Love is troubled, unclear, and endless.

Chapter 061 Diary: The Barbarian Loves Me

It was supposed to be November 12, 1982

[Two pages have dropped in the middle of this diary, almost thirty-one years old, and the impression of what is written on it is already very vague. In the first few years of the land, when the busy season came, the peasants were still accustomed to relatives uniting together to take turns to raid. That day, our family invited someone to order some wheat, and the fifth father's family, Brother Yu's family and Brother Xuan's family must have been present, and Lili was Brother Xuan's youngest daughter, who was probably three or four years old at that time. She was abducted before she was in junior high school, and she hasn't seen her since, and now she's working less than three hundred miles away from me, as if she were a clerk—well, even if it's close, she doesn't know her! She won't even remember that when she was very young, her uncle and second father deceived her fiercely. 】

…… She looks bright and innocent, like two cups of pure autumn water, there are no dimples on her face, but the two laugh lines at the corners of her mouth, combined with her slightly darker face than other children, have to make people think that she is more naughty and cute.

I sat down to light the fire, because I was hungry, and the smell of oil buns was fragrant, so I used it to feed my mouth, but unexpectedly, the "little bell" jumped in and shouted, "Hey, the second father is stealing something to eat!" I hurriedly took two for her and told her to eat, but she turned her head to the side and said, "I don't eat, I'm not hungry, you're hungry, eat!" She broke the edge of the stove and looked into the pot on tiptoe: "Your stove is so short, our stove is even higher than ours." ”

Lili squatted down, and said to me, as to my mother, and perhaps to herself, "Are you afraid of barbarians?" "Are you afraid?" "Mother says that barbarians want to kill!" "Don't be afraid!" I hurriedly said, "Now the barbarians are good to us." ”

"I don't believe it!" she said, "Other barbarians have Yuan Shihong's kind of knife, (a long and sharp knife, that is, a killing knife used to kill pigs and cattle) They want to kill, and the one they want to kill the most is our little doll!"

I saw her eyes staring at the ridge of the roof, motionless, I hurriedly pulled her to my side and said to her: "The barbarian will not kill people, he is very good to us, they love dolls very much, just like your mother loves you, don't believe it, look at this, it was given to me by the barbarian!" I deliberately raised the black notebook in my hand. This was given to me by my brother, Brother Yu once teased Lili, saying that my brother is a barbarian, and I said that it was given to me by a barbarian, and there is also this premise. Her mother scared her with a knife as proof, and I was the only one who used this to fool her. [I have been a firemaker among my relatives and friends since I was very young, they always praise me for how good the fire is, whether it is big or small, it is fierce and fierce, and when there are many guests or a banquet, they always like to find me to burn the fire. I also like it very much, the reason is whether you know it or not, anyway, I didn't say it explicitly: even if one person burns the three-eye stove, I can always squeeze out some time to read a book, and there are not many good things like this to read while doing something. So I always went into the stove room with a book, and this kind of deception was okay? Anyway, it turned out later that she was deceived and affected her whole life.

"Really?" she blushed as she stared at the jumping flames.

It was getting dark, and I came home from school in the afternoon and there was a fire burning again, so I was busy carrying water, and as soon as I carried two loads, it was dark. Brother Yu was the first to go back to the house, he was not the material for the cook, everyone else was busy, he couldn't find the opposite direction to brag for a while, so he could only watch the excitement in his spare time. After a while, he chose his brother to come back from work, he was the father who left him, but he was really a good hand in the kitchen, and he worked harder, so he couldn't help but say it, so he was tied with an apron and pulled to the palm. As usual, I filled the water tank to the brim and prepared a pick. Wherever I am at the house of relatives and friends, the water tank will be full.

Soon, the adults finished work one after another, and they also brought the children of each family. The children don't know scruples, they don't know how to restrain their temperament, and when several children gather together, one is happier than the other, and one is louder than the other, and my house is noisy.

The three girls are playing a game with their imagination, my little sister is a brute, snatching the sister who is leaving the back and running, leaving and shouting and chasing;

She waved her arms and pounced on them one by one, chasing her two playmates straight in front of me. "I'm going to be a brute!" I threw my arms over their heads, trying to join in the fun. [I have rarely had fun in my life, and this time it was also the ghost who broke the convention] Who knew that Lili was jumping up and preparing to hit someone, and the two got together, and coincidentally, my hand was long, and she was on her nose. "Wow... Wow...", and she began to cry.

