Chapter 315: Strong, Not Strong
Sun Xiaolin has always dared not take a breath in front of Xu Duhang, but at this moment, she said so many words in one breath, which she didn't expect. The words "real paralysis" touched a certain nerve in Xu Duhang, and Sun Xiaolin could see that not long ago, Xu Duhang's eyes were full of aggressiveness, but after he said those words, he became dodgy.
"Mr. Xu......" Sun Xiaolin decided to try to do something bolder again, she called Xu Duhang, no longer humble and fearful, but neither humble nor arrogant, "Mr. Xu, you must love Lan Xue very much." She obviously doesn't have to sit in a wheelchair, since that's the case...... I don't understand ......" "I don't need you to understand. Xu Duhang interrupted Sun Xiaolin's words with a sneer, "You are a nanny I paid to take care of Lan Xue, that's all." Don't think that you're self-righteous and trying to get involved in our family after spending a few days with her, let alone ...... Don't think I have a bad memory, she can become like that. As long as you really work hard enough......" As he spoke, Xu Duhang frowned, and there was no longer a trace of light in his eyes, as if there was no trace of a gap in the air pressure layer that shrouded Sun Xiaolin, "You don't have to stress to me over and over again that Lan Xue doesn't really need to be in a wheelchair for the rest of her life, this kind of psychological warfare is still taught by me...... Applying what I taught you to me has made your efforts in vain. ”
"But you obviously can't bear it!" Sun Xiaolin plucked up the courage to interrupt Xu Duhang's words in turn, "It's me who is too smart, you taught me at the beginning, as long as you keep reminding Lan Xue that she can't walk anymore, after a long time, she will take it for granted." At that time, no one will say that she will think of the wheelchair as the only thing to put her soul in. I thought that this method could also be used on you...... Thinking that as long as I keep reminding you that Lan Xue is not really paralyzed, Mr. Xu will have the idea of changing his mind...... At least this way, Lan Xue can be regarded as a 'way to live'...... Because, I can see that you are also heartbroken in the face of Lan Xue's painful appearance. You know very well that the drug has side effects, and now there is room for turning back, once we continue to fight, the results may be much more complicated and terrible than we imagined...... If she does become like that or is hurt more, you'll regret it...... Once that's the case, what will Lan Xue do in the future?"
Xu Duhang raised his head and exhaled a long breath, and when he looked at Sun Xiaolin with a light smile, he said disappreciatively: "Turn back? Who wants to turn back?" regret it...... Ha, why do I regret it?" As if smiling, Xu Duhang's face became gloomy again, "Sun Xiaolin, I believe you again, do your own thing, don't talk too much, that won't be good for yourself." What should Lan Xue do in the future, how can you even ask such a stupid question? You remember what I said, I am her leg, and I will raise her for the rest of my life. As long as there is me, Lan Xue doesn't have to worry about anything. ”
Xu Duhang leaned over, his eyebrows were calm, but he still couldn't hide his hideous gaze at Sun Xiaolin, "Don't be smart anymore, and don't test my memory anymore." Sister Xiaolin, the kindest Sister Xiaolin, do you remember my words?" Sun Xiaolin knew that she didn't have to do useless work anymore, Xu Duhang had already identified a path, and she had no ability to let him turn back. Sun Xiaolin nodded weakly and responded, "Remember." "That's the best. As long as you don't have too much to do, we won't be too tired. After that, Xu Duhang didn't stop, simply turned around, got in the car, and left.
Looking at the empty road, Sun Xiaolin couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief, and said to herself: "Thank God for not making me an accomplice...... Sun Xiaolin, you remember, you must not be an accomplice, you must not. ”
Late at night, in a daze, Lan Xue opened her eyes......
"Xiaoxue, you're awake! If you're thirsty, Mom will bring you some water to drink." "Shan Ru has been guarding Lan Xue, and her little movements are extremely sensitive. Seeing Lan Xue wake up, Shan Ru was even more excited, and when he was about to get up to get water, he was stopped by Lan Xue. Lan Xue's strength was very small, and she pulled the corner of Shan Ru's sleeve and hung down again. She looked at Shan Ru, who sat back beside her, and said with a smile: "Mom, I'm not thirsty." Shan Ru held Lan Xue's hand tightly, and tears couldn't stop flowing, "Xiaoxue, you're scared to death." You're really, really scared mom to death. "I'm sorry Mom, I'm worried about you, I'm fine. Lan Xue's weak response was Shanru, "I'm sorry Mom, I'll ...... in the future You may still be scared by me occasionally......" "Daughter......" She looked at Lan Xue, who was weak and had not yet recovered, and wanted to ask something, but she couldn't ask because she was worried......
