Chapter 2105: Leave
But obviously, when he decided to leave, when she really made this decision, there must be a sense of relief in his heart, because it is obvious that if you love someone, if you know that loving someone has no result, if you know that you love someone, that person will not love you, if you know that you have chosen a relationship that has no result, then it is obvious that you are suffering every moment, and Li Xiaoya is suffering every moment.
Every moment, Li Xiaoya also thinks about her humble relationship. So when Li Xiaoya decided to let go, when Li Xiaoya decided to leave, Li Xiaoya must have a feeling of relief in her heart. Of course, this kind of liberation is not leaving, this kind of liberation is not completely forgetting, this kind of liberation just gives yourself a way out, this kind of liberation just makes yourself feel better, this kind of liberation just allows yourself to have a new choice. Yes, the choice is to leave, and leaving does not mean running away.
Li Xiaoya felt that she was not running away. Jiang Fan also felt that Li Xiaoya was not running away from anything.
"Li Xiaoya, I know you're not running away. You're just giving yourself a reason, you're just giving yourself a comfort, you're just letting yourself go, you're just allowing yourself to travel. We hope you enjoyed your journey. ”
Jiang Fan sent such a blessing, obviously his blessing sounded a little insincere, because obviously, Bai Xiaohua and he were a natural pair, Bai Xiaohua still loved her, and she also loved Bai Xiaohua deeply If this is the case, if the two of them have always been in love, if the two of them have always been a natural pair, then it is obvious that Li Xiaoya will never be happy. Li Xiaoya will never be able to get the love she wants, and Li Xiaoya will never get Jiang Fan. So of course Li Xiaoya at this time will not be happy, but it is obvious that Jiang Fan really regards Li Xiaoya as a friend, since she is a friend, of course she should send her friend's blessings, since she regards Li Xiaoya as a friend, then obviously, he should say a few words in the tone of a friend.
"Li Xiaoya. I've always considered you a friend. What is a friend? A friend is to be able to help oneself in times of difficulty, and a friend is to say some sincere words when a friend encounters difficulties, which is my sincere words, and this is my sincere blessing. ”
Li Xiaoya smiled on the other end of the phone, although he knew that Jiang Fan couldn't see his smile, but obviously he still showed his smile, she still wanted to show her smile, although Jiang Fan couldn't see it, although Jiang Fan couldn't feel it at all, but he felt that he should still smile, although she didn't laugh out loud, but this smile, he gave it to Jiang Fan, although Jiang Fan didn't know.
Yes, sometimes you may do something that other people may not know or may not know, but obviously you are not doing these things for other people, you are doing these things for yourself, you are doing certain things for yourself, you are doing certain things for yourself, you are doing certain things to make yourself feel comfortable.
Yes, when Li Xiaoya smiled, he felt that he was indeed a lot more comfortable, it was obvious that now he needed to redefine Jiang Fan, and now she needed to redefine Jiang Fan's position.
Jiang Fan has already said it very clearly, Jiang Fan regards him as a friend, she feels that she should treat Jiang Fan as a friend at the moment, since they are friends, of course the two of them can talk, since they are friends, of course the two of them can send blessings.
"Thank you for your blessings. Jiang Fan, thank you very much for accompanying me over this time. I think I'll be happy when I look back on it in the future. ”
Jiang Fan also smiled, obviously Jiang Fan didn't laugh out loud, so this smile was given to himself, and he gave himself this smile to tell himself. You should be glad to have such friends, you should be glad that you have such innocent friends, yes. Li Xiaoya is mature, but at the same time Li Xiaoya is innocent. Li Xiaoya's love is self-contained, and Li Xiaojun's love is also tolerant. Li Xiaoya's friendship is selfless, and Li Xiaoya's friendship is also innocent.
"Don't say a word when you leave, when you leave, I will send you off as a friend, of course, if you want, I can also bring Bai Xiaohua, if you don't want to, I can also take him without him. Because we're friends. ”
Heard Jiang Fan say this. Li Xiaoya thought silently in her heart.
