Chapter 248: The Only Tacit Understanding
Qiu Ruoyu used the time when Qiu Yingsheng went to pick up the snow marks to carefully tidy himself up again, he had never taken care of himself so seriously, his hair was combed and combed, his collar was turned over and over, and he carefully examined his face in the mirror, he was afraid that the moment the snow marks saw him, he would be without spirit and spirit. Although Xueji may not be able to see anything at all, Qiu Ruoyu still hopes that he can appear handsomely in front of Xuejin.
Perhaps he was born with a special intuition for snow marks, and Qiu Ruoyu could feel the breath of snow marks through the faint footsteps outside the door. Excitedly but cautiously, he slowly pushed the door open, and just as Qiu Yingsheng appeared in front of Qiu Ruoyu with snow marks......
Qiu Ruoyu had never felt so satisfied as she did now, knowing that Xue Zhen no longer recognized him, but as long as she stood in front of her so truly. As long as she can look at her, she doesn't have to endure the pain to hurt her, and she doesn't have to fall into the nightmare brought by her "traitor", and she can't extricate herself...... Qiu Yingsheng smiled and handed Xueji's hand to Qiu Ruoyu's hand, "Big brother, it's time for me to go back and rest." Talk to Snowmark, I know you'll be watching over her. With that, Qiu Yingsheng slowly turned around, took a slow step, and left......
Qiu Ruoyu lowered her head slightly, holding the hand of the snow mark, her hand was extremely cold, the moment she held it, it seemed to be holding the broken glass, and it stabbed her palm unconsciously. However, the more intense the stinging pain, the tighter Qiu Ruoyu's grip became. Slowly, Qiu Ruoyu raised her head to look at Snow Marks' eyes, and softly called her name, "Snow Marks." ”
Xue Zhen looked at Qiu Ruoyu stupidly, and did not react to him calling his name, as usual. At the moment when his eyes intersected with the snow marks, Qiu Ruoyu's heart suddenly felt a cone pain, like a knife. Through the light in Xueji's eyes, Qiu Ruoyu believed that it was a look that no one else could read except himself. The eyes of the snow marks were stupidly quiet, but Qiu Ruoyu could see at a glance that this quietness was obtained by hiding "joy, anger, sorrow, and happiness". In the past, Xueji would only look at herself stupidly, because she was a "child" who didn't know anything, but at this moment, Xuezhen who was standing in front of her was also looking at herself stupidly, but her eyes were no longer as clear as before...... Perhaps, as Kawashima Midoriya said, the return of the snow marks is not a coincidence by accident......
At that moment, Qiu Ruoyu looked at the snow marks in front of him, and his heart was distressed. Qiu Ruoyu couldn't be sure if his snow mark was forcing himself to play a "child" who didn't know anything, if Xue Zhen was really forcing herself like that, then what kind of mood should she be when she looked at herself calling her name in front of her......
Originally, Qiu Ruoyu wanted to hold Xueji's hand tightly and tell her a lot of words. Tell her that I miss her very much, tell her that I have kept something very important, and tell her not to be afraid, I don't want to leave her anymore...... Even if she knew that she couldn't understand these words at all, as long as she could say them to her. However, his intuition told Qiu Ruoyu that he couldn't do that now. Qiu Ruoyu let go of Xueji's hand, his gaze crossed from Xueji's eyes lightly, lowered his head and said coldly, "It's still like this." With that, he turned around and walked towards the hall......
Xue Zhen didn't want to trust her instincts, and the moment Qiu Ruoyu's gaze passed lightly in front of her eyes, she actually saw a fleeting light in his indifferent eyes, which would only appear in Qiu Ruoyu's eyes when she was a child. The light is no longer as innocent and warm as the young man at the beginning. When he was a child, Xuezhen always relied on Qiu Ruoyu to let himself and be carefree and coquettish in front of him, carefree and "unhappy", because he was afraid of her "unhappiness", Qiu Ruoyu would always smile and lower his head to avoid her "unscrupulous" gaze and then agree to any of her requests...... Just now, at the moment when Qiu Ruoyu coldly avoided his eyes, he actually saw a familiar light in his eyes...... Even though it was fleeting, the light was so clear, like a sharp light on the blade of a sword, that it only took a moment to sting her eyes.
Qiu Ruoyu walked straight into the inner hall, and the doubts in his heart gradually became clear, perhaps, his snow marks were really back. If she were still just a child, it would be impossible for her to find her home in a strange place with vague or clear memories, because such a "child" would not have any memories at all. It's time to verify the doubts in your heart, the answer that your eyes can't be sure of, and your heart can.
