I sat on the balcony, the sun was really dazzling at twelve o'clock, I squinted, looking out the window at the sun, this strong sunlight shone on me, seeped into my bones, obliquely into my internal organs, all over the light, the feeling of wanting to float up, at that moment, I let the Buddha take off, did not exist in the world.

I watched Xia pedaling her bicycle downstairs, and before I could react, the doorbell had already rang, and I was pulled back to reality.

"It's such a hot day, how did you come back. ”

"The tutoring class has been checked again, sister, the last one was sealed. ”

"If I don't pay you money, you go to school, don't hide in Tibet, you can leave in two days in one class, and you won't be able to learn well." I looked at the large sweat marks behind Xia and said distressedly.

"No, I've learned it all, it's just to do some questions. Xia Yi sat on the floor, holding the electric fan whirring, and I dared to turn on the air conditioner when it was cool.

Xia got a college entrance examination application guide, turning page by page, from Tsinghua University on the first page to unknown universities on the last page, Xia read it all over, and took notes while reading.

"Where do you want to go to college?" I asked, sitting down.

Xia sighed and said, "Where to go, I want to go to heaven, one tuition is more expensive than the other." "Xia's straw paper is all about the price of tuition.

"You're not in a hurry, next year is next year. ”

"Next year, will the money come out on its own next year? This money is what I want to go to college, and then I have to repeat it for another year, and I don't bother anyone. Xia said and threw away the pen in his hand, but thinking that it was my pen, he squatted down again and picked it up, and stroked back and forth, still smooth.

"Why didn't you go to the exam?"

"I overslept, I told you several times, why do you still ask. ”

I'm sorry to say that I forgot, and I still don't believe this lame reason.

In the afternoon, Xia sat cross-legged at the coffee table to do the test papers, and made one after another. I was lying on the bed, the curtains were open, my face was sleeping with the sun, the sun outside the window was strong, and I could see a large red when I closed my eyes, and I waited like this, waiting for the sun to shine into my heart and make me sleepy.

I fell asleep in a trance, slept for a long time, and woke up feeling relaxed, like a man who had walked thousands of miles and suddenly unloaded his burden. I walked to the living room, and Xia saw me coming out, and immediately stood up and said, "There is my letter."

The letter was sent by my parents, and every year I receive a handwritten birthday greeting letter from my parents, but this year, I don't want to receive it at all, I don't want to see this number, and I don't want to face this fact.

Xia stood next to me, his eyes kept on the letter in my hand, in the twenty-first century, few people write letters, Xia is very curious about the letter in my hand.

"Do you want to see it?"

"Is it a love letter?" Natsu tried to guess.

"No, you open it and take a look. "I handed it to Xia, I already knew the general content of the letter, and I still wanted to see it, but I didn't have the courage to open it.

"Is it appropriate?"

I handed it to Xia, nodded, and asked Xia to open it, Xia took the letter, opened it with both hands, took out the letter paper, and slowly unfolded it to read, it was a brush word.

"Brush words?" Xia was a little surprised. In fact, there is a reason to receive a letter every year, when I was a child, after my father and mother divorced, I met a new father, I was learning the knowledge of letters, the new father wrote a letter by hand, solemnly handed it to me, said it was a gift for me, I was proud to stand in the class to read the letter, happy for a whole month, because when I received the letter, my heart moved, this is the original father has never given me the feeling, I still remember this feeling, that moment, just like being given, it is a blessing that I have never felt in the future。 Since then, every year on my birthday, I will receive a letter, sent from the seaside, sent to home, in the past few years, my father retired, learning calligraphy, I received the letter and became the rice paper in Xia's hand.

"Ah, you're having a birthday. "Xia looked at me, and I was more excited than I was when I saw the letter.

"Well, it's coming, a few more days. ”

"Wow, that's good, it's my birthday. ”

"What's so good about this, don't all have birthdays. "I haven't figured out how to spend this birthday yet, and I even want to skip it alone.

"Of course, I think you can still receive a letter if you have a birthday. "Xia slapped me on the arm, thinking that I didn't cherish it.