Because we're friends. Because we are friends, we can't love each other, because we're friends, we can't have love, because we're friends, so we should be generous, because we're friends, so we should fellowship as friends. Because we are friends, we should love each other as friends, because we are friends, so we should not break the connection, because we are friends, so I can still miss you from time to time.
Yes, this is Li Xiaoya's innermost thoughts, this is the meaning of Li Xiaoya's innermost friend, and this is Li Xiaoya's innermost friendship about love.
In the end, Li Xiaoya still didn't tell Bai Xiaohua when she was leaving. So in the end, Jiang Fan was the only one who went to see Li Xiaoya.
At the time of parting. Li Xiaoya didn't have any special requirements, he just waved his hand simply.
Li Xiaoya in the car looked at the car that was gradually starting. He knew he was leaving the city, and he was about to leave the people he loved. He actually regretted it a little at this time, why didn't he choose to hug him, since they are friends, of course they can hug it, since they are friends, of course they can hug him, since they are friends, there are not so many things to worry about between the two people.
But it is obvious that there is still a white flower between the two of them, and there is still a woman between the two of them, so Li Xiaoya has nothing to regret at all, yes, even if he is allowed to go back now, even if he goes back in time now, there is no need for him to regret his decision, she still decides to leave him, or decides to go to the distance by herself. Even if he went back in time, he felt that it was impossible for him to hug Jiang Fan. At the time of parting, he felt that he would not ask for a hug either. Because two people are such people, because two people are such straightforward two people, because they both understand each other's minds.
Yes, Jiang Fan should also understand his thoughts, and Jiang Fan should also understand his mood at the moment. Obviously, his departure was a last resort, although he told himself countless times in his heart that his departure was wise, although he told himself countless times in his heart that his departure was due, but it was obvious. Deep down, she still felt that her departure was a last resort. Of course he doesn't want to leave if he can, and who wants to leave the one he loves if he can. If he can, who wants to leave the man he loves deeply, if he can, of course he wants to see Jiang Fan every day, if he can, of course he wants to see Jiang Fan he loves every day. Of course he didn't want to leave if he could.
In fact, it is not impossible if she doesn't leave, because it is obvious that she and Bai Xiaohua have talked a lot, and he and Bai Xiaohua have communicated a lot, but if he really chooses to stay, it is obvious that she feels that she is also a little shameless.
Yes, deep down, he gave himself such a definition, if she chooses to stay, he feels that he is shameless, because it is obvious that two people are two people who love each other, and two people have real love. And he's just unrequited love, so he feels that he can't stay, he feels that he doesn't have any point in staying, if he stays, then it's obvious that he's a shameless person, and if he stays, then it's obvious that he has some very bad thoughts.
Yes, if he stayed, he wasn't sure if he would still be so free. If he stayed, he wasn't sure if he would be so kind, and if he stayed, he felt like he would lose himself.
In love, everyone will lose themselves, in love, for love, many people will do whatever it takes, so he doesn't want to become that kind of person, and he doesn't want him to become an unscrupulous person for love.
In fact, Li Xiaoya felt that she was ashamed of Bai Xiaohua. The reason has been said before, but it is clear that now whether he owes Bai Xiaohua or not, he feels that he has made up for it. Yes, she did reprimand Bai Xiaohua before, and he did doubt Bai Xiaohua's love before. But now that he has chosen to let go, and now that he has chosen to leave, he feels that Bai Xiaohua should have forgiven him.
Yes, of course Bai Xiaohua at this time has forgiven him, Bai Xiaohua at this time looked at the sky silently alone, yes, in the sky, there should be a plane for a while, there is a girl on the plane who has gone away, that girl has the purest love, and that girl has the kindest heart.
Yes, in Bai Xiaohua's heart at this moment, Li Xiaoya is kind, and Li Xiaoya is a kind person who fulfills others.
On the second day after Li Xiaojun left, Bai Xiaohua found Jiang Fan.
In fact, the two of them didn't meet at all in the past two days, and the two didn't know why they didn't want to meet each other, because it was obvious that Bai Xiaohua didn't want to see Jiang Fan, and Jiang Fan didn't want to see Bai Xiaohua.