Qiu Ruo turned around stupidly, and suddenly returned to Xueji's side again, pulled Xuezhen over, dragged her to the inner hall, forcibly pressed her to a chair and sat down, and said coldly: "I want to rest now, you stay honestly, if you dare to make a noise, I will send you to the insane asylum." With that, he coldly looked at Snow Scar's eyes, Snow Scar was looking aimlessly, she didn't know what she was doing, and to her, no matter how vicious her actions were, it was just a matter that had nothing to do with her. "Fool ......" Qiu Ruoyu muttered to himself, turning around and making his bed. The moment he turned around, the moment when Xueji finally couldn't see him, the tears in Qiu Ruoyu's eyes slipped down......
The phrase "fool." It was indeed what Qiu Ruoyu wanted to say to Xue Zhen, she was really stupid, so stupid that she underestimated "her" in his heart. Qiu Ruoyu knew very well that there were less than ten days left, and his life would come to an end whether he wanted it or not. And at that time, Snow Mark is the person who has spent a lifetime in his heart. For Qiu Ruoyu, such a person, she smiled and gestured...... What it looks like, what it should be, even if it is not seen, it is already deeply rooted in her mind, whether she is crazy or not......
With her actions just now, if Xue Zhen's body was still the "child", she would definitely be frightened, and even cry in fear. And the snow marks at this time are too calm, and the calmness is distressing. She only cared about forcing herself to act like she didn't know anything in front of him, but she just forgot that anyone has the instinct to show fear because of fear. The more she forced herself to make what she "should", the more Qiu Ruoyu felt the pain of devouring her heart. Although it was a suffocating pain, Qiu Ruoyu still felt happy. Finally, the snow marks returned. Finally, that strong, stubborn, and persistent snow mark returned. Finally, his snow marks returned.
Qiu Ruoyu lay down, and Xue Zhen sat not far from his bed, but he also forced himself not to look at her, not even the slightest slight glance. Qiu Ruoyu slowly closed his eyes, pretending to be asleep, and his heart that hung day and night gradually relaxed, perhaps, the mistake is the best arrangement he can make for the snow mark.
Snowmark hides from herself the fact that she has recovered, and obviously, she hates him, and she wants to tear off her pseudo-mask layer by layer...... It's okay, she will definitely accompany her what she wants to do, and she wants to polish the blade that can dismantle herself, so she will accompany her...... So far, Qiu Ruoyu is still grateful to God, thanks, they finally stood on opposite ends completely. That way, Snow Marks won't feel sad about her death...... At this moment, Qiu Ruoyu understood why Qiu Yingsheng wanted to take a break from Kawashima Luya, at first he didn't understand, but now he finally understood. If one day, you are destined to disappear into the world, the most painful thing is not that you see yourself disappear, but that the person in your heart sees you disappear in ashes...... If she can make Snow Mark feel happy when she dies, so that her whole life will not be trapped in her shadow, then it will be a happy ending...... That's the best arrangement, and there will never be a better ending...... More reassuring than that......
Xue Scar sat quietly on the chair, looking at Qiu Ruoyu's appearance, he should have fallen asleep, and he couldn't hear anything in the room except the sound of breathing, as if, even if the tears hit the ground heavily, except for the heartbeat, no echo would be heard.
Xueji still sat quietly, letting the tears flow down, no need to hide it, because Qiu Ruoyu couldn't see it anymore, and didn't want to wipe it, because now only these tears could remind him of how ridiculous it was to deceive himself...... I thought that the light that flashed by would be real, and I thought that through that light, I could still see the possibility that he wanted to turn back...... It's just an illusion of oneself. I have turned against him......
Xue Zhen didn't know how he got along with Qiu Ruoyu in the blank memory before, listening to Qiu Yingsheng's meaning, Qiu Ruoyu and himself should be dependent on each other in front of him, and never abandon a madman, it sounds really touching...... It's okay, at least in front of Qiu Yingsheng, it must be calm. A scene that is half bright and half dark, the only tacit understanding left between himself and Qiu Ruoyu is to leave the bright half to Qiu Yingsheng, as for the dark half, it doesn't matter if the fish dies and the net is broken, it doesn't matter if both sides are injured, I will continue to act with him...... I really want to see the person who said the last line at the end, is he a shrewd and good at disguise "Ruo Yujun", or is he a crazy person who is stupid everywhere......
The night seemed to be deeper, Qiu Ruoyu opened his eyes and sat up, stepped out of bed, and looked at the snow marks that had fallen asleep on the chair, so careful, so cautious, for fear that his weak breathing would wake up the snow marks. Looking at Xue Scar's uneasy appearance although she was asleep, Qiu Ruoyu's liver and intestines were burning, he knew that Xue Scar was not asleep, but heartache, exhaustion and despair, which made her gradually lose consciousness in helplessness...... Qiu Ruoyu carefully picked up Xueji from the chair, gently put her on the bed, and gently helped her cover the quilt.
Qiu Ruoyu half-squatted on the side of the bed, slowly wiped away the half-dry tears at the corners of her eyes, stroked the broken hair on her forehead, and said to herself distressedly: "Sleep well, Xueji, Brother Ruoyu is here to guard you." Now, we can all take off our masks and stop acting......"