When I got home, I opened the door and my dad and mom sat on the couch.

Dad usually rarely smokes, but today he smoked extraordinarily fiercely, his face was cloudy, and I didn't know why there was an inexplicable feeling when I looked at him.

Li Mengqi was not in the hall, and my mother burst into tears when she saw me.

"Mom and Dad, I'm back. I slowly uttered a few words.

Dad put down his cigarette and looked at me like that.

"Woo~ Why did you do something like that!I'll kill you!I'll kill you!" Mom cried and beckoned to me with a coat hanger.

I didn't move, I didn't hide, I just looked at her with a blank face.

It wasn't until the hanger was twisted that she put it down and hugged me while crying.

"I'm sorry for the trouble. I said to them.

"Brother is back?!" Li Mengqi opened the door and saw me covered in scars.

"Hmm. I nodded.

"What the hell is going on?" said my dad as he smoked a cigarette and looked at me.

"I promise never to do this again. With that, I went back to my room.

They didn't say anything when they looked at me, they just looked at me.

"Forget it, he's grown up, so let him be. Dad sighed and silently patted Mom on the shoulder.

I looked at my miscellaneous cat, its coat color is still as white as before, the head is yellow and black, and the body is white, it seems that Li Mengqi has taken good care of it.

Everything was so familiar, but I always felt like I had lost something entirely.

I went to take a shower, covered my head with the quilt, and felt the temperature inside the quilt......

Just as I was about to fall asleep, I sat up abruptly, pursed my lips and opened the website where I wrote the book.

I looked at the messages left by countless readers, some scolded me as a eunuch, and some got angry and scolded my mother, but more people asked me what happened.

I didn't speak, I just went to the editor and talked about me.

"You don't have to write it, the salary will be sent to your card tomorrow. He just silently sent me a few words.

"But ......"

"No, that's it. ”

“……”

Cold and unforgiving, I pursed my lips silently, this is the world of adults, not the play of children.

I still remember the last thing my dad said to me that day.

"You have grown up, you are ready to be eighteen years old, what to do in the future, you must think clearly! What kind of responsibility and life, no matter what you do in the future, when we are gone, that result can only be borne by yourself!" Dad's tone was very heavy, and it hit my heart word by word.

I pursed my lips and nodded, leaving that sentence deeply engraved in my heart.

The editor will never give you any preferential treatment because you have any excuses or who you are, and I have no choice but to accept it.

My heart was so heavy that I wanted to go to sleep, and the feeling of sleepiness filled my whole body, and I felt a sudden pop in my eyes!

I went to the mirror in the bathroom and found that there was suddenly a bright red streak of blood inside.

I shook my head, opened the fridge and pulled out my coffee.

I took a deep breath, reopened a document, and worked until morning.

In fact, I also want to go to Qin Mengdie now, but I still have a lot of things to do, and I don't have time to do anything else.

From 10 p.m. to 10 a.m., I talked to the editor for a long time, and he agreed to let me stay on the site and continue writing under a pseudonym.

"Don't stop watching. After he finished speaking, his avatar turned gray.

Words are like gold, I think he must be a busy man.

I sent a new manuscript to his mailbox and lay down in silence.

The drowsiness came at me, and I fell into a deep sleep.

In my dream, I saw a man with a short knife and stabbed me in the heart!

I snapped my eyes open and gasped for air!

Cold sweat ran down my back and wet the sheets.

I held my forehead, and the fear stayed with me anyway.

"Lin, what's wrong with you?" Li Mengqi suddenly appeared in my room and looked at me nervously.

I shook my head and said to Li Mengqi that I was fine.

I'm not someone who likes to bring those negative emotions out to others, and burying them in my heart is the best way for me.

"What's wrong with you!What happened?!" Li Mengqi shook my arm and cried.

"Get out of here!" I shoved Li Mengqi, and Li Mengqi fell to the ground all of a sudden.

"Don't bother me! Get out of here!" I took the porcelain on the side and smashed it in front of Li Mengqi.

With a bang, the porcelain shattered.

Li Mengqi cried while pursing her mouth, grabbed the teddy bear and ran out.

I covered my head in pain, and I bowed my head silently.

"Damn! that's fine, all leave me!" I smiled and lay down silently.

I was only seventeen years old that year, and I took the life of a man with my own hands! Although that person cannot be called a human being, that pain is still closely attached to my life, like some kind of curse, engraved in my heart!

