When I returned to Changsha in the morning, when I got out of the train station, the flow of people was surging, I was moving forward in the sea of people, there were many people at the exit in front of me, but there were no people who answered me, the ticket inspector took my ticket away, did not return it to me, this was the first time I was taken away the ticket, I wanted to stay to make a commemoration, but the people in the rear were urging me to move forward, so I had to leave. I walked out of the door www.biquge.info looked left and right, Changsha had just woken up in the early morning, and it seemed to be a little different from the Changsha in my memory. I shuttled in the sea of people, walked those familiar places, took the 7 bus back to school, I don't remember how many times I took this bus, it seems to have been countless times, there was a person sitting, there were two people sitting, there was a group of people sitting, but this was the only time I didn't sleep, I watched the street scene from both sides of me, I saw a teenager in a white shirt waiting for the traffic light at the intersection, I saw a boy with headphones in a daze at a certain intersection, I saw a person with luggage on the bus to go to school to go through the graduation procedures, as if it was me, I remembered 08 years, when I was a freshman, I came here alone with luggage, in this strange city, found the school bus, also along this road to school, at that time there were junior graduates in the school bus, full of maturity, eyes dazed off the bus, disappeared into the sea of people, I didn't expect to do the same thing so soon.

When I was in junior high school in Huangsha, I could meet an acquaintance in a few steps, when I was in high school in Yizhang, I must be able to find one or two acquaintances in every Internet café, when I was in Changsha, this was the first time I met an acquaintance on the road, when I was in Shanghai, I walked from the first ring to the sixth ring, and I walked 05 years to the present, and I couldn't meet a familiar face.

Graduation procedures! He asked me.

I nodded, will we go together?, I asked.

No, I'm with my friends!, and he pointed behind him, five or six of his classmates.

I nodded, left, got into Twilight's car, sat in the back of the seat, this is the dozens of times I have taken this bus, this is the penultimate number of times I have taken this bus, I have been unable to sleep in the car, looking at the scenery outside the window, for a long time, it seems that it has been a long time to get to the school, looking at the school gate suddenly very strange, I went to the small blackboard next to me and looked at the list of letters, there was no me in it.

I walked to the store next to me and bought a drink, I was the only one in it, and I walked on the campus avenue, and I only saw a few people, I don't know if it was in class, I don't remember what the last time I was in class, I don't even know if it was my last class.

Walking through the familiar campus avenue, I returned to the dormitory excitedly, when I went up to the third floor, I was afraid to see the lock, if that, I could only stay alone in the dormitory, fortunately, I didn't see it, I knocked on the door, knocked three times, Zhang Hang's loud voice came from inside, as soon as I opened the door, I immediately saw his hateful face.

I don't know what the relationship between my 172-pound weight and the word "storm" can be related to my 172-height person, and no one knows what day the nickname of the bedroom started, it seems to have been formed so suddenly.

Zhang Hang is surfing the Internet, Tang Fuzhang is lying on the bed, looking at Zhang Hang with obscene eyes, Donghua is also sleeping on the bed, from my point of view, I can only see a leg full of long hair, I haven't seen him for a few months, his leg hair is still so long.

The bedroom is very dirty, the ground is full of waste paper, drink bottles, and even Li Chengzhi's red underwear, next to a piece of Aoi empty wool, only half of it is left, I don't know how long it has been stepped on, walked into the inner room, Xiang Feng hung his head under the edge of the bed to sleep, with a lascivious expression on his face, Liu Hui was on my top bunk, the sleeping position was very strange, I could only see a ball of meat, and I couldn't find my head.

I looked at my bed, I hadn't seen it for a few months, it had become a shelf, I don't know whose things were thrown all over there, I just took it away and threw it away, tidied it up, I knew it would be good to bring my mother.

