The next day, I bought my ticket early in the morning and went home.

There is no one at home, and the eldest sister should come back at noon. I walked into the woods in front of the door, and there was a river that was fairly wide across the trees. I still remember when Nguyen Ming first arrived at our house, it was also summer, and many people would come here to bathe at night at that time. My mother sat on the rocks by the river, watching the eldest sister, the second sister, Ah Ming and I jump into the river in turn, because Ah Ming and I are relatively small, so my mother inflated the old tires for us as swimming rings, and nervously instructed from time to time: "Just by the river, don't move too much, this tire can't afford to toss you." It was also in this river that Ah Ming finally opened his heart and smiled for the first time, and worried about me for the first time, perhaps it was here that I began to change my feelings for Ah Ming and slowly liked him.

At that time, there were too many people in the shower, I kicked the water happily, and accidentally slipped through the tires into the water, I desperately picked up the water, and the water rushed in with one mouth, I was really frightened, I felt that I was dead, and slowly my consciousness was also drowned by the river. After waking up, the second sister cried with joy: "Xixi, you finally woke up, it was too dark yesterday, or Ah Ming found out that you were missing first, fortunately I found it early, and my life is big." At that time, Ah Ming cried so hard, it seems that this cold boy who can't beat a fart with three sticks still has feelings, and his eyes are still swollen after a day. ”

……

"Xixi, why are you here?" the eldest sister's voice pulled me back to reality.

"Oh, it's okay, big sister, are you busy right now?"

"Well, after all, I just started the construction business, I am a novice, I am still a woman, naturally it is more difficult, and I need to learn a lot. Let's go, let's go home. ”

"Well, go home. ”

The home is still the same, except for the sofa, tables and chairs, all replaced with new ones. I vaguely remember that there was blood on the couch, on the floor, and on the wall, and I choked up every time I thought about it. Mom broke my heart for the three of us sisters, and I didn't enjoy a day of happiness and left like this, I'm sorry Mom.

"No, this is Ruan Ming's diary, I have read it a long time ago, if I had handed it over to the police earlier instead of telling our mother first, maybe our family would have lived happily. ”

I bought this diary for Ah Ming, and there is a sentence on it: Companionship is the most affectionate confession. At that time, I hoped that Ah Ming and I could accompany each other until we grew old.

The eldest sister took a sip of water and said: "Actually, I also saw this diary unintentionally, you were not at home that day, I cleaned the room, in fact, I rarely go to his room, that day the ghost went in and looked at it, and I saw that this diary was placed under Ruan Ming's pillow, I was afraid that he had any bad thoughts about you, so I thought that looking at the diary could better understand what he was thinking." The eldest sister paused, sighed and said, "I didn't expect him to ...... Forget it, take a good look for yourself, and you'll understand everything after reading it. In addition, the reason why I don't like him is not because he is a boy, I am afraid that he is as ruthless as that man, but later on the day when you went back to worship grandma, I happened to see him tie up a puppy, stone it to death, and finally dismember it, which is very cruel. I was terrified and didn't come back until he had disposed of the puppy and ran home. I thought it was because his grandfather had just died, and he couldn't stand it, but I didn't expect him to have such a cruel personality all the time, but he hid it well. ”

Ah Ming has always been very kind, how is this possible?

The eldest sister got up to cook, and I took the diary and looked through it carefully. The more I watched, the more frightened I became, the more I watched, the more scared I became, this is simply a pervert, just crazy.

The first part is full of his resentment towards his parents, his grandfather, and the villagers, and one paragraph reads: "Recently, I always dream about the past, I dream that my parents are covered in blood, and I dream that my grandfather who hanged himself is shaking his body, why? Why do you always come to me. It was you who abandoned me, I hate you, if you were still alive, I would have solved you with my own hands, it was you, it was you who made me so miserable, I hate you. And those who have bullied me, it is not too late for a gentleman to take revenge for ten years, and wait slowly, the moment when my blade sharpens is your death day, and I will let you also taste what it is like to suffer......"

How could that boy, who was bookish, and the sun warm, say such a thing.

I read page by page, and my anger gradually accumulated, and the vicious words cut my body again and again, and I felt a pain all over my body, and I grabbed my hair and let the tears fall. I remembered the scene where my mother persuaded me that day, and said: "I don't know my heart when I know people." ”

The second half was mostly the bullying he received from the professor at school, that day he asked the professor for an explanation but was ridiculed, Ruan Ming had been angry for many years, so he waited on the professor's way home, and took advantage of the black knife in the alley to plunge into the professor's chest, which happened to be stabbed into the lungs, without any shouting, and the professor died quietly. He wrote in his diary: "When the warm blood touched my hands, I suddenly felt liberated, and the hatred of more than twenty years seemed to disappear the moment I saw his frightened eyes, and it was a wonderful feeling......

I clenched my hands tightly, the veins in my temples bouncing. It turned out that all I had seen for more than ten years was a lie, and the first trace of pity was replaced by resentment. I continued to flip through it, and the last one was about my mother, and the date was the day before his arrest:

Why can't you fulfill me and Xixi, it's not wrong to kill the person surnamed Wu, if it weren't for him deceiving people too much, how could I be a killer, but you want me to turn myself in, again and again, you forced me, since there is a first time, I don't care about doing it again. Yes, that's right, you've taken care of me for so many years, but I've done a lot for Xixi, even if I turn myself in, will you let Xixi wait for me as you say? When I'm an idiot? Don't worry, now that you can't open your mouth, I'll take care of Xixi......

I couldn't forgive him, and when I didn't understand the situation, our relationship and his suffering was the only bargaining chip I had to convince myself to forgive him. Now this diary is like the last straw on my body, I finally find it difficult to accept, the strong fortress collapsed, if the heart is broken, a hundred patches can't stop the pus from flowing out. Throwing down the diary, I cried and ran out of the room where Ruan Ming's breath still seemed to remain.

Can people really be so bad? Can they really be so cold-blooded, and they can't warm a heart after nearly ten years of upbringing?