The third day of the fourth month of the lunar calendar

At 5:30, a mountain bike came and stopped on the side of the road, and a regular customer, Lin Qiying, walked into Yuan Qiuhua's breakfast shop.

Judging from the dress, Lin Qiying is definitely an ordinary person, from the perspective of figure and appearance, she is only average, but she is polite to others, knowledgeable, civilized and elegant in speech, decent in conversation, full of wisdom, very bookish in speech, and just right, doing things in an orderly manner, revealing a proud dignity, walking demeanor but noble demeanor, extraordinary temperament, and overflowing with self-confidence.

Pretty is the natural enemy of a woman's career, and most excellent women are not beautiful, at least not because they are beautiful. She was born into a high-ranking Kochi family, highly educated, a dignified and reserved intellectual woman, a master of law student at a prestigious university, and held an important position in her early thirties, living a decent and noble life, and winning the respect of most men and women. A good woman doesn't have to play a woman's tricks to conquer a man.

Yuan Qiuhua met her at the New Year's party of the two schools when she was studying at the senior writers' seminar at the Lu Xun Academy of Literature in Beijing. After the completion of the seminar, Yuan Qiuhua worked part-time as a proofreader in a daily newspaper, and went to Peking University to take classes and work as an auditor outside the establishment. After graduation, the two of them are separated, and they often talk about everything on the Internet, reminiscing about the past, putting their hearts in their hearts, talking about their immediate troubles, and treating them as close friends.

Life is full of encounters, but I didn't expect Lin Qiying to be transferred to the county seat to take up a post, and she was the first female county magistrate in the county after liberation. Yuan Qiuhua is not a person who tends to be inflammatory, and she is ashamed to be a city fox and a mouse, just because she is a big official, but she doesn't want to take the initiative to climb the knot and seek any special care from it. She is not a person of officialdom, and she doesn't have too many extravagant hopes for life, she just wants to be an ordinary person by virtue of her skills, she just wants to be a qualified literati with her talent, she lives an ordinary and simple life, she can go as far as she can, she can do as much as she can, and she never asks for anything. In life, things are often unsatisfactory, but if you want to do your best, you can do your best, and you really have no hope, so you just let it be.

The long road of life, the soul is afraid of loneliness, to go together, the world is sophisticated, the gains and losses are sweet and bitter, it is better to visit friends from the teacher, long live understanding, ups and downs, confusion and trouble, intellectual influence experience, no longer clinging to my opinion, long live communication. Both are encyclopedic chat objects, read a lot and miscellaneous, analyze various trends of thought at the party, discuss different topics, analyze problems, express ideas from a unique perspective, have unique insights and inspire each other, both are independent and idealistic, not pretentious, no arrogance, people with a sense of mission, and are easy to resonate spiritually. Because in their careers and lives, the two have nothing to do with each other, just old friends with similar temperaments and like-minded interests, resuming their relationship as in the past.

But the identity and status of the two, after all, are different from the past, they used to be students with no job and no money, and now one is in the officialdom, and the power is used, which is big, and if it is not used, it is small, and the other is in the business world, and the financial resources are easy to exchange, and if they are not paid, they are safe, and they are less. In order to avoid unnecessary trouble, the two of them agreed on three chapters of the law, pretending not to know each other in public places, not exposing the relationship between the two to outsiders, not trading money and power, if there is something to be interviewed, make an appointment first, and no third person is allowed to be present at the meeting.

When there is something to say, when there is information to be transmitted, and when there is information to be delivered, like a spy joint, Lin Qiying will dress up and go to Yuan Qiuhua for breakfast alone, the old habit is called three, first drink egg sweet rice wine to appetize, then eat hot dry noodles as the staple food, and then drink tofu brain, moisten the stomach, eat well and enjoy the pleasure of the stomach.

Yuan Qiuhua said: Sisters, I haven't seen you for a long time, why do you have time to come over for breakfast today?

Lin Qiying said: Oh, Andy, you have lost weight again, pay attention to the combination of work and rest, take care of yourself!

Yuan Qiuhua said: How are you doing? Look at your panda eyes, you haven't slept all night! You are young and promising, and you don't lose your eyebrows, why do you have to work so hard?

