Hidden in your heart is my loneliness

What is written on my face is your loneliness

-- Jiang Qiangguo

My Loneliness in the World - Chen Yueping's Conception of "Loneliness Trilogy"

On August 16, 1985, I said: "You don't know how sad it is to see you being wronged, violently educated, and so stubbornly insisting on your mistakes and inhumanity. I am enthusiastic about the study of anthropology, and I have seen many malleable talents, and I have been stifled and strangled myself, and I always have a painful and indescribable pain - I myself am as stubborn as you, do you see, is there a good result?"

I was cooperating with a novel called "Lonely in the World" while spraying pesticides on cotton, in which I would tell the story of a young man in a mysterious community, dissatisfied with the old purpose of the tribe being more closed than the manor economy, and bent on dedicating his art to the development of mankind.

The young man has been tempered, worked hard, studied mathematics in the world, broke through many obstacles, and finally learned profoundly, with a wide range of minds, and extremely high skills, which made people admire.

At this time, the boy was only seventeen or eighteen years old. So he was distracted and spent all his passion on the growth of his friends, classmates, and sisters, and began to write books to promote his unique skills around the world. No matter how tired and hard this life is, I will not hesitate to do it.

How to know the situation in the world, it is thousands of times more complicated than speculation and speculation with mathematics and theory. People are deceitful, and most of them live with false faces.

I finally found out the aspiring true friendship people, and made friends with as many as a few, but I found that they were all related to bad inheritance, and it was not ordinarily difficult to correct, which is just that. However, some of them are accused, and some of them oppose his ideological propositions.

All of them are self-servants, taking everyone for granted, and I don't take others as inevitable, so the day of parting ways came as promised.

The teenager had to empathize, and after thinking deeply, he was ready to implement the co-education program with a focus on his sister and another classmate with singing talents. Before the plan was launched, the boy was disfigured again, and after the renovation, it seemed that he had aged ten years all of a sudden.

He endured it without saying a word, silently preparing for the action in the near future. I didn't know that the mutation came again at noon that day, and my sister became unteachable.

Hopes were dashed one by one, and he was heartbroken. His peers didn't understand him because he didn't have a high education, and they kept sneering at him as a fake genius. The top students of high school students, but they didn't get into college, no wonder others will talk about it.

He also wanted to write his experience into an article submission, but this line is more money-conscious, situational, and relationship-aware, not only is the content of the article 'weird', but also a lonely person with no money and power is also sent to the fence, and the submission is extremely rare...... Since then, he seems to have burst into the last years of his life, his ambition is greatly damaged, and he has no voice.

Lonely and unknown all his life, he has no shame to look back and see where he came from, and then for decades, he has been entertained by making people laugh. A single lonely lamp, a thin meal, hanging his head and arching his back, for life.

Suddenly sober up, I understand that loneliness is just a kind of life, no matter how many episodes there are, how to replay them, it is just a small corner of life. Only when you expose it yourself, can you see the incomparably vast expanse of life.

The lonely old man said to the young man, "That's right! You are still you, I am me, what was in the past, and what will be in the future." I was you, and you will be me. ”

He also said: "The past is just a polish for you, no matter how you are damaged, how to trample on, how to eliminate, the most beautiful in life is always indelible." Beauty is the most powerful force - unrivaled, unmatched!"

It turns out that what he is pursuing is to turn the world into his own tribe.

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First, for example, tribal insight: We know that any object radiates outward in the form of waves, but the intensity and wavelength of the radiation are different. For example, the human ear can determine the difference between these radiations and thus distinguish an object. For example, drawing any card from a deck of cards and being able to tell what card it is and where it is by ear is not only magic, but also magical. Lonely old people have such skills.

He said: "The well-known proverb 'hearing is believing, seeing is believing' is not the same in our tribe as it is understood in the human world. It is only because what our ears can hear is completely waves, and only physical objects can emit waves for us to hear, so what our ears can hear is the actual existence, and what we can hear is also the truth, which is the true meaning of 'hearing is real'. On the contrary, the eye cannot see the wavelength, but can see the essence through the phenomenon from the surface and the inside, can see the unseen, and see the unreal and inconspicuous emotions and intentions and the laws and laws that have no wavelength and no vibration. This is the true meaning of 'seeing is believing'. ”

China's classical literary aesthetics has also put forward the saying that "poetry has three realms", the physical environment, the situation and the artistic conception. Among them, the situation and artistic conception are a kind of obvious portrayal of 'seeing is nothing'. The beauty of artistic conception requires that the gaze is not limited by the appearance of the object, but can go deep into the core of the rhythm of life through the aesthetic form, appreciate the charm of all things, and express the far-reaching taste.

