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After touching the wall a few times, the expression person is really a little frustrated, he really didn't expect that he couldn't climb the big world, even this kind of small family he couldn't climb, so Lord Jia once doubted life, he didn't know what the meaning of working hard for so long, was it just to be able to take the test for a false name, to prove a false fame, to prove a false fame, with this fame more than ten years ago, it should not be said that he could be a direct official a few years ago, but now, after having a citizen, he can only be a cold bench, and he can't mix up an official and a half-job。

Or a certain time this fake, of course, I was really depressed, I had no way to go to the temple outside the city to incense, of course, the depressed family adults did not want to go to those ordinary people The lively scene made himself more upset, he walked directly to the back mountain of the temple, and quietly looked at the scenery in front of him in a quiet place in a bamboo forest, so he looked at the quiet scenery in front of him, but in fact, the Fan Fan in his heart has not decreased at all, and he is still thinking about his way out, where is it.

That is, when the people are full of thoughts, and no one can solve the sorrows, but there is a faint expression of life, people originally wanted to avoid these lives, and now he feels that he is simply a loser in life, he doesn't know where his way out is, he feels that his efforts are in vain, so what he hates most now is to see other people, he always feels that people see their eyes are with that kind of strange gaze, looking at themselves like the kind of eyes that there are losers, that kind of gaze he really can't stand, so when he heard someone's voice, he instinctively wanted to bypass the woods to dodge, and his heart was even more depressed, I hid in such a remote place, and I would still run into people, it was too much.

The family was even more uncomfortable, when he was at home, his father and mother treated him in two people sighing, from his sad face, as if his son was not to win glory for them, not to give them glory to their ancestors, but to find them a big trouble.

This can't blame Lord Jia's parents, after all, in their opinion, their son is so diligent and so genius, and he has fought for them a way to change their social background, so that they can really get rid of the lowly and lowly elements of businessmen, but their son has no way to get an official position because of what he is doing in front of them, which makes them have a feeling of lifelong regret.

In fact, when they learned that Master Jia had passed the exam, his father and mother felt that it was okay for them to die in history at that time, they were overjoyed, they felt that they had simply cultivated a genius, they were worthy of their ancestors, and now they were allowed to go underground to see their parents and ancestors, and they could all answer with their heads held high, they were worthy of everyone.

But gradually, as the happy mood slowly declined, the couple felt that their son was so good, but he couldn't show his might in the officialdom and give full play to his talents, which was simply too depressing. This is like the future of the future, the future believers at the foot of the mountain to worship the Buddha, from the bottom of the mountain step by step to climb up, until the door of the Great Bear Treasure Hall, but in the last step to stop the footsteps can not go further, that feeling is simply aggrieved to death.

So today's mentality of the old couple has completely changed, and they are purely happy and happy from the beginning. The joy is incomprehensible, gradually, but it has become aggrieved, a little aggrieved, he is gradually full of aggrieved, so they now see their sons at home, see their excellent sons, they all have a very uncomfortable and depressed feeling from you outside, so the faces of the two people are naturally no better to face such a parent's face, of course the fake adult can't stay at home.

He himself was already very uncomfortable in his own heart, he had completely let go of his self-esteem, let go of his dignity, and he had no principles to say that he had given up himself, and he had given up all the things he had respected and loved the most, and then he could be said to have gone to the door of various families in various cities to vote for posts and say good things in the third way, so that those vulgar servants, and fourthly, those who he had completely despised were trampled on his head, and the eyes of those servants were despised and endured, so much humiliation, but in the end he did not earn a way out for himself。

Such a blow can also be said to almost destroy all the beliefs that Lord Jia has always had. He knew that there was no benefit to staying at home, and he didn't know what to say when he saw the appearance of his parents, and now he was uncomfortable enough, and then he saw the elongated faces of his parents, he simply felt as if he had done something very wrong, no way, he could only escape from home, and there was no other place, if he drank with his classmates, it was estimated that he would be even more worried, after all, his compatriots were in a similar situation as him, everyone was complaining, and there was nowhere to vent his depression。

So what is the most worrying or annoying thing about Lord Jia now, of course he has seen other people, he doesn't want those people to see his frustrated appearance, although he tries his best to hide, but who doesn't know the situation in front of him, even the common people know that it is useless to read now, anyway, after reading it, you may not be able to become an official, it doesn't matter, in fact, you have no way to enter the officialdom at all, in this case, it can be said that the style of writing in those years is the most depressed period.

So when Lord Jia, who rarely went out and wanted to relax, heard someone coming over, his first instinct was, of course, to dodge. It's just that the speed of this voice is faster than he estimated, there is no way, the Canadian can only barely hide behind his dense bamboo, and he has already found that the group of people who conveyed the sound have appeared outside the bamboo forest, and at this time he is not good to move anymore, if he makes any movement here, it will be heard as if he is unsightly, in the eyes of the sensitive Lord Jia now, he is not willing to be any adviser.

In fact, Master Jia wanted to dodge a lot but couldn't dodge, but it was the biggest opportunity in his life. It was by virtue of this chance encounter that he saved himself from going to officialdom, which is also the thing that Master Jia has always been most proud of.