Now there are still four people in the dormitory, I heard that Wang only typed code day and night in the software company, 800 yuan without food or accommodation, did it for three months, and resigned when he was about to turn regular, and returned to the dormitory in two days, Anguo was in Hangzhou, more than 1000 kilometers away, in the securities company, doing a day off, and a week and two days off, very comfortable, but the salary is 1000, I don't know what Wang will be when he learns what kind of expression he will have, Li Chengzhi heard Zhang Hang say that he has become a rich second generation, and his family has thousands of acres of fertile land, I don't know if it's true, and finally it is Zhimin, they said that he went to a pyramid scheme, maybe it's rightZhimin's **, MLM is in line with his identity, and then they asked me, I said I, I'm writing a novel.

Will you go down this road in the future?, they asked.

Yes, I went down this path, first went to find a job, went home from work to write, and when the manuscript fee exceeded the salary, I quit and wrote a book full-time. I have a clear plan for the future.

Writing pornographic novels? Zhang Hang asked while chatting.

Am I like that?

What do you mean by likeness, are you good in the first place?

I didn't have anything to say, but finally I thought about it and said, "Jimin wants me to tell you that you're a slut." "This is my special way of scolding, getting a person to come out to resist death, scolding people in the name of others, and I have tried and tested it repeatedly.

Later, Zhang Hang gave me the notebook, he knew that I had to write 6000 words every day, and I hadn't written it today, I turned on the computer and started to write a novel, but how to write in such an environment, so I began to look at the space, and saw the network management sister I liked in my freshman year, she was a beautiful girl, gave birth to a beautiful girl, time flies so fast, and in a blink of an eye, the girl I like gave birth to a girl, what is this? At that time, she was just a network administrator, and then she became a boss, and I didn't become friends with her until a year ago, but it was just a friend, and I didn't go any further, because I didn't want to.

That day in her Internet café, she sat there watching horror movies, didn't dare to watch but wanted to watch, stretched out her little hand in front of her eyes, blocked in front of her eyes, through the fingers to see, I was sitting next to her, she looked so scared, wanted to lean next to me, I said in my heart a little closer, I won't move, you lean over! Later, she didn't lean, smiled at me, we chatted like this, that day she invited me to drink a bottle of black tea, and then we were very acquainted, on May Day in 2010, I invited her to watch the movie, "Ip Man 2" , left without reading it.

I liked you before. Later, I told her on QQ, and I showed her a log I had written, which was a diary written at the beginning of 09, when I was playing dungeons in an Internet café, I passed by the kitchen when I went to the toilet, she opened the door, I opened the door, I was startled by her, she smiled at me, just because of that smile, I wrote a log, I showed her.

She was surprised, read the log, and then said something that surprised me, she said that I was too, and I was still a webmaster at the time, and you told me that I was with you, because I liked you too, but now I'm the boss.

I said that's a pity, I don't know.

It seemed that that time was a kind of fate, during that time, I could meet her when I walked in the playground, and she would come to our school, find me in the playground, and walk with me.

How can you find me? There are so many people here. I asked her.

Because I know the way you walk. She said.

What is my walking posture?, I asked her curiously.

She imitated it, but she couldn't imitate it, stomped her foot, and said, I can't imitate it either, it's pretty good anyway.

In the future, if I graduate and leave this school, on the street of a certain year and day, if you see a familiar walking posture, you go over and see if it is me.

Okay!she said.

It seemed to be our last walk, and then she was pregnant, recuperating at home, slowly rarely came to the Internet café, we slowly contacted less, the last time we met was I gave her a cowhide bracelet, she specially came to the Internet café with her stomach, I happened to have a friend to Changsha that day, I want to pick up, she waited for me in the Internet café for a long time, I came to give her the bracelet and left, anxious to pick up my friend, I think this may have hurt her heart! She signed on QQ and said that she would never come again, and her tone was very angry, and she basically hasn't talked since then, and she didn't know that she deleted me a while ago, and sent a text message to say hello, and she didn't reply.

