Chapter Eighty-Five: Lost Dreams
Natsume shuddered when he saw the familiar passage again, it looked like a fragile ice crack on porcelain, a hideous scar that could be seen deep into the bone, and when he stepped into it, it was reminiscent of a bloody mouth that devoured everything.
Its area has expanded.
Natsume was sure of this.
Every time he dreamed, he could remember that he was indeed helping another self to smuggle out. It's not that he has completely let down his guard against Wang Yu, it's just that he believes that if he doesn't do anything, nothing will happen, and if he does, maybe things will turn a little better, that's all.
Natsume walked into the rift, and he could now realize more clearly how much that small step had crossed. The self in the dream is not actually corporeal, but only the self thinks it is so. He stepped into the rift, and the process of coming out of it was the process of his consciousness gradually diving, he crossed the surface consciousness, crossed the subconscious, and under the guidance of Wang Yu, he stepped through the seal, entered the narrow room of suppressing the evil spirit, and faced him face to face with his soul.
[Hello, friend Natsume.] γ
A low and hoarse but heart-warming voice sounded as usual, and Wang Hao's scarlet eyes looked at Natsume as if he had expected it, and smiled gently.
Natsume, who was framed by white light, bowed his head slightly and said hello, then walked towards Wang Yu, stopping at a position not far away. He knew that he still had fear and vigilance against Wang Yu in his heart, so he didn't want to get too close to him, lest he subconsciously make hostile moves towards Wang Yu. After all, there was still no tearing between them, and it would be quite embarrassing if such a scene really appeared.
[You're really making rapid progress, I'm about to envy you. γ
Wang Yu looked back and forth at Natsume, whose soul was no different from the physical image, and his eyes were full of envy that he didn't know whether it was true or false. Unlike the way in which one's soul changes through visualization or prayer, Natsume's soul seems to have just changed, but the actual intensity is quite exaggerated. He is a psychic warlock, and he is not a descendant of Xuanzong who has the Yin God and Yang God Spell in his own system, and it is really a bit powerful to reach this point on his own, and Wang Yu is about to admire him.
[I don't think you will envy an ordinary human like me who is prostrate on the ground, a god of nothingness, just be free from polite words. γ
Natsume ignored Wang Yu, he didn't trust Wang Yu's expression, Wang Yu's words, the information Wang Yu gave, and the blessing Wang Yu gave him. But he had no choice, he was really desperate to ask Wang Hao for help.
Can you tell me why I can only be human, why I can't convert my race?]
There was a hint of eagerness and anger in Natsume's eyes, he had tried all kinds of methods in the past time to get rid of his human identity, from studying the legendary psionic energy that transformed himself into a semi-psionic creature, to trying to solidify the supernormal change, to asking the ghost clan for a way to change from a human to a ghost, and even werewolves and vampires, which had very high side effects and very low cost performance, he had tried, but without exception, it never worked.
He could feel that these things were useful, they did have the effect they should have in theory, but all those effects were rejected by his body, no matter how much he tried, Natsume finally stood there still the original Natsume, a human psychic warlock.
He can't be human.
[Are you making trouble, Wang Yu?]
[Hey, don't wronged good people. This is the old woman's sealing effect, it is forcing mine, oh, that is, yours, it is forcing our body to be in the most basic and primitive state, after all, I started with the power of a vampire, this caution is understandable. Otherwise, why do you think I can only give you the power of a psychic warlock? When it comes to life-preserving ability, a psychic warlock can only be regarded as a middle and lower level in the ability system I have, after all, the fact that the ontology is a human is too big a drawback, and it is not because I can only give you the power of a psychic warlock. If I dare to pass on my bloodline, it will dare to exclude my precious blood, and the seal is so strong, I can't do it if I want to. You know what I am, and if I'm behind all this, then your attempt will not be ostracized, but like a mud cow in the sea, and there will be no news. γ
Natsume fell silent, his heart sinking to the bottom.
Wang Yu looked at this other self and asked curiously:
[I don't remember you being so repulsed about your human identity, Natsume.] Why do you want to become a youkai and go back to my old ways?]
Natsume didn't want to pay attention to him, but he thought for a moment, and now the only person who could help him might be Wang Yu. Wang Yu has plenty of experience in how to change life forms, and his research on this seal is much deeper than Natsume's, so maybe there will be some way to get around its limitations, but even if he really has this method...... Does Natsume dare to use it?
The young man glanced at Wang Yu, and the young man's face was still almost innocent and curious, as if he really seemed to be so friendly.
γCan you help me?γ
[Of course, my friend.] Aren't friends meant to help each other? As I said, you're always going to come back here, and you're always going to need me to do something for you. And I'm more than happy to do something for you. γ
Natsume nodded, he still couldn't be sure if there was Wang Hao's push behind this, but he still decided to grasp the last straw.
[Jue is pregnant.] γ
[That's right...... Eh wait, what are you talking about?!]
Wang Yu still had that gentle smile on his face at first, but after he subconsciously responded, he suddenly reacted to what Natsume said, his expression was sluggish, and his smile couldn't help but stiffen.
[Didn't you ask me why I became a youkai, because I was pregnant. The lifespan of human beings is not enough to support me to accompany my family through the rest of my life, so I need to change, not to live with heaven and earth, but at least to reach the same level as them. γ
Wang Yu opened his mouth in confusion, his mind was quite chaotic now, and he held back for a long time before he said:
[It's not that she got pregnant all of a sudden, it's you who stole the forbidden fruit and got into the hole or what, things are going too fast for me to accept......]
[Jue and I have been married for a year and five months, and things are not going fast. γ
Wang Yu blinked innocently.
Then why did you never tell me. γ
[Because I'm afraid that you will threaten me, she is my treasure and my weakness.] I don't know what you're thinking, but I beg you, let me go, so that I can spend the rest of my life with my family, I won't do anything that threatens you, and I'll take the whole old hell into hiding after we separate, okay?"