Evade?

Am I just running away?

It was the first time I felt that the red mandarin duck was so sharp when he spoke, and almost every sentence pierced the deepest place in my heart.

My throat couldn't help but squirm slightly, and I swallowed a mouthful of saliva.

Did I just run away all along?

My eyes widened, I didn't know how to argue, I wanted to deny it, but when the words came to my lips, I felt extraordinarily pale.

"I ...... I'm not, I'm just ......" opened my mouth, and I said, but I couldn't say anything at all.

After a long time, I sighed in despair, and my originally tense body suddenly relaxed.

The expression on my face looked very tangled, and that expression was completely a manifestation of my inner struggle.

"I know it all. After a long time, I finally spoke: "Although he is a wooden man, he is not a stone man after all, and I can still see some things." ”

Red Mandarin Duck, Phoenix.

There are even Ellie, Bai Bing'er, I understand their intentions.

In fact, at the beginning, when I hadn't even dated Liu Ruyan and Lu Mei, I even thought in my heart that I might walk with Bai Bing'er.

But in the end, the development of things was completely beyond my imagination, and the development of many things was not something I could control at all, and no one knew what it would be like in the future.

The red mandarin duck looked up at me: "Then why have you been avoiding us?"

Hidden?

Perhaps.

Since Liu Ruyan and Lu Mei left, although so much time has passed and so many things have happened, every time I stay with these women, there will be other people present, and I have never been alone.

This time is an exception.

Because I received a call from Bai Bing'er, I heard that there was a problem here, so I came over with the red mandarin duck in a hurry, it may be the only time to be alone during this period of time.

"I'm just ......" I opened my mouth, then was silent, and after a pause, I continued: "I have Liu Ruyan and Lu Mei, I already have two women." ”

"What can I do, do I want to abandon Liu Ruyan and Lu Mei? That's absolutely impossible, in this life, I will never abandon the two of them, I don't want them to be sad. My tone became a little agitated.

Although Liu Ruyan and Lu Mei are just ordinary people, not superpowers, they can't be like the red mandarin, the phoenix, and the wolf girl who have always been by my side, but my feelings for these two women are definitely the most intense.

These two women occupy the most important position in my mind, and no one can replace them.

In any case, I will not make them sad.

I know that if I get close to other women, Liu Ruyan and Lu Mei, even if they won't say anything on the surface, they will definitely be very uncomfortable in their hearts, right?

"You don't want Lu Mei and Liu Ruyan to be sad, I know this, I know it, you love those two women very much, I am a little envious, sometimes, I even fantasize, if we can meet earlier, will things be a little different?" said the red mandarin with a wry smile.

First come, first served.

This kind of thing is a bit nonsense, but when it comes to the emotional aspect, the first come, the first come, the first to come, the first to come,

"You don't want Liu Ruyan and Lu Mei to be sad, although you have two women, you are still a relatively dedicated guy, otherwise there are so many beauties around you who can be unmoved. ”

"But that's why we're not dandy, and that's what we really like. The red duck smiled.

At this time, the red mandarin duck no longer had the slightest concealment of the feelings in his heart, and completely confessed the feelings in his heart.

"But you don't want to make them sad, do you want to make us sad?" the red duck looked up and questioned me.

My pupils contracted sharply, and I didn't have time to answer.

But the red duck was the first to speak: "I know, in fact, I am not qualified to say such things, after all, Liu Ruyan and Lu Mei are your women, what are we, junior? No, even if it is junior, we are at most junior, right?"

"It's really ironic enough, in society, women like us belong to the kind of vixen who are shameless and intervene in other people's families, right?"

What the red mandarin said made me excited, and I hurriedly waved my hand: "Don't say that, I have never thought of it like this, I think Ruyan and Lu Mei will never have this kind of thought." ”

"Then why have you been running away from us?"

"I ...... I just don't want to make you sad. I hesitated and said, "I think, sooner or later, you will definitely meet a better man than me, and you will definitely find your own happiness, and you don't need to ...... in me"

Before I could finish my words, I was interrupted by the red mandarin: "You are breaking our hearts." ”

"Looking at the man I silently liked, facing myself with an indifferent attitude, and distancing myself from myself, is there anything more sad than this? ”

"We all know you have women, but even so, we still like you. ”

"Or, in your opinion, we are the kind of half-hearted, watery poplar women? When you see a man, will you empathize and fall in love?"

I hurriedly shook my head, I would never look at the red mandarin ducks in this way, it was an insult to them.

"Falling in love with someone is not the so-called love at first sight, there may be such a thing, but it is definitely not us. ”

"We all like you a little bit because we have experienced a lot of things with you. ”

Perhaps, there are many things experienced, and maybe the things that happen are different, but it is in these processes that we understand our minds little by little. ”

"When I was in despair, you pulled me out of the abyss, and when I was in pain, you saved me. ”

"You have saved me again and again, let me escape from that abyss, do you want to push me into another abyss again?"

Maybe these words, in the heart of the red mandarin, have been suppressed for a long time, when the red mandarin duck said these words, he also bit his lip slightly, not letting his tears roll down.

Looking back on what happened before, even though a long time has passed, it still feels like yesterday, and it is unforgettable.

"I'm not ......"

"You are, when you push us away from you, that feeling is not much worse than pushing us into the abyss, when you pretend to be stupid, as if nothing has happened, as if you don't know anything, do you know what kind of feelings we have in our hearts?"

"I'm smiling on my face, but I'm crying in my heart. ”

"Regardless of whether there is that kind of qualification, whether it is a junior or a fourth, or a fifth, but we are a woman after all, as long as we are women, we want to pursue our own happiness, even if this happiness is divided into several pieces, but I still want to grasp it, and I want to embrace that happiness in my arms. ”

"Even if there is no result in the end, even if it will be very sad and sad in the end, but you must know that for us, this is a hope, the process of pursuing happiness, it is also a kind of happiness, do you want to strip this small happiness from us?"

"I just don't want you to end up in more pain......"

"In the end, there is no result, and we will be lonely for life, maybe we will be very painful and uncomfortable, but if we even deprive ourselves of this hope and happiness, it will be really cruel and uncomfortable. The red mandarin duck bit her lip and said.

"We don't even need to change too much, just like before, even if we can't be with you, we have a regret in our hearts, and we are even satisfied. ”

This one wish is quite humble.

The red mandarin duck suddenly raised his head and put one hand on my chest: "Ask your heart, if...... If we really have other men, marry other men and have children, what will you feel in your heart, you will feel...... Are you happy?"