……

Thinking about these past events, looking at the baby in her space, I can't help but sigh that time flies so fast, from 08 to now, it has passed in the blink of an eye, and the dungeon I was obsessed with before has not been played, in fact, it is not only 08 years, it seems that time has been passing very fast since I was in junior high school, and now it is 2011,

Time is so fast, so fast that even ** is dead, the Olympic Games used to be a long time ago, and now the Olympics have been open for a few years, ** is dead, and the buns at the school gate are not delicious.

I want to update**,I often think of what I post in**,Many friends like to reprint.,I think this is the resonance?

At that moment, I wanted to write down "The past can be written down, but it must be let go." ”

But in the end, it was not sent.

Later,Donghua and Xiang Feng got up,Watch DOTA video,I haven't played DOTA together in the dormitory for a long time.,Fight a civil war.,At that time, I liked to play hidden thorns the most.,Unknowingly kill people invisibly.,I don't know when it started.,The dormitory doesn't like to fight a civil war.,But go to the Internet café to play with strangers on the platform.,I think that's tasteless.,And then I've been playing stand-alone with the computer.。

The video that the two of them watched was Wang Zhi's video, all kinds of water, all kinds of tragedies, and was repeatedly killed, Wang Zhi's level has always been the worst, watching his game video has always been a big event in the bedroom, who is not happy to watch his video, he can immediately be happy, he played too much water, played for a few years, and there was no progress. Later, Xiang Feng switched out and ordered a song, this song is the song I have been listening to when I wrote this diary, it is a song that Wang Leehom has just debuted, the 1998 song "If You Hear My Song", at that time, I was only 8 years old, I had never heard this song, the voice was not like Wang Leehom, I listened to it for a while and thought it was sung by an Internet singer, because the lyrics were too vulgar, when Xiang Feng listened to it, he kept humming.

I suddenly remembered that Xiang Feng and his girlfriend broke up, they only started to fall in love last semester, they loved hot, crazy, rented a house outside and lived together, very affectionate, I, who has been in love since the third year of junior high school, did not progress as fast as him for a semester, their love was too fast, too crazy, and then her girlfriend went to Shanghai, and then broke up.

I looked at Xiang Feng, he is more mature, maybe, after the breakup, people will be more mature, this sad song must be the song he listens to every day, the music he listened to when he broke up is very memorable, I know he is very sad, he doesn't want to break up, especially in this graduation time, walking in an unfamiliar campus, walking to the campus where we held hands last semester, and now, I have to leave with my luggage and graduate.

Later, they went to dinner, and I was the only one left in the dormitory and the ruins all over the ground, I wrote novels on the ruins, writing new stories, I know, when my ten fingers touched the keyboard, I embarked on this road, late at night, in a lonely afternoon, writing alone, writing stories, I used to write my diary, my mood, but I can't write these things anymore, I have to spend my time writing stories that can make money, I want to make money, I can make a sum of money that can be used in a few years, to invite these roommates to drink a meal, at that time I don't want AA, I want to invite them to drinkMy novel has been written to 760,000 words, the more I write novels, the more I find that I can't write a diary, and when I write a diary, I always feel that I don't have the previous state.

Later, later they came back, I gave the computer to Zhang Hang, but during this time I also wrote a few hundred words, I couldn't calm down to type, my ideal writing state is to write in class, many of my diary novels and even the beginning of this novel, are completed in class, I am not a good student, the reason why I insist on going to class, even last semester in the cold winter morning everyone was absent from class, I still go to class, is because in that state, I can write like flying, in that dim classroom, the professor is lecturing above, the students below are listening carefully, I sit in the corner of the back left row, sit there to writeWhether it's a diary or a novel or some impromptu lyrics and poems without format, you can write them without thinking, and once you leave that environment, you always feel that something is missing.

Thinking about it, I haven't been to the classroom for a long time, and there will be no more such a writing environment, I slept in bed and looked at "Tibetan Mastiff" on my mobile phone, which was a popular novel a few years ago, not bad, looking at it, falling asleep deeply, I don't know what I dreamed of, maybe it was a girl, maybe it was writing a novel behind that dimly lit classroom, maybe it was a roommate's birthday one night in the past, after drinking, smoking under the street lamp, maybe ......