Lin Qiying said: So what? Society is still male-oriented, and their positions and attitudes are different, and their attitudes and propositions are also different. There are more men and fewer women in politics, and a few female comrades are just matched, which is nothing like nothing, and female comrades are lonely and outnumbered.

Yuan Qiuhua said: The family is still the husband's position, the husband is the master, and the wife is the domestic slave. There is a popular saying on the Internet, life is to be **, if you are powerless to resist, then lie down and enjoy.

Lin Qiying said: The human heart is unpredictable, the society is complicated, and the environment is vulgar, and compared with the forces of the outside world, how weak and small the individual is like corn!

Yuan Qiuhua said: Alas, women want to be financially and spiritually independent, we responded to the advocacy, and practiced it, but it is better to rely on the appearance of eating, live more comfortable and comfortable, they are still sleeping beauty sleep.

Lin Qiying said: absurd! Nonsense! Knowledge is really a burden, the more excellent it is, the more responsibilities it bears, and the heavier the load, which is comparable to a cow or a horse.

Yuan Qiuhua said: What can a woman do just by being beautiful? If she does not work hard, has no talent and no ability, it is nothing more than to find a man with economic strength, give birth to a pair of children, live in a mansion, drive a BMW, eat and wear without worry, and enjoy good fortune.

Lin Qiying said: Relying on men, either cynical or indifferent. It doesn't matter if you are not diligent or virtuous, it doesn't matter if you don't want to endure hardships and don't abide by women's morals, as long as you are young, you can spend money and dress up, as long as your mouth is sweet and lovable, you have different men, and you constantly pay for her, the flower is willing, and the winner is happy.

Yuan Qiuhua said: Of course, they must be shrewd and calm enough, be 100% selfish and ruthless in life, and do whatever it takes until they are done. In this way, although they are daughters, what they have is a man's heart.

Lin Qiying said: Why? Why is this? Why does a woman have the heart of a man if she wants to succeed? Where is the advantage that nature gives to women? Where is the advantage that society gives to women? What is the use of shouting slogans? The country is still the same. What's the use of swiping slogans? Injustice is still unjust, inequality is still unequal, and most women are still living in that way, especially at the bottom.

Yuan Qiuhua said: Experience is the best teacher, we are a simple girl who is not familiar with the world, has grown into a quite mature and complex woman, has a deep insight into human nature and love, no longer dreams, no longer have false illusions, and even difficult to trust others. In fact, our essence has not changed, only the state of mind has changed, and the lesson of hitting the head and bleeding makes us understand that the illusion of life and the illusion of love were originally imposed on women by the mainstream culture of education, not the real society and life, and should have been abandoned a long time ago, and this kind of truth will not be taught to women in any book or newspaper.

Lin Qiying said: The joys and sorrows of life teach women to learn patience and endure, and men's standards allow her to cultivate calmness and calmness. If you are ambitious, you don't want to pretend to be confused, and you want to join the ranks of the immortals, and the end will be miserable, and you will find that you are very stupid. So, silently tolerant and accepting everything, showing unnatural contentment in married life, and unnatural gentleness and docility in front of the public.

Yuan Qiuhua said: The price is that the heart is deprived of secrets, and a woman's whole life is originally accompanied by infinite silence, and life contains countless sacrifices and countless erasures represented by this silence. Women are indeed too depressed, distorted and painful, it is really strange and pitiful, maybe as a woman, it is unfortunate in itself.

Lin Qiying said: The pursuit of ideals moves people, but compared with practical interests, the touching seems superficial, can people live on spiritual food alone? After all, ordinary days give her peace and tranquility.

Yuan Qiuhua said: Perhaps, the true meaning of life is not to gain the ability to call the wind and rain through some kind of struggle, but to integrate the individual into the harmony of society, into the law of marriage, and in the face of a peaceful and good destination, all patience and sacrifice are worth it.

Lin Qiying said: Women sing the old drama again, after all, there is no big mistake, hiding behind people, how safe it is, hiding at home, how worry-free. At any time, a woman can cry out for fear, but a man can only say, don't be afraid, the sky is falling, and I will stand on it! Any disaster, a woman can be timid and cry, and a man can only puff up his chest and shout at me to shoot at me, acting as a hero, even at the cost of his life.

