Xia watched the movie, but she said that it was not good at all, and the money from watching the movie could eat a lot of food, so she went in and blew the air conditioner, and the movie was nothing more than that. But just now, Xia was sitting in the garden, watching the family upstairs happily together, Xia suddenly jumped back to the theater of the year, this should be a picture in the movie, how did it suddenly appear in life. Xia couldn't believe that there would really be people who would not quarrel together, but could hug and hug and laugh.

"They also quarreled, and they could hear it in this building, and they dragged me to judge last time, which is called a murderer. ”

"It's not the same. ”

Xia sat quietly eating steamed buns, and I said to Xia, "You will also meet a good person in the future, don't envy others." ”

"To borrow your auspicious words, I still don't meet it. Xia swept away the yearning on his face and said to me with a smile.

"No, you can live a life on your own. "I thought Xia had a different heart and mouth, and mocked Xia for speaking dishonestly.

"That's right, why harm others, just have money to live by yourself. ”

"You can live with money for the rest of your life. "I still think Xia is lying, girl, always duplicitous.

"Of course I can, money will take care of all my problems. Xia confidently said to me, saying that the only pursuit in his life is to be rich.

I said, "Birth, old age, sickness and death, can the money solve it?" ”

"Birth, old age, sickness and death are not my business, I can't stand it anymore, if you want me to die, how can I continue to live. ”

I was choked by Xia's words, and sure enough, after staying alone for a long time, I couldn't keep up with the chat, "Then there are other things." "My brain was spinning rapidly, like giving a few examples, but I always felt that every example I gave would be refuted by Xia.

"There's nothing else, money can solve 99 percent of the things in my life. Natsu interrupted me.

"Okay. I nodded, agreeing with Xia's words, I was unconsciously tired at night, and I didn't have the heart to quarrel with Xia.

Xia looked at me seriously and said, "Brother, just look at you, look at your face, doesn't it explain everything." When I heard Xia's words, I unconsciously touched my cheek, what did Xia want to say?

"Really, you don't know if you don't go out, there are a lot of people in their thirties in the alley, they stand with you, at least ten years older than you, their faces are tanned, they haven't earned much money, they are old, they have nothing but energy, sometimes they go to those women to sleep, they are all disgusted, it is the smell of sweat deposited on the body, which cannot be washed off. Xia shook his head as he spoke, I remembered the smell of standing by the trash can and undressing the old man that day, and continued to listen to Xia.

Xia didn't continue, I felt the greatest sympathy with Xia's words, but I didn't, I don't know what their thirty-year-old faces look like, I just feel that I haven't been easy these years, and it's not as easy as Xia said.

After I finished talking to Xia, I suddenly came back to my senses, and when Xia just gave the reason for living alone, it turned out to be 'why harm others'. This topic is over, and I don't have the heart to continue asking.

Xia sat on the sofa and drew the table, there are 330 days before the next college entrance examination, Xia drew 330 forms, and at the bottom of the form, a sentence is written: "Yongyan is worthy of life, and he asks for more blessings."

I went back to the house and lay down, the silent night surrounded me again, I pillowed on the doll, I heard the sound of a beating heart in the doll, it was my heart, it was still beating, I knew that if I adjusted my lying position, this sound would disappear, but I was reluctant to listen to it forever. I lay on the bed, my thoughts were flying, I was so tired, I was so tired that I wanted to stop breathing, I didn't do much gravity work, but I felt like a laborer who kept moving bricks and walls all night, and after building a building, he went home shirtless, and he spent all his energy for the day, leaving him with a wheezing body.

In the dream, I aged so violently, one second I was still a teenager with black hair, the next second was a little old man with silver hair and a bent waist, I stood in front of the company, holding the design drawing, and a group of people surrounded me and laughed and said, "This is a popular design in the last life." Then the papers drifted away in the wind, and I reached out in vain to grab them, but the wind picked me up and fell heavily to the ground.

I woke up, sweating, I was only thirty years old, how did I suddenly hum and hum to live out of the wilderness, there is a life is not over, I have to live in the ward, I calculated, assuming that according to the current medical conditions, living to the age of ninety should not be a problem, then my life has just completed one-third, and for example, throw away the first twenty years of the little and not more, lose the next twenty years of bedridden, and live from the age of twenty to seventy years of the fifty years, then I have only passed one-fifth, and there are still forty years to go.

I sat up from the bed and saw myself in the mirror next to the closet, haggard and serious, with fist-sized dark circles and swollen bun-sized eyes, unable to sleep, but I must not lie in bed, I would be scared to death by my own crankiness.

I walked to the living room, at one o'clock in the morning, is Xia a steel superman? I go to class during the day, study at night, and still hold a pen, poke back and forth on the computer, "Why don't you sleep yet?" I asked Xia on the sofa.

Natsu was obviously taken aback by me, shivering, and said, "You're having insomnia again." I nodded, I didn't want to speak, there was only one bed in Xia's house, and I said, "Why don't you move the table in the study to your room first, it's not good to write cross-legged." ”

Xia saw that I was listless, so he hurriedly waved his hand and said, "No, I didn't write, I didn't write." ”

Xia got up to get water for me, I picked up the paper on which Xia wrote, I was really not making a test paper, Xia was settling accounts, every penny of his own money was arranged by Xia clearly, Xia these days, when he was working in a bar, he took advantage of the fact that the girls were drugged and collected a lot of money after saving them. Xia is calculating the price of repeating the college entrance examination, as well as the food, clothing, housing and transportation of this year, everything Xia Du plans clearly.

Xia saw the paper in my hand, pulled it out and put it in his pocket, and I said, "How much money do you still lack?" ”

Xia sat down, rubbed his hands back and forth on his face twice, looked up at me and said, "Is your money really blowing in the wind, why are you so rich." ”

"Then you have to go to school too, how can you go to school if you don't have money. ”

"Did I say I had no money?"

"Okay, you've got the money. "I was lying on the sofa after I finished speaking, I was annoyed in bed, but I was even more depressed after I finished talking to Xia.

Xia looked at me and said, "Brother, if you can't sleep, you might as well go to the doctor." ”

"I went to see it, nothing happened, just normal anxiety. "I lay on the couch, hugged the doll and said, I never thought I would fall in love with this hairy doll, I always thought it was something that only little girls would hold.

"Then it's not a problem for you to be so uncomfortable. Natsu's tone of voice revealed distress.

"It's okay, I'm not as uncomfortable as I used to be, I should be getting better. ”

"Brother, I think you may have been alone for too long, you should go on a blind date and find a companion. "Natsu sat on the floor, leaning against the wall with her legs crossed and chatting with me.

I think it's incredible, just a few hours ago, Xia also said that he wanted to live alone for the rest of his life, and it was very comfortable to live alone, but he turned around and persuaded me to find a partner quickly, just like the enthusiastic sister on the street persuaded the seventy and eighty, divorced and widowed old man, I made up the tone of Xia's speech in my mind, and my heart was broken, and said to me, I am so old, how can I still be alone, hurry up and find a partner.

"Why are you looking for it, isn't it good to talk alone?" I said to Xia in the tone that Xia had retorted to me before.

"How can you be alone, what will you do in the future. ”

"It's good to live alone for the rest of your life. "I imitated Xia as it was, and refuted my reasons before.

"Is it a lifetime for a person to live? ”