The little hands of the red mandarin duck are very gentle.

It was gently placed on my chest, but this small hand made me feel like a hammer on my body.

If one day, the red mandarin duck has another man he likes, the phoenix has his own lover, the wolf girl finds his other half, Ellie also has his own lover, and Bai Bing'er also ......

When that happens, will I really be happy in my heart?

No......

Absolutely not.

Just thinking about that kind of image, I felt an unbearable cramping pain in my chest, a pinprick sensation, which made me extremely uncomfortable, and my breathing even became short.

In my heart, I even involuntarily permeated with a killing intent, wanting to smash all the men in my heart who had no sense of picture at all.

I remembered the time before Ellie found a so-called boyfriend, pretending to be a boyfriend.

When I saw that man, what kind of feeling did I feel in my heart, the killing intent in my body was completely uncontrollable, at that time, if there was no Sister Qing and Youyou, if there was no Ellie by my side, what would I do?

I'm probably ...... Give that kid to ...... Slay.

That's right, that's it, that's who I am.

The real me, after removing the disguise of appearance, is the truest self in the depths of my heart, a cruel, cold, cold, possessive man.

That kind of thing, I really did it.

The feeling and cruelty that welled up in my heart made me feel a little scared and creepy even myself.

My body was shaking.

There has never been a time when I have found that my understanding of myself is so profound.

At the end of the day, I'm just a perverted, cruel, shameless, greedy, possessive man who greedily wants to have it all.

even put a thick mask on his face very shamelessly.

Everything I do, just for myself, to satisfy the greed in my heart.

But I was very hypocritical, and I made an excuse for not wanting to make the women who loved me sad.

But in the end, it was me who made these women the most sad.

It turns out that this is me.

My true face, an abominable one, a man who makes me feel sick myself.

I was just running away and putting on countless thick masks to maintain my false image.

There was nothing more terrible than unskinning myself, I was trembling because of my true face, my face was completely pale, and I could feel that beads of sweat were rolling down my face and flowing down my chest, and my body seemed to be wet.

The red mandarin duck next to me looked at me, and there was some heartache in his eyes.

She knew that I must have gotten into another horn, and that it was easiest for a person to get into the horn when his mind fluctuated violently.

However, the flaminka held back.

Long pain is better than short pain.

If you can't untie this man's heart knot, these things will never see the result.

No matter what it will turn out to be in the end, and what kind of outcome will be, it will be much better than the current feeling of imminent separation.

The red mandarin duck no longer has that patience and continues to wait.

"You're going to be uncomfortable, aren't you?" asked the red man, "If we had other men, you wouldn't be able to accept it, wouldn't you?"

It's not uncomfortable, it's even uncomfortable and wants to kill.

"That's what you're really thinking. ”

"What would you say? We're best friends, so you don't want other men who come from unknown sources and don't know what the situation is going to approach us, worrying about whether those men will be nice to us?"

"But ask yourself, is this really the feeling in your heart?"

No, no.

"You're not, and if that's not the case, then why don't you want other men to approach us?"

"Since you deliberately distanced yourself from us, and didn't want our relationship to sink deeper and deeper, why didn't you allow other men to approach us?"

"You want us to find our own home, but we have our own home, and we will definitely leave you, but you don't want us to leave you, right, it's very contradictory, right?"

"Actually, you guy is also a very greedy person, in your heart, you have always hoped that you don't want to destroy the relationship between Liu Ruyan and Lu Mei and you, but you also hope that we can always be by your side. ”

That's right, that's what I really thought.

The sight of the red mandarin duck completely saw me through, and I felt like an object under the laser light, completely unable to leave the slightest shadow, and the darkest and greedy places in my heart were all seen cleanly.

"But, what kind of man, what kind of feelings, would want a woman to stay by his side forever?"

"There is no other feeling, then there is only one, and that is love. ”

Love......

Rumble...... Click.

This sentence, like a lightning bolt, suddenly exploded in my mind.

This sentence made me understand everything else in an instant.

The word that I have been avoiding all this time has completely appeared in front of me, and there is no longer the slightest concealment.

That's love.

"Perhaps, the relationship between us and you is not as strong as Sister Yan and Sister Lu Mei, and perhaps, your feelings for us are not so deep. ”

"But that's love. ”

"Moreover, our feelings for you will definitely not be inferior to Sister Yan and Sister Lu Mei. ”

"It's very unequal, right, we put almost all our feelings on you, but the feelings in your heart are divided into small pieces, and everyone can only get a small little. ”

"But what we're looking for is this little bit of happiness. The red duck whispered, her little finger on my chest, gently drawing circles.

"Of course, this relationship is really a mess, and we don't know what kind of development it will go in the end, and we don't understand how to face Sister Ruyan and Sister Lu Mei, but ah, this little bit of what we are pursuing, I just hope you don't hide her. The red mandarin whispered, and that kind of voice sounded like a pleading.

That kind of appearance makes me feel what kind of pressure and pain is usually suppressed and hidden in the heart of the red duck.

Because I don't know what I pretended, because my evasion brought such sadness to these women.

That's the real sin, and it deserves death.

I keep saying that I want everyone to be happy, but what I'm doing is a completely different thing.

My throat squirmed slightly, and I suddenly raised my head and looked at the red mandarin duck next to me.

I don't know what kind of feeling I feel in my heart, but now, in my chest, there seems to be a strong flame that I can't control anymore.

I don't want that.

I don't know what to do in the future.

Perhaps, there will be heart-rending pain in the future, but if you can't even grasp the happiness of the present, will you really be happy in the future?

Perhaps, what awaits us in the future will only be more uncomfortable.

I don't want that.

I don't want these women who stay with me, the women who have given everything to cry, I don't want them to leave me.

Evasion, no problem can be solved.

It may be difficult, but ...... I'm going to have to face it head-on.

After Hongyuan's words, I don't know whether to say to confide, question, or enlighten, I only feel that the dam in my heart has completely collapsed at this moment.

The impulse in my heart made me uncontrollable, and I didn't know when my arm was raised, so I suddenly stretched out my hand and hugged the red mandarin duck in my arms.

And the red duck suddenly raised its head, and two tender lips were imprinted on my mouth.

"Love me!"