I forcibly held back the emotions in my heart and whispered to Gu Lin that although my eldest father didn't want me to know, I still begged her to tell me what she knew. My mother and I only had a report on my father's death, and my father only told me that the reason for my father's death was not what the report said.

As I spoke, I took a deep breath and asked Gu Lin, did my dad die because he saved people, or was he killed by gangsters?

Gu Lin lowered her head and didn't speak.

All I know is a simple piece of paper on which it says that my father, in the course of his official duties, was heroic and righteous.

After a while, Gu Lin whispered, "I'm sorry, Zhou Ran, I can't say." ”

Gu Lin's words made my heart feel like a huge stone was pressed, I grabbed Gu Lin's shoulders violently, looked at her with wide eyes, and said in a hoarse voice, "Why?"

At this moment, Gu Lin's eyes were not panicked, but sad, as if she had thought of something that had made her miserable for the rest of her life.

She looked at me crying and said, "I'm sorry Zhou Ran, can you not ask me, please." ”

I grabbed her shoulders as she muffled out the pain.

I reacted and let go of my hand in a panic, Gu Lin kept crying.

But I was very depressed in my heart, I couldn't control my tone, and yelled at Gu Lin, why can't I tell me? Could it be that my father could have saved them, and for me, I don't even have the right to know?

As I spoke, I gasped, clutched my chest, and said miserably: "Perhaps, I am willing to give everything to you, and you are not willing to tell me what I want to know? Can't let me know the real cause of my father's death?"

At this moment, many nurses gathered around, as well as patients from other wards.

Gu Lin looked at me tremblingly, she also laughed miserably, very painful, she shook her head, her voice was much weaker, and whispered, "My father also died that day." ”

With that, she stood up, staggered open the door to the ward, and walked in.

I was standing alone in the aisle, but Gu Lin's words were in my ears.

I came to my senses. When I lost my mind so much just now, I also pulled up Gu Lin's saddest thing.

I felt a little remorseful in my heart, but I couldn't push the door, and the big daddy was still inside.

Sitting weakly in my chair, I stared at the ground, waiting for Big Daddy to come out.

The crowd around me slowly dispersed, and my phone rang a few times during this period, and I didn't have the strength to look and answer the phone. Just let it ring in your pocket.

I don't know how long it took, but finally the door of the next ward opened.

I looked up and suddenly felt my neck stiff and sore, and a little dizzy.

Big Daddy walked out, his expression complicated, and he sighed.

I looked at Big Daddy and almost pleaded, "Big Daddy, can you tell me?"

He was silent for a while, nodded, and said, "Don't go into the house, let's go, go to your car." ”

I got up immediately, but asked with some concern: "Gu Lin is okay, right? ”

Daddy told me that Gu Lin was fine, just crying for a while, and it would be good if her mood was stable.

I was very anxious in my heart, so I walked downstairs quickly, and soon my father and I both returned to my car.

After getting in the car, Daddy lit a cigarette.

The smoke was filled, and he took a hard puff, and half of the cigarette was directly sucked out.

He didn't pause, he took another puff, and the whole cigarette went straight to the end.

At this moment, Daddy suddenly handed me a cigarette case and said, "Smoke one?"

I shook my head, looked bitter, and told Daddy that I don't smoke.

Big Daddy exhaled heavily, nodded and said, "It's a good thing, it's a good thing." ”

I didn't interrupt him, he opened the window, let the smoke fly out, and said, "Your father, there are a lot of things that I am secreting. ”

"In the same way, he has a lot of things that he hides from you and your mother, or very simply, even if he tells you, you don't understand, and those things, if you talk too much, are dangerous. ”

I clutched at my clothes and held back my composure.

Big Daddy sighed again, but his face was very complicated, it seemed to be a smile, but it was the kind of face that was more ugly than crying.

He said, "You know, your dad told me that I could be a bastard, and he turned a blind eye to me at most, but I couldn't touch something, or he would be the first to kill me." ”

"But I didn't expect him, he turned out to be ......"

As he spoke, Big Daddy slammed his fist on the glass window, and the whole body shook a few times.

I panicked and asked my father, did my father do something that the police shouldn't do?

Big Daddy stared at me fiercely, in a loud voice, almost yelling, and said, "No!

After finishing speaking, he seemed to lose his strength, his face turned pale, and said: "He transferred to the anti-drug brigade, because his face was raw and he didn't appear much on camera, so he took a task and went undercover." ”

I was stunned, and the big dad smiled miserably and said, "You know, what policeman has the highest death rate?"

"Anti-narcotics police!"

"Do you know, why your father's ashes have always been with the public security and have not been given to you?"

The eldest father looked gloomy, lit a cigarette, but closed his eyes helplessly, and said: "He can't erect a monument, he can't leave a photo, so after the sacrifice, there is no merit, just a pension for a few orphans and widows, he sacrificed, but people can't know why he sacrificed." “

When I was young, my dad was often away from home, and when he went out, he would go out for a few months, half a year, and only a day or two when he came home, and then he would leave.

The big dad took a puff of cigarette silently, and then said, "Take good care of Gu Lin, and you will always take care of her after that, do you hear?"

The big daddy's tone was very solemn and serious.

I suddenly reacted, and I asked my father, what is the relationship between Gu Lin and my father?

Daddy looked at me deeply, spit out a sigh and said: "Your father's brother is Gu Lin's father, at that time, Gu Lin was sick, he couldn't help but go home, your father followed, but his identity was revealed, he was killed by drug dealers on the spot, and after your father killed a few people, in order to lure others away, he left a queen for his brother, he didn't have to die......"

As he spoke, he laughed sarcastically and said, "I didn't expect that your father could not want me as a brother, and he could not think about your orphans and widows, how to live in the future, just to save the so-called brother's child, and give away his life." Is it ridiculous, you say?"

I was speechless and looked at the window.

Big Daddy opened the car door, he got up, and said, "I'm going to do something, a very important thing, you pack your luggage, take your mother, go back with me, I'm going to hand over some things to you." Gu Lin, I already told her, she followed us. ”

I suddenly felt a sense of panic in my heart, grabbed my father's hand, and asked him what he was going to do?

But he grinned, smiled at me, and said, "You don't care, I'll do what a man should do." ”