Shen Zhou would like to remind that the reference to these three realms starts from the external material world, that is, taking things as the www.biquge.info of writing and fun, and there are many poems with non-material themes, so it is suitable for some poems, not all of them. As for things and spirits, primitive people have two obscurantist concepts, one is animism, all things have spirits, and the other is totemism.

Second, the regulation of the human brain: the regulation of the human brain, which controls the activities of the human body system, is a complex complex, but long-term experience, practice, and experiments allow people to gradually decompose the brain to be realized, and they found that part of the human brain directs the body and part of the mental work, the left brain commands the right half of the body, and the right brain is the opposite. Musician loves to the left with his head tilted......

However, some people have broken this phenomenon, they have comprehensively regulated the functions of the brain so that every brain cell has a variety of functions, and they have realized this method with the help of heredity according to the principle of "pure nature".

Third, the use of language for the cultivation of beauty: the language of the mysterious tribe is the most advanced in the world, and they have 36 tones and 18 rhythms, which is the culmination of the world's musical rhythms. The use of this language is not only a communication tool, but also a kind of aesthetic enjoyment and aesthetic cultivation. The use of this language connects the body's internal and external systems such as speech, breathing, and nerves. Fine-tune the body, mouth shape, etc., to achieve perfect shaping. And the inner cultivation will also be nourished and polished under the subtle effect of language.

That tribe really uses the cultivation of beauty in all aspects and bits and pieces of daily life, where you live→ you grow→ you are beautiful→ you can → you happy.

You grow, and therefore you are beautiful. Following "Loneliness in the World", it is "Loneliness in the World", with a turn of the pen, focusing on knowledge and ability, saying that the ancestor of the lonely old man knew his situation and released the son of the peasant, and the son of the peasant lived and struggled in the world.

Compared with why the son of a peasant lived a full life in the world, it is pointed out that why the young man was lonely before also has his own shortcomings. In this way, it leads to "Where is Loneliness in the Real World".

In "Where Lonely in the Real World", there will be the opposite of the son of a peasant and the ancestor of the United Kingdom of Heaven, Earth and Man. Zuchuang did not eradicate the world, but engraved a strict rule on the citizens of the United Kingdom: they are not allowed to help the world. The son of a farmer refutes his views when he comes back to life and is determined to return to his hometown to experience reality.

I might as well name the "Loneliness in the World", "Loneliness in the World" and "Loneliness in the World" that I have conceived now as the "Loneliness Trilogy"

In the preface of the opening chapter, we must explain that this is based on realism, and the use of symbolism and fantasy techniques is added to form a fantasy effect, but its root is still realism.

Their internal cultivation is based on potions, while breathing, they send potions when inhaling to speed up the opening of the meridians of the whole body, they seem to be all land immortals, the talent of this farmer's son, I will only mention it in the last part, and make it clear.

Excerpt: "Unless I return to my home environment when I first left home." ”

"We still have that ability. ”

"It's mostly the human environment. ”

"This ...... Since you have agreed, I will satisfy you. ”

How many years have passed since the death of the son of a peasant, and no one knows whether it is necessary to have the power to return to heaven in order to create such an environment of immutable human beings.

"But," said the lonely man, "we will wait together for ten billion years!"

Ten billion years, I don't know how much the universe has changed. I don't know where all the people on Earth have gone, only that the solar system has been destroyed once.

However, the kingdom of the lonely old man and the soul of the farmer's son are safe and sound, and there is a new solar system and a new earth in the universe, which is the same as when the farmer's son left, and even the time is the same.

The farmer's son finally had the environment he wanted and was able to live again. Is he still him? What's the point of living again?

This is a proposition that needs to be solved, because in our lives, we will encounter a new rise, there will be a new life, don't go through all the calamities and redo me, and I am blind.

Maybe it's for you to live→ you grow→ you are beautiful→ how much can you → you happy?

Postscript: This is a note from 1985, slightly organized, rather messy, so it is classified in the volume of "Thinking and Deleting".