Keep failing. Pen | fun | pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 infoToday was the most depressing day in college, and it was an amazing event that I will never forget.

I slept too late last night, it rained this morning, I didn't go for a run, I, Zhimin, Anguo, and Baowen had no money, and I couldn't make up the money for breakfast alone, and our money was used together, and at the beginning of the month, it was gone, and Baowen skipped class and went to his friend to eat. After finishing class with difficulty, I returned to the dormitory hungry, and wanted to open the computer to play, because if I was addicted to the game, I wouldn't feel hungry, and the computer didn't respond, and I suddenly remembered that the electricity in the dormitory ran out last night, and my roommates had no money, and I couldn't even make up the 20 yuan electricity bill, okay, then drink water! As soon as I turned on the water dispenser, it was gone after three drops of water, the bucket had dried up for a few days, no one could get 5 yuan to pay the water bill, I didn't drink water, I looked at the mobile phone head office, turned on the mobile phone, it didn't light for a long time, it was useless to press any key, ah! Even the mobile phone was out of power, it had been automatically turned off, there was no way, I could only sleep, I slept for half an hour, I slept until I had a nightmare, I had to wake up, and after a while, Zhimin, Anguo also woke up, Anguo's membership card in the Internet café still has dozens of yuan, happily went to the Internet café, I and Zhimin's membership card only has a few hours left, I am not willing to go, those hours to stay at the critical moment, we have nowhere to go, so we have to continue to sleep, nightmares also sleep. After a long time, I really couldn't stand it, woke up Zhimin, went out to forage for food, I could only borrow it from a friend, I met An Guo when I went down the stairs, he came back with a pale face, I knew that he was hungry at a glance, we went to Wu Liankui's bedroom together, he was not there, helpless, we could only go back to the bedroom, the sky was drizzling, three down-and-out men moved towards the bedroom with difficulty, walking and walking, the sky had eyes, I met Wu Liankui, I grabbed his shoulders tightly, An Guo and Zhimin got in a good position, cut off his retreat, in case he escaped, "Is there any money!" I asked sharply, Wu Liankui was obviously startled, he didn't react for a long time, and looked at the three of us in horror, "I, I want to use it." As soon as I finished speaking, I suddenly shrank my bones and escaped from my hands, and then a dog drilled a hole, drilled out of the gap between Zhimin and An Guo, ran lifelessly, and disappeared into the distance, leaving only a hazy back, we wanted to chase, but we were weak and couldn't run. The three of them helped back to the dormitory, I took out my wallet, took out the last piece of two, and then began to rummage through the cabinets, and finally turned out a storage jar in Liu Hui's cabinet, and we came to the spirit all of a sudden! Shaken, heavy, immediately remove the back cover, look inside the net, densely packed with money, we pulled out one by one, but all dime, after smoking more than 20 sheets, I looked at the money just drawn out in my hand, I didn't speak for a long time, the two of them also looked at the money in my hand, with a greedy expression, I drew a five-cent one! Put the five-cent one alone in a clean place, continue to smoke, and some one-dime, after a while, I drew a five-cent one! Put it separately, the banknote is drawn, write it down is a coin, the coin is not much to see, a dime is not wanted, in the end only took a piece, and three five cents, I counted the money on the table, a dime is too much, and shredded paper, counting, suddenly the fingers are bent and stretched, a pain spreads, cramps! After counting, add my piece of 2, a total of 7 pieces of 1 cent, barely enough for two people to eat the cheapest clear soup hanging flour, An Guo showed a resolute expression on his face, looked at me and Zhimin, and said: "I won't eat, I can still resist, you two go eat!" I thought to myself, this An Guo is really righteous enough, but we can't eat alone, I said: "It's too frustrating to take so many dimes, and there is a dime for a dime, so let's go and see if my bank card has no fraction, and I will take it out!" After saying that, I put the money back into the storage jar, and I won't really take his money, what if Liu Hui wants to use it urgently? Of course, those two five-cent ones are resolutely taken out! Can't be buried, I thought about it, and stuffed my one-dollar coin into it, this will make me owe you no more, I just exchanged the coins for the banknotes! I thought to myself, seeing that there were still two cents in my hand, I simply put them in, but suddenly remembered something, I reopened the storage jar and took one coin by one," I'll exchange two cents for you, and you'll suffer a loss. While muttering to myself, I put the storage jar back into Liu Hui's cabinet, still in the original corner, to make sure that Liu Hui couldn't see any traces of movement, I took out my two bank cards, went down with Zhimin, and An Guo slept on the bed.

