After much thought, I decided to talk to you in this way, maybe you can't see it, maybe it's just my own words.

I can't say anything, so I can only hide the words behind my back, trying to tell myself something in this way.

Erha, we haven't had an in-depth communication for a long time, but we are too familiar with each other, and gradually I find that we have too many differences, and it has risen to become a difference in perception, which makes me deeply worried.

Over the years, I have so many friends around me, and what really makes me suffer from gains and losses is nothing more than you and another person, I can't figure out why I feel this way, and the heart that naturally wants to get close and the reason to stop exceeding the rules makes me extremely contradictory, maybe you never know, I still think about your sentence

"Why are you so clingy!" I silently listened to this sentence you unintentionally said that I was sad for a few days, I thought that after experiencing the loneliness of the third year of junior high school, I no longer relied on any such sad friendship, I thought I could be happy, go down with a big grin, spread positive energy to the people around me, I never thought that I would meet a friend who let me rely on from the heart, that is an emotion that only exists between me and my sister, when I realized this, I suddenly felt ridiculous and stupid, you have never been a hypocritical person, even friends

"Cheap", not to mention the girlfriend I have been pursuing, it is simply a luxury. So I decided to be independent again and didn't want these negative emotions to come into my world again and hurt me.

Forgive me for not having so much patience with you when I talk to you, because I think that knowing you well ignores the fact that I live in reality and that friends still have to abide by some distance.

Reflecting on this, I also have to admit that I still have a lingering grudge on that sentence, so wait for me, wait for me to consume that sentence again, and I will try to recover my state as quickly as possible.

Next, it's a difference that even you perceive. Let's answer your question first, in fact, I am not overly modest as you said, it is a kind of inferiority complex from the depths of my heart, just like the psychology teacher said, maybe his degree is not as serious as the teacher's mouth, but after all, he has been with me for more than ten years, and it has long been engraved in my bones.

So it's not just you, it's anyone, I don't want to lend out papers or assignments that don't get it right, whether you can understand this inferiority complex or not, but its level is already comparable to that of deep-rootedness, and it can't be changed overnight.

You say I don't like to talk about my high scores, and I'll admit that I did, but very few times, and I can say with certainty that I really forgot about the results because the focus was no longer there, so I forgot about it.

I know that I have a bad attitude when I say this to you, but in that case, and I hear you think that I am lying to you every time, I can't help but be a little sad or complain that you don't believe my ideas, and naturally my attitude will be cold, and when I reflect on it alone, I regret not explaining it to you properly, so I explain it here.

In addition, I don't think it's a big deal because of the difference in eating habits, so I don't need to talk too much about it here.

It's just that I'm at a loss right now as to whether or not I'm going to say what I want to say to you

The "shortcomings" are corrected one by one, I don't want to lose a good friend because of these, but I also don't want to change myself beyond recognition, I have made up my mind to be my own, the answer to this multiple-choice question, I haven't thought about it yet, and there is no way to give myself an answer.

But no matter what, you are also an irreplaceable person, an existence that is not just a simple friend, so what about me in your heart?

Because I don't feel safe, I still want to hear what you mean about me in your world, and I may not hear it, but I still want to ask......