When I woke up, they were going out again, I got up, continued to write, only Liu Hui and I were left in the dormitory, Donghua was taking a nap, I wrote a little more, and then Li Baowen came, we went to dinner together, a group of boys walked together on the campus avenue, when I was in college, there were countless times such a scene, and now it has reappeared, I think that a group of boys walking together, it should be very domineering! Today Changsha turned cold, very cold, I only wore a T-shirt, and the place I went to was still Dongfanghong, which I liked to go to last semester, the dishes there were delicious, Xiang Feng sat next to me, and he didn't want to eat, so he played there, picked up the rice with chopsticks and put it down, it seemed to be very fun.

After eating, half of the people stayed in the Internet café, and when they returned to the dormitory, only Liu Hui and I were left, I continued to write novels, and the dormitory was not connected to the Internet, Liu Hui also went to the Internet café, and I was the only one left in the dormitory again, I closed the window and continued to write novels, from the moment I serialized, I was destined to bear these loneliness, writing alone.

I turned on the stereo, turned on Donghua's computer, opened the music box, and found the song that Xiang Feng listened to, at this time, I knew that this song was actually sung by Wang Leehom, I was surprised for a while, and then clicked on the single loop of the song, and then I wanted to adapt the lyrics of this song for an hour, the lyrics of this song are really a bit vulgar, but I changed it back and forth, and I seemed to have lost the ability to write lyrics, what kind of stuff did I write and write, and then I didn't change it, and continued to write novels, writing until 11 o'clock in the evening, and the night swallowed me up little by little. Later, Liu Hui took the lead to come back, but the dormitory was still not connected to the Internet, he wanted to go to the Internet café again, and went out with Xiao Yifei, I said wait for me for a while, I have written 5000 words, there is still 1000, I finished writing the last 1000, copied it to the USB flash drive, and the three of them went out together.

At this point the apartment door was locked, and we climbed the fence, something like that that had been trained by a university and was already very proficient without much effort.

Arrived at the Internet café, the Internet café of my crush on the network management sister, now the proprietress of my Internet café, looking at the familiar scene, it seems to have returned to the time of the freshman and sophomores, my membership card has long been cancelled, rushed the temporary card, sent the novel up, and then began to write this diary, Donghua called me when they left, I didn't go, I think this is my life, as a student's last time, every day I have to record, even if I don't have that kind of diary writing now, but I record it, I don't know how long I will stay in Changsha, but I know, how many days I stay, how many diaries I will write。

There's no time to typeset, it's late at night, when I was a freshman or sophomore, I used to play games in this Internet café until so late, and then I walked back to school with Zhimin and them on the empty road late at night, the street lights on the campus avenue are very poetic, I often stepped on my shadow, and then climbed over the wall to go back to the dormitory to sleep, but this time, I was alone, it was raining a little outside when I came, I don't know if it stopped now.

I turned my head and looked, in the Internet café, many people are still playing my game from a few years ago, I took a look, not as good as I was back then, but the game is just a game after all, compared with the future, what is it? One day, they will no longer be in the mood to play games, ** are dead, what games are they still playing!

The song I've been listening to for hours is still playing in the headphones, "If You Hear My Song"

"If you're in a lonely moment

But they heard my song

Whether your eye sockets will heat up

If you are in a happy moment

But they heard my song

Will you be a little reluctant in your heart?"

……

Whether it's those girls who have loved, had a crush, or liked, they have become a thing of the past, I can't find it, how many people people have to like in this life, no one knows, they have to work hard for the future, alas, I really don't want to grow up.

So be it!

Get off the plane and go.

Huang Huayi

2011.5.222：40

These are the diaries of my QQ space.,My QQ is a 398115791.,Interested in going to the space to see it.,Because the first releases are in the space.,It's only here once a month to update.。