"You don't have a birthday?"

"Yes, yes, I just don't know. Xia felt that he was excited to talk too much, and then led the words to me, "How did you spend this birthday? I haven't attended anyone else's birthday party yet." ”

"There's no birthday party, I'm done. ”

"Over?"

"This is the lunar calendar, and my birthday on the solar calendar is over. "On the day of the solar calendar, my phone vibrated for a day, and I have been receiving blessings from various member stores, wishing me success in my work, good health, and a happy family.

"That's okay, I'll give you a big cake, thank you. ”

"Thank me for what?"

"I've lived in your house for so long, of course I have to thank you. ”

Xia looked at my letter, very happy, I watched Xia read the letter, and I was also a little happy, Xia said that he was going to invite me to celebrate my birthday, and I had a little look forward to my birthday.

After a long time, when I passed my thirtieth birthday, and no longer felt depressed at night, I dared to open the letter, this letter, like the previous letters, my mother was urging marriage, my father said that I should fight hard for my career, but it was different from the previous letters, my father said, I am thirty years old, but he doesn't want me to grow up, he wants me to be like a child forever, never understand human feelings, live innocent and free, unrestrained, but he said again, this is too cruel to me, he still wants me to stand up, see through a lot of truth, and protect myself。 I want to be your brother's father. Looking at the payment, I smiled and thought, old and young, it is really getting younger and younger.

Xia sat on the sofa and read the letter back and forth several times, still reading, I sat down and asked, "I have a lot here, do you want to read it?" ”

"Okay. ”

I led Xia into the study, which was messy, full of drawings and books, and had not been cleaned up since I stopped working. I pushed open the glass window, Natsu pointed to the rows of awards and trophies, and then pointed at me and asked, "Is it yours?"

I nodded, I found the box of the letters, took out the letters, and showed them to Xia, who had a pink envelope under her hand, and she asked, "Is this a love letter?"

I smiled and said, "Guess." ”

Xia didn't guess, honestly put it back, and waited for me to pick a letter for her to read, which was different from what I expected, I thought she would be curious to grab the letter, run out of the study, don't listen to my dissuasion, open the letter naughtily, and then read it aloud, but Xia didn't, I asked "Don't you want to see it?"

"Can you see it?"

"Yes. ”

Xia opened the letter, it was a love poem that I copied when I was an adolescent, but I never sent it out, and I forgot the appearance of the girl I wanted to give it to.

"You're quite rich in this school. ”

"Haven't you received it?" I asked tentatively.

Xia shook his head, I took the letter in Xia's hand, folded it carefully, and stuffed it into Xia's hand again, saying, "Then I'll send you one." ”

Xia hurriedly withdrew his hand and jokingly said, "No, no, I sent you, I sent you." Xia said as she put the letter in my hand.

"Your ears are red. "I saw that Natsu's ears were slightly red, and the color of her face was different.

When Xia heard my words, he rubbed his face vigorously with both hands, and his face was red, saying, "It's not interesting to have red ears, and your face has to keep up." ”

Natsu's face was rubbed red, I smiled, not Natsu's blush, but Natsu's wit, I just wanted to tease Natsu, but she always had a way to resolve her embarrassment, she rubbed her face vigorously, using a deliberately created red to cover up the flush that was about to appear on her cheeks.

My box contains family letters from the past few decades, and Xia reads them energetically, smacking my tongue involuntarily, and I am even more excited than I received the letter.

In the afternoon, I went to the bar with Xia, today's day is really good, Xia sat in the co-pilot, I drove all the way to the west, outside the car is the blue sky, and the golden sunset, the sunset in the past is pink, today's scenery is extraordinarily magnificent.

"I'll go, this sun is like a duck's egg yolk. "When Xia saw it, he made an analogy with me.

Indeed, like a duck egg yolk that flows with oil, I only think it's a sunset when I look at the sunset, but when I look at the sunset, I can always feel something, I envy Xia's imagination, and when the sun goes down and the night comes, I worry about the perception of things that I am about to lose.