Professor Wang said that he might be helpful to my case, and Xinya immediately changed her expression of expectation and admiration to Professor Wang after looking at me: "Really, Professor Wang, please save us!"

"Do you mean that after you checked the information for further research, you still agree that my situation is sleepwalking?" I don't know what kind of help Professor Wang said, and I'm even more worried that this matter is another oolong.

"No, you're not sleepwalking. An important characteristic of people with sleepwalking is that they usually have a dull expression when sleepwalking, do not respond to external stimuli, and go their own way. But I've done some field research, and you're not like that at all, the people involved in your sleepwalking incidents, I don't know if you remember the owner of the seafood restaurant, the owner of the nightly red skewer restaurant, the owner of the underworld restaurant, and the girl you tried to tease, they all said that they couldn't believe that you were sleepwalking, they couldn't see any difference between you and normal people, and said that based on your speech and behavior, there was no reason to think that you were unconscious at that time. ”

Xinya looked at me and said to the professor, "He's unconscious, and I'm not there, so we don't have much to say." But you ......"

"You listen to me slowly, I have a lot to say today, you listen patiently. Professor Wang interrupted Xinya. "I don't have enough evidence to prove that you are really unconscious and unaware of the so-called sleepwalking, combined with the things you sleepwalk... To borrow that phrase from you... It's all hurtful, and I can't explain it with sleepwalking. ”

Professor Wang's last sentence was like a slap in the face that stunned me, and Xinya didn't look much better.

This is an unclear suspicion that I am deliberate, is sleepwalking pretending?

My mind suddenly remembered a sleepwalking case I had seen in Australia.

This case is about a man named Cassirer who did have a problem with sleepwalking**, and raped a female colleague while drinking too much at a party, and was ruled by the court to be exempt from criminal responsibility. Cahill felt that there was a loophole to exploit, and he took advantage of his own problem to rape the woman he liked after putting himself into a psychedelic state, trying to use sleep ** as a cover. However, the process of devouring pills and sleepwalking naked was captured by a camera set up in advance by the victim, and finally Cassirer was severely punished by the law.

I feel the anger of being insulted!

But thinking that the professor had clearly said that he could help, and that the hurt he had done to me might not have come from his intention, I resisted the urge to bark at the professor.

When I shook my head and wanted to ask the professor a question, Xinya grabbed ahead of me: "You still deny that he is a sleepwalker, but didn't you just say that you can help us?"

Professor Wang took a sip of tea and said slowly: "I have actually been researching your situation, consulting a lot of information, and even communicating with foreign counterparts. I'm pretty sure by now that you're a more serious mental disorder than sleepwalking------ schizophrenia and dual personality. Professor Wang's expression should be for himself

Discover and feel satisfied and excited about the results.

Split personality?

Isn't that what kind of dissociative disorder it is?

This label was supposed to be attached to Xinya, but now it's good, and it's worn on my head in a circle. It's like completing a task and making an apportionment, but there has to be one anyway?

"You can't be wrong, Professor Wang, last time you said that Xinya was between fantasy and split personality, why did I become a dual personality in a blink of an eye, and mental illness is also contagious?"

"We can put Xinya's matter aside for a while, and today we will focus on you and your split personality. ”

I felt my throat run dry and took a small sip from my cup.

"Do you ever feel like someone in your head is arguing with you all the time, or as if you hear another voice in your body always going against you?"

I felt that the situation that the professor said was completely unsuitable for me, and subconsciously shook my head vigorously in denial. Xinya seemed to shake her head and shook her head, not knowing if it meant that her own situation was a little consistent.

"It's not a contradiction either. Because not all of a person with multiple personalities knows each other or even communicates with each other, just because you don't know the existence of your other personality and doesn't know his thoughts, wishes, memories, and behaviors, doesn't mean that he or they don't know you either. He may be watching your every move, including your thoughts and inner activities. ”

The more I listened, the creepier I felt. After Professor Wang first mentioned the possibility of Xinya's split personality, I looked up some information and knew a little about dual and multiple personalities. But I don't know how the professor thinks I'm fit for such a label.

I told the professor not to be too mysterious, and I wanted him to tell us briefly how I could be a dual personality.

"I'm asking you a question. 'Man's original nature is good' or 'man's original nature is evil', which one do you believe?" Professor Wang's gaze swirled back and forth on Xinya and my faces.

I said, I have thought about this question, people are just born, in addition to the instinctive desire to survive, he is a blank slate, there is no concept of beauty and ugliness, there is no concept of good and evil, and later ideas and concepts are all taught and cultivated the day after tomorrow.

"Well, very good! That will make it easier to understand what I'm going to talk about later. ”

The split personality or multiple personalities I learned about only happened because I was treated as a child or experienced significant trauma later on. My situation has nothing to do with worry and trauma, right?

I wanted to see how Xinya reacted, but she listened attentively, signaled with her eyes not to interject, and listened to Professor Wang continue:

Confucianism, as the mainstream of China's traditional culture for thousands of years, advocates benevolence, righteousness and morality, and teaches people to abide by order, emphasize morality, have recuperation, respect and order, abide by discipline and law, be industrious and kind, etc., in the hope of becoming a benevolent person according to Confucianism.

However, Xunzi, the representative of human nature, believes that human nature is to seek profit, and everyone is hungry and hungry for food, cold and warm, hard and resting, and seeking profit and avoiding harm.

If we simplify these two ideological orientations into 'good' and 'evil' respectively, although 'good' has always been the mainstream, revered and preached in Chinese culture for thousands of years, 'evil' has never been extinguished, otherwise wouldn't it really be the unification of the world and the peace of prosperity?

When people are born, they are a blank slate, allowing their parents, brothers, relatives, friends and society to exalt words on it, and polish you into what they want.

But because 'goodness' is the mainstream, efforts to be 'good' may allow you to be recognized and accepted by society, and receive various praises and awards. On the other hand, 'evil' is easy to be criticized and condemned by family members and society, and even punished by law.

However, in the process of human growth, various desires are also constantly developed, and while the desires of 'good' can be pursued in a righteous and bright way, the desires of 'evil' will also penetrate into each individual. Because the desire for 'evil' is not recognized and affirmed by society, it will be suppressed and can only be tried secretly in a dark corner.

To sum it up in modern psychology, human needs and goals have hidden motives for 'good' and 'evil'.

"Do you understand what I'm going to say now?" Professor Wang may have felt that it was time to unravel the mystery.