Chapter 053 Diary: Qiong Yao outside the window

My heart ached, but I smiled

Go, go, go, go

My heart is calm

Energy, refilled

I'm not a simple sail

September 26, 1986

Qiong Yao's book: The works I have read are: Smoke and rain, how many degrees of sunset is red, the moon is full in the West Building, the wind is in the wind, the clouds are flying, the seagulls are flying, the heart has a thousand knots, a curtain of dreams, on the water side, people are at the end of the world, the moon is hazy, the birds are hazy, the geese are in the woods, the sky is full of colorful clouds, the clothes of dreams, gathering and scattering, but the heart is on the heart, ask the sun, burn the firebird, between the water and the clouds......

And this "Outside the Window", I only read it now. Different from reading her other works, reading "Outside the Window", you can know what the predecessor of the writer was and how the writer was formed.

She (he) must be thinking a lot, and that's 'thinking differently'.

She (he) must have a very unique feeling, this is 'touching the extraordinary'.

She cares a lot about ordinary people who don't pay much attention to them, and she (he) often thinks about them and always can't let go.

Quiet, elegant, "free flying flowers are as light as a dream, and boundless rain is as thin as sorrow." "Outside the Window" Cheng Xinwen has a saying: "I sue the director of discipline, at our age, it is normal to love laughter and trouble, and rigidity is abnormal, she should educate us as normal youth, not as abnormal youth, if she blames me for not doing well as the head of discipline, she will simply come to our class as the head of discipline and discipline, let the classmates become big papaya, little papaya, and add her an old papaya......"

is also "Outside the Window": Song Nie Shengqiong's "Partridge Sky Sending Li Zhiwen": "Looking for a good dream, it is difficult to achieve a dream; Does anyone know what I'm doing at this time? Tears on the pillow rain in front of the curtain, dripping from the other window. ”

The hostess Jiang Yanrong inscription tea petals:

1. Flying flowers bring tears to the cold window, the night rain is miserable and the wind is crazy, the loneliness is deep, the hatred is longer, it is too desolate, and the dream is haunted by the soul!

Second, the sound of the wind condensed overnight, blowing thousands of sorrows, when people are quiet at night, they also search for dreams, the soul is broken, and there is infinite tenderness!

When I read this paragraph, it was already a quiet night, and Hu Jielin, who was in the same dormitory, suddenly asked in a loud voice: "It's all night, it's past 11 o'clock, 12 o'clock?" Another classmate said "Hmm!". I was in a good mood at this time, and called them a few times, but it turned out that they had already fallen asleep, which was a dream answer.

Actually, it's a little bit sooner than now. A few days ago, I was not in good health, and I was in a very bad mood, so I took four or five days to write more than ten pages of letters to my parents and 'He Ying', but before the letter was handed over, 'What Ying' refused my ticket to ask the gentleman to transfer to her. "I said you're eventful, and so is that letter. ”

Yes, worrying too much about others, it is inevitable that it will pass, and it is like this to be amorous and trouble-seeking, just as 'that fish' said, it is better to care more about yourself. I don't know if Qiong Yao and her friends had similar experiences emotionally when they were teenagers.

I felt so uncomfortable that I couldn't even watch "Outside the Window". At 9 o'clock, I walked out alone, walked and walked, and saw what should be in the street, including the accidental dead.

When I came back, I was in a better mood, and my bad mood and drowsiness were gone. Even if I am young, can I only have it in sleepwalking? I am a man with eyebrows, and I can't "drip through the window until the light" like a child, but I can still weave boundless sorrow like a rain all over the night.

"The spine is not felt, it does not tingle. "Deaf nose", the impetus of the entire language tide, is such a new word by word, to accumulate.

I don't know how similar the experiences of Qiong Yao and Yanruo are, but the long story I want to write is also based on my experience, and I can write about my own experience first, so that I have the confidence to write it well, which is also a similar process for the growth of many literary youth, right?

If Yan falls in love with Connan, I won't fall in love with her. So, do I love 'what'? I'm not sure.

is still Yanruo's mother's words, but it says what is not true love: "If you need me, you don't just love me." "That's right.

Her mother said, "There is only one kind of love in the world that is the most reliable, and that is a mother's love for her children." "I deeply understand that a father's love is a request, and a mother's love is selfless.

Her mother also said, "Home, happy home! You must have no self!" These words expressed the unprecedented level of the author's ability to become a writer. Almost all happy families have such a person, otherwise there is no family happiness.

Who in our family is worthy of this role? No, so we weren't very happy before.

If 'He Ying' also loves me, and we can get along like this, then our love is too beautiful and great.

Together, our two hearts are comparable to the whole world.

If you think, you're wrong

I'm willing to make it all my fault

Please don't set foot in my heart

Don't make me like you

Love is so devastating

You shouldn't know how to flirt

You shouldn't know how to be miserable

You should hate my qiē......

I write poetry