age of sixteen, I have found a very precious father's love.

……

Walk out of the bedroom and onto the small wooden dining table in front of the stove, where a large bowl is clasped to a small bowl.

Touch it with your hand, and the noodles inside are still warm.

I was a little hungry after tossing all morning, and when I picked it up, I found that there was still an egg in it.

However, when I looked down and found that there was only one eggshell in the garbage basket, my heart suddenly felt like I had been pressed against a boulder.

After eating,

After putting away the dishes and chopsticks, I pushed open the dilapidated door, and the sun outside the house was very strong.

My father was there with a few old guys, looking at his tanned and swarthy face, looking at his loving face under the sun, thinking of the scene when my father took me to that KTV this morning, when the female boss asked me to be a "princess", my father picked up his crutches and smashed them at her.

That is a kind of protection of parents for their children, and the father is not a person!

The thing that the father raised his long cane and beat even if he fell down is not a human being! It is a "trap" on the road of the child's growth!

In the future, I must let my father live a good life!

With your own hands, change your life.

I will not fall into the dust, I will support our family with my father.

A home with love!

&

There was still half a month left after leaving school, and I accompanied my father to work every day.

My father's tricycle was much heavier than I had imagined. On the pedal of his right foot, he made a round iron ring, and when he put his foot into it, he could use one leg to pedal. It's hard for me to imagine how he did it, but he did.

When he saw that I was riding in trouble, he smiled and told me to come down and carry me again.

In this county, more and more people know our father and daughter.

However, the world is wonderful.

When I'm dressed dirty and my skin is slowly tanned, people will think I'm an uneducated girl.

We are all used to judging a person by their appearance.

When we criticize a person, when we always look at a person in a different light, that person will change unconsciously.

Slowly, he felt that he was such a strange existence.

And in the strange eyes of the people around me, I also changed unconsciously. From the former self-confidence, to a slight and somewhat inferior.

After all, picking up trash is not a glorious thing, and I can't pick up garbage with my head held high.

You can't tell the world that you don't laugh at me for picking up rags, but I'm actually a very hard worker, right?

I could only silently hold back my strength in my heart. Keep your head down and work hard.

If a person stays in a dirty environment for a long time, he really doesn't care so much about his cleanliness.

There are always some indescribable dirt on my body, and my hands are stained with some colors from time to time.

If it weren't for the wandering and suffering of a lot when she was young, the average girl would not be able to accept this huge gap.

My father saw it in his eyes and felt pain in his heart.

But thinking about the future of life, thinking about the tuition and medical expenses, neither of us spoke.

……

The days went by day by day.

One day at noon, my father and I collected some plastic and cardboard boxes outside, then went to a restaurant to collect the bottles and walked back. My father was slightly unwell that day, and I didn't let him carry him.

The sun was hot, and I was sweating in the back to help him push the tricycle together.

If that picture had been captured with a camera, it might have won the Poor Life Photo Award.

He kept pushing with his head down, and when he was about to reach the door of the house, his father suddenly stopped.

I looked up and saw the familiar white car, and then I saw the woman I had been thinking about day and night, Mother Parsley!

Then, for some reason, tears welled up in my eyes.

I forgot that I was dirty or not, and I rushed up shouting "Mom"!

I miss her so much, I miss her so much!

When I was about to run to the front, she turned around and hugged Officer Zhang, and started crying tremblingly......