Yuan Qiuhua said: It is a woman's enjoyment to wear gold and silver, but it is a man's business to pay for jewelry. Compared with the mission that men must make contributions, women are slaves, in fact, it can't be simpler, and enjoying that kind of lazy and leisurely life at home is a blessing in any case.

Lin Qiying said: People have a kind of inertia or inferiority, not only unwilling to face up to the facts, but also often intentionally or unintentionally do some whitewashing, in order to escape their own mistakes and mistakes, and dare not analyze the bitter, tyrannical, and even bloody results, reflect on their own responsibilities, and resist the recurrence of the tragedy. What a sin, a cursed self-exculpation!

Yuan Qiuhua said: Don't mind! Talk about gratitude, take responsibility, and live to no matter how old you are! Some people live in the environment, where they adapt to it, no matter whether it is good or bad, advance or retreat, some people live in a state of mind, not only do they not change wherever they go, but they will also try their best to transform the bad environment into a good environment, come on!

Lin Qiying said: I can't invent a spell to turn the world upside down, and since then there has been no discrimination and injustice, no framing, no fraud, no ugly behavior, but I can't do anything, it's not appropriate to continue in a new form of cycle, it's not like an egg hitting a stone, it will only bring scars all over the body but nothing can be changed, I can only clean myself, I can only maintain the status quo in order to protect myself.

Yuan Qiuhua said: Good guy, you are under one person, you have covered your hat, and you actually appeared to say the truth, complaining about your daughter's suffering, and telling me to wait for lower-class female compatriots, how can I live?

Lin Qiying said: Things can be content, and people are self-exalted. You admire me, and I envy you. In life, it is not easy to live, life is not easy, outstanding means more pressure, excellent means greater responsibility, really tired!

Yuan Qiuhua said: Those who work hard are tired in their bodies, and those who work wise are tired in their hearts. No matter how tired you are, you can't escape it, and you can't escape it, you can only face it.

Lin Qiying said: You have a poetry and bookish temperament, and you are not a scholar, but you are already full of white hair and forehead! You are a girl who dares to act, is full of ambition, and can take responsibility, but in the eyes of ordinary people, you are silent and look like you are indisputable. In fact, this is someone else's mistake. The quiet taste makes you reluctant to associate with people, but you can win the favor of others with your own value, and this is where you are shrewd. You are capable, competitive and not so lucky, which is undoubtedly the most painful for you. But when you go deep into your heart, it hurts but not suffers, because you are willing to think, better than thoughts, and win over talent.

Yuan Qiuhua said: This is fate, some people and certain things destined to be cold to the bone, very chilling, and they can only forget each other in the rivers and lakes, grit their teeth, wipe away their tears, and everything will pass in a blink of an eye. After all, when people reach middle age, they can't help themselves, there is still a long way to go, a lot of responsibilities have to be born, the old and the young, you can't just live for yourself!

Lin Qiying said: The combination of kindness and ignorance often means the beginning of tragedy, if there is no ignorance of good and forced cooperation, many evil can only stay in evil thoughts and malice, and will not become evil deeds, an evil achievement, must bury several times its good to make a fertile base fertilizer. Good is weak, evil is tough, what's the use of weeping, what's the use of bowing down? There are always many miserable ends.

Yuan Qiuhua said: The cost of seeking justice is very high, and it is necessary to calculate economic accounts, and not to put on a high posture. What's more, life itself may not be fair and equal, and if the same thing falls on the heads of officials, rich people, and commoners, there will be three different results. In China's foreign countries, rural cities, in people's hearts, there are seventy-two lines, three religions and nine streams, but they are divided into rich and poor, three, six, nine, etc., and each has its own way.

Lin Qiying said: Although the county seat is a complex and closed region, the concept of nobility and inferiority is obvious, and there is no seniority in terms of seniority? The difference between the rich and the poor is also obvious, and there is no dark deal? Because of selfish and distracting thoughts, the yang is disobedient to the yin, and the people of the world are ridiculous, which is a Chinese style of funny. In the world, mediocre people are self-impatient, and elite people help themselves, and every policy has a countermeasure to adapt. Therefore, this policy can only prevent foreign ghosts, not thieves, only gentlemen, not villains, only good and pure people, not sincere and deceitful people, only loyal and honest people, and not vicious and treacherous people.