Others will make the baby laugh. I can't be funny, so I made the doll cry, so I had to stand aside awkwardly. Brother Yu came over: "Don't cry! The barbarian is coming!" Seeing that her mother was about to come for dinner, I was very anxious, worried that her mother would be unhappy when she met, and she was indeed not the material for coaxing children, so I wanted to avoid doing things.

I turned around and said in a hurry, "Oh, no, barbarian, barbarian!" Lili suddenly stopped crying, she looked in the direction of my finger, and a green pillar of light was moving down from the side of the barbarian hole on the opposite slope of the mountain, and the glowing body was even more ghostly because of the cover of the tall cypress tree. Lili's round eyes widened in shock, and I continued: "That brute came out of that barbarian hole, and he heard that there was a doll crying here, and he was going to hug the doll!

As I was talking, the more I spoke, the more I cried, "Wow——!" Lili cried in horror, she stared at the flashlight pillar violently, she was so frightened that she suddenly turned around, ran into the hall in a panic, closed the door with a "bang", and cried in horror behind the door. This time, I was really frightened!

At that time, I was not surprised that she was so young that she could have the strength to close those two heavy doors, I only knew that I was dumbfounded, how is this good?

Luckily, her mother came soon, and with her coaxing us, we didn't have to worry about it anymore.

[At this point, I don't wonder why adults often scare children, because I did the same at the age of fifteen.] We don't have a better way to stop the children from crying and crying, fighting, and because of the heartache that the children can't start, we often use scare! Alas, if you want me to say, maybe it's better for us to just hit them twice, don't you say? Twice hit the pain and shame, always deceive and bluff like this, although there is no trace to be seen, the children are already injured, isn't it? Shen Zhou is not an expert, I can only talk about this, I hope my book friends, can think deeply about this phenomenon, have some concerns. 】

A sturdy seedling was breathing, but it sprayed a filthy 'two sighs'......

During the meal, our four siblings, who don't drink, sat at the same table with our two nieces, [I remember the first small square table made by my father]. At first, we made the two little nieces laugh, and in this regard, my brother and two younger sisters are ten times stronger than me. Later, when the stamina came up, she made us laugh.

She learned from her grandfather to eat, and made a strange appearance of not having a few teeth, grinding left and right, grinding and grinding, grinding and grinding; learning from her grandmother to run, even uphill is a trot, she has been busy all her life, no one has ever seen her walk a few steps gently, her waist has never been straightened, and it is exaggerated even more outrageously, and we all laugh and bend over. She also learned from his father to bear the burden, her mother to hate people, and her aunt to take the soles of her shoes. also learned from her father to fish secretly, and she learned to the fullest that she was sneaky, sneaky, fearful, and hurried. Her serious and funny voice and smile infected the air, so much so that everyone who wanted to drink soup had to hide aside, and they were about to laugh at the scene. If there are conditions to cultivate, her talent is very suitable for acting, not the legendary clerk.

After the meal, Lili pestered his brother to ask for a cigarette box, and his brother had to pour out half a box of cigarettes and give the empty cigarette box to Lili, Lili took it in his hand and shouted happily: "Hey, uncle loves me!"

Taking advantage of her joy, I suddenly remembered that Brother Xianyu had shouted to Lili, saying that my brother was a barbarian, but she shouted a few times: "You are a barbarian, you give birth to a barbarian," and a series of laughter erupted from time to time. So I said in my heart, "The barbarian loves you?"

"Hey, the barbarian loves me!" the second dad says the barbarian loves me, hey—" She ran out of the house, a series of laughter followed by shouts:

"Hey, the brute loves me!"

Lovely child, poor child.

Note: This barbarian cave is actually built by the ancestors to avoid the "second stick", looking at the entrance of this cave that is always a black hole on the mountainside, I always cover it with a gloomy and mysterious color. I said that there were ghosts in it, and my brother also said that there were terrible barbarians living in it, and my father blocked the inner hole with lime and painted the barbarians in it. My brother and I went in and probed several times, but it was empty and we couldn't see anything. In 85, my father led people to knock out the barbarian cave, and I personally participated in the holidays, and the stones I took were used to repair my family's building.