Zhimin and I came to the ATM, and I said that if there is more than 20 yuan in small change, I will take it out, if it is not enough, it will be too obscene, Zhimin smiled. I inserted my card into the ATM, and after a long wait, we stared at the screen and said, "The balance is 7.46 yuan." Zhimin left disdainfully, I grabbed him: "Don't worry! I still have a card!" After speaking, he inserted another card, and the two heads squeezed in front of the screen again, "Balance 0.47 yuan" Zhimin didn't say anything, and left silently, I took out the card and called Zhimin: "I have two yuan, let's buy two oil cakes, and the three of them will eat them separately!" Zhimin rummaged through his wallet, found a coin, and solemnly handed it to me, now there are three yuan, you can buy 3 one-dollar oil cakes, I hold the three yuan, I feel heavy, it represents the hope of the three men. Coming to the cafeteria, after asking the price of all types of oil cakes, we cautiously made the best match, a one-dollar egg cake, four five-cent pies that I don't know what kind of filling, and the boss kindly helped us heat it in the microwave, I held the five cakes in my hand tightly, it was hot, and I quickly rushed to the dormitory, ready to share it with An Guo.

On the way, I dragged the hot oil cakes, looked at Zhimin who was silently moving forward, thought about An Guo who was still sleeping in the bedroom, and the Baowen who didn't know where to fool around, and sighed in my heart, we are all good brothers, sharing blessings and difficulties, although I am very depressed now, but this is the wealth in my memory, you are all my wealth, if I have a successful career in the future, a lot of wealth, and eat delicacies from the mountains and seas, when I think of these oil cakes today, what will it be like? Where were you back then? My brother, don't you forget me, okay? When we were in college, we used to spend a lot together, we went to the Internet café together, we went back to school late at night, we discussed which hero was the sharpest in DOTA, we went back to the dormitory with a fight, we ate oil cakes together, we starved together, and we had to use every dollar together, and you won't forget, right?

The rain was falling all the time, misty and falling on my face, it was my young years.

Back in the dormitory, we divided the property, Zhimin ate the egg cake, An Guo and I each ate two five cents, the oil cake I didn't like to eat the most tasted at this time was actually not bad, I couldn't finish eating, An Guo continued to sleep, with a satisfied face. At this time, Liu Hui came back, I told him about the storage tank, he laughed, and then we continued to sleep, Liu Hui said to go to the library to read books, I also think this idea is good, Liu Hui went first, I slept for a while, called Shang Zhimin, and also went to the library together, I was still a little hungry, turned out Liu Hui's storage tank, took 10 sheets of one dime, ran to the store and got two packs of broad beans that I loved and hated, a few days ago I was to buy a pack of broad beans and broke my headphones, buy good broad beans, I calculated the distance between the boss and the door, I felt that there was still a chance, and then threw 10 sheets of one dime in front of the boss with lightning speed, while the boss did not react, Quickly escaped from the door, rushed forward, and after a while, Zhimin and I heard an angry beast roar from the store behind, it seems that 1 Mao's is really useless in this society, if it is a piece by piece, it will not be so depressed at all, of course, the part of buying things is fictional, I am not so obscene, but the boss is really reluctant.

Zhimin and I went to the library and found Liu Hui and Donghua on the third floor, both of us were basically coming to the library for the first time, and we had no choice but to do so. Liu Hui is reading "Give Me a Cigarette", I have read this book, but I haven't finished reading it, Donghua is reading "How Much Do You Know About the Flowers in My Dreams" I finished reading the book in my second year of junior high school, I took the scrivener card, and began to look for it, and finally took a copy of the book "Grassy Years" I also read, but I didn't finish it, I sat down and read dozens of pages, I was not interested, I was going to change Han Han's, but I saw the famous book of Murong Xuecun "Chengdu, please forget me tonight" , quickly took it down, read it carefully, it is probably about a man's depraved and erosive life, there are a lot of yellow words in it, in fact, writers and poets are hooligans, but they are all literate hooligans, so they are called writers. I was fascinated, I don't know how long later, the administrator said that the door was going to close, I looked at the footer, page 76, silently remembered, out of the library with them, the sky was still drizzling, the four of us mixed in the torrent of freshmen who had just finished school, looking at their childish faces, when I was like this, when, they would also become us, the same as the old weight in the book, degenerate and erosive, and it would not be long before we were going to leave this campus and go to society, we actually grew up like this, and we couldn't be caught off guard。

Back in the dormitory, we talked about the novel we just read, it was getting dark, the dormitory was out of power, Zhimin and I decided to use the last few hours on the Internet café membership card, I took the charger, went to the Internet café together, fully charged the phone, played a few games, and then started to write this diary, Xiao Xia saw me, ran over at a trot, watched me write a diary, read it for a while and left. This diary is very long, and it has been written until now, just the card prompted that the balance is insufficient, I don't know how to spend tomorrow, the library is not open, and I guess I can only sit in the dormitory in a daze.

Turning my head to look at the lively crowd in the Internet café, they were all college students, their bloodshot eyes were staring at the game on the screen, their faces were sallow, greasy, like a walking corpse, I felt like I was in hell, dancing with corpses, is this my university?

The rain outside the window has stopped, and it's time for me to go.

Changsha, please forget me tonight.

Huang Huayi

May 28, 2010.