The next day, most of the scolding readers left, and some stayed.

They are those so-called brainless fans, just like me, they don't say anything, they stay silently, silently cheer me up and support me.

I've seen it all, but it's just ...... I didn't say it.

I asked them why they stayed.

"There's no why, just believe in you. "Someone said to me.

I silently grabbed the hair on my head, and let the tingling spread in my heart, stimulating me all the time, feeling the stimulation, I could feel - I am still alive!

Since I came out of there, I have become more and more silent, and Li Mengqi seems to have become silent because of my relationship.

The next day, I cooked the meal, and then knocked on Li Mengqi's door, and she walked out of it with red eyes.

"I wasn't right just now, I'm not in a good mood. "I was hunched over and my body was extremely weak.

I've never been so tired as I am these days......

I just felt that all the strength of my body was drained, my energy was gone, and the whole person was getting old, as if I had changed into a person, and I had become an old man.

"Can you tell me?" Li Mengqi didn't eat, she reached out to me, trying to grab a part of my body.

I moved gently, now I feel extremely inferior, I don't want any normal people to touch my body at all, just like Qin Mengdie at the beginning.

"What are you talking about! I'm killing someone!! fucking killing someone!! what do I have to say!!" I called out at Li Mengqi.

The anguish in my heart, and the fear in my heart, roared out at once.

"I know...... You must not have meant it!" Li Mengqi said to me with red eyes.

"I just did it on purpose, don't you understand?! I ...... I ......" I covered my face in pain, choked up and unable to speak.

"I understand~...... It's okay...... I will be by your side. Li Mengqi hugged me and comforted me softly.

"I ...... I'm so scared...... I killed someone~" I also hugged Li Mengqi, and cried out in her arms for the first and last time......

"It's okay, I know Lin must not be like this, Lin is very gentle and kind, what must be the reason~" Li Mengqi tried to comfort me like a sister, I was in her arms, she gently stretched out her hand and stroked my hair, hugging me tightly.

Li Mengqi's body was very soft and fragrant, and smelling the sweet smell, I slowly stopped my tears.

"I'm sorry~ I'm like a little kid. I let go of Li Mengqi and wiped the tears from my face with my hand.

I went into the bathroom, turned the faucet on the basin to the maximum, and wet my cheeks hard.

The cold water irritated my face, and I looked at myself in the mirror and felt myself slowly come to life.

"Thank you. My tone returned to normal.

"I feel like Lin is back!~" Li Mengqi laughed all of a sudden.

Looking at her smile, I felt like everything was back to its original place.

"Let's eat. You wash the dishes~" I pulled out the stool and sat down.

"Cut~Stingy~Got it~" Li Mengqi also sat down to eat.

After a few days, they seemed to feel that they had not fulfilled their parental responsibilities and came back to have dinner with us for a few days.

But the days were short-lived, and they often didn't come back.

Ever since I was a child, I wanted them to spend a lot of time with me, but when I grew up myself, I realized how precious those times were, and I came to understand them.

"That's right, Lin ...... That girl. Li Mengqi asked me in my room.

I abruptly stopped the keyboard in my hand and fell silent.

"I ...... Don't talk about that, let's work together!I said that I want to be admitted to the same university, you can help me review!~" I smiled at Li Mengqi.

Li Mengqi nodded, she opened the textbook and reviewed with me.

"By the way, my parents also told me, your business ......," Li Mengqi said to me after reviewing.

"They said, "No matter what, you are their son." Li Mengqi said to me seriously.

"Hmm. I nodded and didn't say anything.

"School starts in a few days! We're sophomores in high school. I raised my head and said to Li Mengqi.

"Well, you're going to have to do your best. Li Mengqi said to me seriously.

I nodded, thinking about the other person in my mind.

On the last day left, I decided to ask Qin Mengdie about her.

I had already guessed, but I decided to go to her.

I changed into clean clothes and pushed the door open early in the morning on the last day of the holiday.

I had a gut feeling that she hadn't fallen asleep yet, perhaps, just gotten up.

I changed into a black outfit and walked out.

The street still smelled of dirt in the early morning, and I smelled it and walked in a certain direction.

I came downstairs to Qin Mengdie's house and glanced at the balcony on the second floor.

The base of the flower on top is covered with a layer of dark green stuff......

I sat on the stone bench below, looking at the closed window.

After a while, the person inside seemed to sense something, and she walked out......