Yuan Qiuhua said: The theory in the book is the theory, the reality in life is the reality, people are destined to succumb to the living environment, and justice and equality are in a certain background, which cannot be surpassed. There are advantages and disadvantages in the environment, there are high and low positions, there are large and small achievements, the thickness of the capital of life is different, people have wisdom and foolishness, people have good and evil, and they are the measure of quality.

Lin Qiying said: I always have high requirements for people and things, and regardless of the actual situation, specific situations, there are perfectionist tendencies, there are disputes in life, there are contradictions in thought, there are many conflicts in my heart, the pressure is very great, the pain is very deep, and I live like a cow, but looking around, the reality is still reality, but it only buries my own happiness.

Yuan Qiuhua said: Personnel are exhausted and the opportunity is not coming, and the will of heaven is also. Although defeated, wait for it and go with the time. It is a kind of game to do what you want and not to follow the rules, and to know that this kind of game is your own, not someone else's, and you have justice and equality. Using morality to measure politics, or using conscience to constrain survival, is childish and ridiculous thinking. The victory that can be done here is not moral, nor spiritual, but the victory of survival interests. On the contrary, if you brave the disapproval of the world and move against the tide, you will not be defeated.

Lin Qiying said: Recently, I have always dreamed of campus life, maybe I am more suitable to be a pure intellectual, stay in school to teach, and engage in professional scientific research.

Yuan Qiuhua said: Being a deserter is not your style. When I was a child, my elders taught me to sing mountain songs: "Longshan County, Luo Bujian, a good county official doesn't need money, the county official is a good citizen, no gold, no silver, build bridges and build towers for thousands of years." When we grew up, we went to study in the county seat, and the school organized us to visit the "South Gate Bridge", "North Gate Bridge", "West Gate Bridge", "East Gate Bridge" and "Wenbi Tower" built by him, and the "Wangfeng Stone" carved by the common people on the big stone wall on the other side of the county Yahe River after he was impeached and left office.

Lin Qiying said: Ten views of Longshan, he created five views by himself, left a name in Qing history, has a good reputation, and lives with dignity and value!

The hot dry noodles came up, Lin Qiying took a bite, the noodles were slender and crispy, round and thick, oily but not greasy, crispy but not stiff, soft but not rotten. Noodles with sesame paste, chili oil, diced pork barbecued pork, small shrimp, coriander, shredded mustard, minced sauerkraut, chopped green onions, minced garlic, and then drizzled with vinegar sauce, small sesame oil, the more you eat, the more mellow the taste, the more you eat your teeth, the more itchy your teeth are, and you won't lose your mouth!

The ancients had clouds, but food can forget worries. There is no dignity under the so-called food comfort, the undisguised freedom, the unguarded ease, she buried her head in a breath, and the wonderful feeling was all eaten. In this beautiful and warm moment, she was in a very happy mood and very relaxed, which made her feel clean, clear, transparent, simple, natural, and as dusty as a newborn baby.

The tofu brain is up, steaming, nutritious, the soup is milky and clear, crystal like snow, the tofu is fresh and tender, the water is smart, the white porcelain porcelain, warm and moist like jade. Most people eat it with sugar, she no longer needs desserts, she needs the thick and spicy flavor, that is, the red oil and spicy sauce made by pepper, pepper, pepper, fresh ginger, and garlic fried in boiling oil. Don't be in a hurry, don't be in a hurry, she first tastes the original flavor, light and silky, delicate and delicate! Then, she poured a spoonful of red oil, and a red and gorgeous hibiscus flower bloomed in the bowl, so stretched, so lively, the air was slightly drunk, and the blooming petals gently trembled gently on the white juice surface, so shy, so fragrant, so beautiful and elegant!

She drank it in one gulp, the tofu melted in her mouth, the breath returned to her intestines, her mouth was fragrant, its taste was endless, and its pleasure was boundless! The hot fire suddenly made her face red, her seven orifices were sweating, she smacked her mouth and red tongue as if she was scorching, and she couldn't stop sticking out her tongue to relax, smiling, happy, happy to death.

Lin Qiying said: Andy, I really want the hemp flowers at the front door, the spiced tea eggs in Dashilar, the cold sugar gourd in Wangfujing, and the donkey meat in Balizhuang!

Yuan Qiuhua said: Next time, I'll make it for you, authentic, authentic fried noodles in old Beijing.