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Feeling Qin Mengdie's crystal lips and kissing the faint smell of wheat, we kissed for a long time, until we couldn't breathe anymore, and the two of us separated.

"You're really stupid~ Is this the reward you want? Qin Mengdie covered her mouth with her palm and laughed.

"What do you like about me, are you stupid?" I asked Qin Mengdie.

"I said it. I just love the feeling of being with you, that's all. Qin Mengdie smiled lightly.

"Why do you want to drink again today?" I asked Qin Mengdie softly, looking at her red cheeks. I felt some kind of impulse.

"I don't know, maybe it's because I'm so happy. Qin Mengdie's face was always full of smiles.

"Really, I'll drink a little more with you. I looked at Qin Mengdie, whose face was red, and I also drank two more sips.

"Stupid, can you stand drinking so much?" Qin Mengdie said to me with a smile, but didn't stop me.

"I was really in pain at that time...... Qin Mengdie's eyes trembled, and she hugged my arm tightly.

"But here you are...... There you are...... Thank you~...... Really ......" Qin Mengdie choked and hugged my arm, biting her lower lip and looking at me like that.

"Why, why did you refuse me?" I began to say things that I didn't dare to say in my daily life.

"It's not that I don't want to...... It's just that...... I'm dirty......" Qin Mengdie's eyes flowed with tears.

"I don't mind, I really don't mind!" I also cried, I held Qin Mengdie's face and cried.

"Don't say it, please don't say it, okay?" Qin Mengdie shook her head, and couldn't help but have more tears in her eyes.

"You know what? I'm already very happy to meet you. Qin Mengdie grabbed my hand holding her cheek and said to me with a smile.

“…… Why?" I just looked at Qin Mengdie and spoke.

"I'm content to meet you. Qin Mengdie lowered her head and didn't speak again.

"Mengdie, you know, my mind ......," I whispered to her.

"Well, I know...... It's just ......" Qin Mengdie dodged my gaze. She didn't dare to look at me.

"Every time I see you...... Every time I see you...... You're always like that, you're always nosy every time to help me...... It's really ......" Qin Mengdie choked up and couldn't go on.

"Well, that's probably what I am. I nodded, and just looked at Qin Mengdie like that.

Not far away, a figure looked at us on the bench, her eyes darkening. Just watched us quietly.

After a while, she left, and she didn't say anything, just pursed her lower lip like that. With tears in his eyes, he left step by step.

"I'm not good to you, I'm not suitable to be with you at all, will you be happy with me?"

"How do you know I'm not happy?!How do you know I'm not happy!Qin Mengdie, don't you always use your feelings to measure whether I'm good or not?!" I grabbed Qin Mengdie's hand and said loudly.

Actually, I've wanted to tell her for a long time, but I've just kept it in my heart.

"I just, I want you to see me clearly, I'm not as perfect as you think, I'm dirty, I'm not like you think!, you know?!" Qin Mengdie looked at me like that and said.

"You're not dirty! I want to be with you, that's enough!" I hugged Qin Mengdie tightly into my arms, at this moment, I only want her, I just want to be with her, that's enough.

"Stupid...... Idiot ......"

Qin Mengdie scolded me over and over again, but she still buried her head tightly in my chest, her tears were hot, and I could feel the warmth in my chest.

"I just want to ask you one thing...... Can you answer me?" Qin Mengdie wiped her tears, she gently pushed me away, and just looked at me with red eyes like that.

I've never seen Qin Mengdie like this, but I can't help but get excited in my heart.

"You ask. I whispered to her.

Then, she asked me a question that I will never forget in my life, and whenever I think of that question, I can't help but feel a wave in my heart.

"Li Lin, do you like me? No, do you love me?" she looked at me with a soft frown, and I looked at her like that.

What is my answer? I look at Qin Mengdie at this moment, can I still say a second answer?

"I ...... I love you!" I didn't even think about it, I just said to Qin Mengdie like that, and then hugged her tightly into my arms.

"No!" Qin Mengdie suddenly pushed me away, and I looked at her appearance.

Countless tears suddenly appeared in her eyes, dripping down one by one, and the hot tears fell down the snow like that.

"No, you're lying!~" She cried, crying so sadly.

I slowly lowered my head and pursed my lower lip like that.

She held out her hand to my cheek and looked at me like that.

"You have someone else in your heart, I know...... You can't fool me......" she said, withdrawing her hand and standing up like that.

"I can feel my place in your heart, actually...... You love her too!Li Mengqi ...... She's also very important in your heart!, it must be!" Qin Mengdie's face burst into tears.

She couldn't stand it, as a girl, she couldn't stand it that I could fall in love with two people and step on two boats......

I wanted to say something, I opened my lips slightly, I wanted to say something, but I found that no matter what I said, I couldn't say it.

Everything is so weak......

In reality, I'm so powerless...... I'm so small......

Weakness, powerlessness......

I grabbed the clothes on my chest tightly and couldn't help but gasp for air.

I kept panting, shedding bitter tears, I sat down on the snow, looking at Qin Mengdie who was walking away, I wanted to catch up, but when I caught up, what could I say?

I don't know, I really don't know.

No, you're lying!~

That sentence was deeply engraved in my heart, and at that moment, I suddenly found that my heart hurt so much, I wanted to breathe heavily, but it seemed like something was blocked......

"Ahem~" I couldn't help coughing, I wanted to spit out the lump of stuff that was blocking my chest, only to find that no matter how many times I coughed, the lump would always be there.

That's right, I lied!

I lied to her, I lied to Qin Mengdie.

I don't know how long it took, but I gently stood up from the snow, and I held my body.

Obviously I was healthy, very strong, but I walked in such a weak position, so weak, I fell, I took two steps, I couldn't go on......

Am I wrong?

I do not know.

I don't know what I'm doing wrong, why is this happening, why is the person I like leaving me?

My body was hot, my head was already foggy from the effects of alcohol, and I looked at the glowing street lamps in the distance, and walked step by step......

I tried to walk under the streetlights, but it was so far away, I wanted to walk in the sun, but it was always in the dark.

In the dark, I was nothing, the weather was getting colder and colder, I still insisted on walking, I shook my body, and held on to the pillar of the street lamp, I looked at the footprints on the ground, which were left by Qin Mengdie.

She's already gone, can I catch up?

I don't know, I found out I was just a jerk!

Because I can't make a choice, the person I like has left me, the person I love has left me, I enjoy the love of two people, I enjoy the affection they give me, but I don't make a choice for these two feelings, I respond.

In the end, it was just me, just them, just the three of us, and ourselves.

Qin Mengdie is right, I'm just a child, I just want to live in my own world, I just want to be good to them......

I don't know how I got home, I don't know how I got back, I lay on the couch, cursing over and over again that I was a bastard.

I covered my face with my arms, not wanting them to see my tearful face.

No, you're lying!~

How heavy this sentence was, I cried, I cried like a child, and I cried out so weakly and cowardly.

I'm not a saint!

I'm greedy, I just want the two of them, I don't want to make a choice......

I fell asleep groggily, and just fell asleep.

The next day, Qin Mengdie left, as if she had never been here, she came quietly and left quietly......