Chapter 060, diary, the eldest mother asked him to go to the eldest mother's bed

October 4, 1986, continued cloudy

The love is unclear, let her be bad to the end!

"Since people grow and hate the water, they grow up." Li Yu's work in such a style, but the word card is "Seeing Huan".

What I specifically asked me to read was what Yi He wrote in his notebook on September 3, which was actually a handwritten letter from Yi He (that is, He Ying), and I remember that the original text was almost like this:

"Oh, I was very sad when I suddenly remembered the letter that the gentleman had given me, but he did not understand me at all. I'm bad, bad, bad, the worst woman in the world, qualified to shoot. yes, come on, or I won't die by myself. To live, I want to live, desperately!

"He said that I ruined his sincere heart, and I was the first, is that really the case? Maybe, I am a bad woman after all! Then let her be bad to the end! If I am in Chengdu, I don't know how anxious she waits, I am really grateful to her, she loves my 'maturity', 'hypocrisy', 'flashiness', thank her!

"The gentleman is angry with me, hates me, is angry with me, is disappointed and ashamed of me! He also deeply regrets me! I have changed, I have fallen, have I fallen? He said that I am the maker of a nightmare, the greatest ......

"What is honesty, what is it? The gentleman said that I was lying, is it true? God knows! The eldest lady told him to go to sleep in the eldest mother's bed, why don't I know? I don't think the eldest lady would say that, because I am still sleeping in this bed! Shameful and pathetic to defend myself. Another terrible thing. What is taken for granted, taken for granted, shameful! What is only, only, ridiculous, ridiculous![Since I have burned those records, and there are hundreds of thousands of words of manuscripts to accompany the funeral, so much effort has been wasted, I just won't explain it anymore, let it be unclear!]

"Men are the most hateful, some people who are in condoms, put up their own unspeakable and shameful deeds, and tie them tightly with ropes, so that people think that they are very good, very good!

"Isn't it terrible to slander, to slander a woman, a bad woman? I don't want any man to touch me, to be a 'nun' in my own mind!

"I hate those hypocritical men, oh anyone. I love my stupidity, I love my ugly face. Because no matter how bad it is, they always belong to me![What she has, what she may have, is indeed very little, even if the money and food are temporarily my labor, and she is determined not to do so. 】

"I will never see the gentleman I hate, who is unwilling to cooperate, and who does not even leave the slightest leeway. Well, we'll see!

"I don't know what true love is, I love his high-class cigarettes, I pursue material comforts, I pursue his - the worst thing anyway. No one looks down on me, I hope so, I hope so!

"'Give you freedom, choose carefully, and hope that you will have a new life!' [This must be a gentleman's words] Do you still care about me? From the bottom of your heart? Thank you, I hate you! I don't deserve to be your 'Sister Ying', you are not as good as my 'bad woman'!"

[-That's all, it's just that long, it's gone.] This is the one who returned my 'dream scarf' and said that 'the broken mirror can't be reunited', this "Hu Tian is snowing in August", there is a 'bad woman' named 'Bai Xue', who stirred up our summer vacation for nine days, and she is the one who "fascinated the obsessed" mentioned by the strange woman in my "most memorable letter". Smart readers must have seen that she is an amorous woman who has been deeply hurt, and her feelings will reach such a dangerous place, and when you touch it, there will be changes......]

No wonder on the night of September 1st, she was going to say, "There is no honest person in the world", no wonder she said I hurt her self-esteem.

I was so proud that I didn't bother to justify. I'm almost unsarcastic, they all know I'm not joking, I don't have time to play with people, I don't have time to laugh with people, and I tend to take jokes with me. I, who is bent on picking up the loss of my brother's death, will not forget that if one person wants to do something for two people, I can't afford to waste it. If feelings make me too entangled and affect my work too much, my choice is definitely to put my feelings aside, and things must be rushed!] I can double my sarcasm and sarcasm my person, but for her, I pretend not to know. If I touch it again, I will only have to make her emotional barrier collapse again.

Why bother.

The hateful gentleman also arbitrarily shouted, "I am not wrong, there is nothing wrong with both letters!" There is a true meaning in this, how can it be touched on the surface? In the bad trend, both she and he love to go to extremes. She came all the time, and came to Shiqiao Middle School, which she had already decided not to enter, is it a good thing? Is it a bad thing?

It's half past mid, and I'm writing a letter to Yihe, and he said he'd show me first.

Be honest and have your own time and career to verify. When I walked with the old man, I seemed to think of one thing too beautifully, that is: If the real sister and brother are united, will they be happy? Yi He is a strong man, and those who love each other will be happy?

When we slept, it was night. He called us to his side and reminisced about my freshman year of high school again. [I was the most brilliant, the most written, the most unfortunate, and the most thoroughly burned during that time] but at last, the old man said: "There is one thing I admire about you, and if I had been rejected by her in a situation like yours, I would have died, and you would not have been very depressed." 】

Isn't that also a sign that I love sensibly, or that I don't love deeply enough?

The next day, I realized that the binary logical view has harmed too many Chinese people and damaged too many good things, [but unfortunately few people care about the reasons for the formation of this concept.] If you haven't been hurt, who will go crazy at every turn? Think carefully about the relatives around you, such people are hurt when they touch them, so let's blame them less, they are too lacking. 】

Sadly, our acting skills have improved, and our laughter is still a little real?

The letter to the strange woman, the letter to another her, the letter to the 'fish that has been looked for for a long time', is almost going out.

It's easier to be a critic than an author. Similarly, the mediator is easier to get along with than the parties, as is generally the case.

After a few letters, I don't have the desire to write, I'm going backwards. Flipping through my first diary, I don't feel like I'm in the mood again.

Literary hobbies are a bit nervous, and good writers have to be able to cut their loves—and some people already understand what I'm referring to.

The novel is speculative, at least it has to be loved by all people, the typical environment is also bred, and the characters created are synthetic - someone understands what I mean.

On the third day, the old one came up again, and he had to play for two days. He is strapped for money, but he is very attentive to nothing, how can he not have a story in his old body? He is still inconvenient in his legs and feet, but he is always trekking, rushing, and toiling, what is the matter? Just for one or two words, a few students are troubled, unclear, and endless.