"Mom, I know what you want to ask. I'll tell you everything as it is. Lan Xue smiled, although she still couldn't hide her helplessness, but her smile always hung on her face, as if she had never faded her hope, "Things have to start with how I met Sister Xiaolin...... Lan Xue told her story, from the beginning to the end, as if she had been separated from the world......
"So Mom...... I've always felt lucky that I was able to get back on my feet again. Lan Xue looked at Shan Ru, her eyes were bleak but full of hope. Shan Ruwei wiped away the tears that flowed down the corners of her eyes for Lan Xue, and gently stroked her forehead, "Xiaoxue, mom is proud of you." You are really strong......" Shan Ru looked at Lan Xue deeply, looking at the eyes in her eyes that were mixed with desolation and hope, but her heart was like a knife...... What is like a knife is whether he should feel "relieved" or not, and he is glad that during his absence, Lan Xue remembered what he said......
"Cher, you have to remember the pain now. Because in the future, you may experience more painful and heart-piercing pain than you do now. No matter how unbearable the pain is, you have to be the same as now, you can't have expressions, you can't react...... You have to keep it in mind. Mom, no matter what method you use, in short...... Mom wants you to hold Duan Yehan and Xu Duhang firmly in the palm of your hand. "This is just as what he said to Lan Xue before leaving, Lan Xue did it. Her daughter chose the most tragic way to remember her words, chose the most hurtful way to hurt herself, and did what she said, "no matter what method you use", she did it all...... As proud of Lan Xue, the glory part is that she swallowed the fatal pain strongly, but at the same time she also felt sad for this glory, because her daughter was happy, joyful, and worry-free...... They were all swallowed by her along with the fatal pain......
"Why don't you let Xiao Lin tell Duan Yehan...... If he knew that you would still be able to stand up......" Shan asked tentatively, but in the end, she looked into Lan Xue's eyes and still couldn't finish the sentence. "Tell him......" Lan Xue smiled sadly to herself, "What can you do after telling him?" smiled lightly, the tears in the corners of her eyes stayed again, "It's already unrelated people, why continue to be involved...... What's more......" Lan Xue smiled bitterly and clenched Shan Ru's hand, "What's more, I am his enemy and the one who hurt Aunt Zhou Lin." What Duan Yehan has to do is not to know if I can finally stand up, but to ...... It's ......"
Lan Xue didn't have the strength to continue, and she didn't seem to intend to continue the words "but". She didn't know how to tell Shan Ru about the words behind "but", whether to tell her that Duan Yehan should not care about her legs as long as she still misses Zhou Lin's kindness, but should hate her with all her might, or tell Shan Ru that she has always hoped to become strangers and irrelevant with Duan Yehan, because at least if they become strangers, they don't have to hate each other.
The accounts of the previous generation, they did not repay each other perfectly, plus they miscalculated their hatred for Xu Duhang on Duan Yehan's body, and Xu Duhang's revenge projected on Zhou Lin...... Lan Xue only felt that she owed a cold night, so whether she was hated or became a stranger, as long as she thought of Zhou Lin's broken eyes that day, she felt that these two ways were too cheap for herself. However, even if this is the cheapest way to do it, Duan Yehan, can it really be done? Maybe it is his own self-inflicted affection, and no one will not hate the person who wants to take revenge on him. But if he relented because he sympathized with the fatal pain he had to face from time to time because he wanted to stand up...... He should have no scruples, hate happily, forget happily, and if he wants to have no scruples, he can't have sympathy...... "If I am paralyzed for the rest of my life, he will also feel that I have been retribution, and I will be comforted in my heart, better than this......" Lan Xue was weak and smiled faintly.
"Silly boy, since you have told your mother everything, is there still a sincere sentence missing? You are my daughter, I know best. Shan Ru wiped away the tears that kept pouring out of the corners of Lan Xue's eyes in distress, "You know that he would rather you be in a wheelchair for the rest of your life than let you suffer the fatal pain you have to face because you want to stand up." You want him to think that you will never face that kind of pain......" "Mom......" Lan Xue suddenly choked up, she closed her eyes, and didn't dare to let Shan Ru look at her tearful eyes again, "I'm not that strong, I'm not strong at all...... I really can't endure that kind of pain...... I don't know if I'll be able to endure it until the end...... I do not know...... Did I give up before I could stand up, because I didn't want to endure it any longer...... Perhaps......" Lan Xue smiled bitterly and opened her eyes, the tears in her eyes had already soaked and covered the hope, and what floated on the tears was sadness, helplessness, and despair......