What's the use of knowing the heart - half an old letter

¥¥¥¥ 1985 *month* day

The first half of the letter was really forgotten by me! Only half of the letter was recorded on April 12, 1987:

"Oh, there's one more thing I almost forgot. I have long felt that life is colorful and colorful, and according to you, we live in a rich land, and there are many, many things that are worth exploring and solving--'Life is beckoning to us!'

"As for writing poetry, I ask you again to talk to me, and I have decided to put some effort into it, and I hope you can help me. Aren't you annoyed that no one can talk to you about this? I think there will be soon.

I heard that you have a lot of troubles, I want to be able to tell us, you should tell us, I believe that you will believe us, maybe we can do something for you.

"Before reading your weekly diary, you are a person who is stronger than me, more assertive than me, and more persevering than me. Of course, I don't know your thoughts and feelings, and in ****** words, 'You always make us feel that we are ignorant little girls in your presence,...... You said that you only have two bosom friends, so let's all become your bosom friends!{At that time, around me, there were not one or two literature lovers, but a group of talented like-minded people, without them, my intelligence power would not be written like this!}

"Allow me to say to you again: 'I still don't understand you very well, please don't be angry, I read your diary, I never know what your ambition is, why do you want to pursue the broad and profound? However, this is not the time to discuss it, so let's talk about it later.

"I came to the world on this good day with many people, but in my memory, it seems that I have never spent the Mid-Autumn Festival with pleasant autumn colors, and I always spend my birthday in the rain and clouds.

See, I have said so many useless things again, but I still want to say, allow me to say a few more words, because you are my bosom friends, my only trusts. …… I hate this place, especially the people here, who come in and out with smiling faces, never say hello, are very arrogant, and often quarrel and fight over a penny. Walking on the street, there is nothing but people and buildings, and it is so monotonous. However, it does not affect my faith, because I always remember our goals and remember your concerns......"