Time just passed quietly, a year passed, this year's snow was so big, the road was full of red lanterns overnight, it looked like a strong New Year.

I have received a lot of New Year's wishes, and I have sent a lot of blessings, I have left the best wishes in my heart, I want to send them to Xia, but how can I see her instead. A few years ago, I went back to that alley, the whole city was busy celebrating the New Year, and the same was true in the tube building, with Spring Festival couplets pasted in front of the door, and the small stove at the door of every house heated the whole building. There are many people in this city who can't go home, and the women in the tube building have a booming business.

Xia sat in one of the houses and fought at night, I really wanted to send blessings to her, but the place of meeting was always awkward, I really couldn't meet Xia, pretending to meet by chance, and said "What a coincidence, meet here, Happy New Year." ”

I walked into the tube building, every room I passed made me restless, the coquettish voice floated, a stream of heat rushed up, a woman walked past me, her eyes were charming, my palm felt her temperature, the kettle at the door of Xia squeaked, she wore a big red jacket, Tala slippers went out to pour water, I hurriedly turned to leave, I didn't even see Xia's face clearly, let alone say a happy new year.

I walked out of the tube building, Yu Wen and Yang Fan were setting off firecrackers on the road, two little hands holding hands, smiling brighter than the fireworks in their hands.

I used to not like the Chinese New Year, even if I can go home, I don't want to crowd on the road, this year, I bought a station ticket, and took a bus, the long-distance bus was almost not smoked to death by all kinds of messy smells, and after a few hours of bouncing cars, I finally returned to my home in the south, I don't know what's wrong, even if I lie at home motionless, I am extremely satisfied.

My partner Cheng Shun, finally stopped working hard, began to enjoy life, the New Year's plan is to travel all over Europe, but take out his year's salary, no one to spend, just enjoy it alone, I joked: "In case I look at that beautiful girl again along the way." "Before I finished speaking, he was already anxious, and giving him a marriage was undoubtedly the most heartbreaking blessing for him.

I sat on the balcony, looking at the spring rain outside the window, the season of recovery, aging came to an incomparably rapid, my face was no longer full of vitality, my body could not support the long night, even if I was casual during the day, I would nap at night. But I don't care anymore, I've already learned to be indifferent in the long summer nights, just like Xia said, it's useless to know, it's not important, don't all big things have tomorrow.

On the night of April, I went home from overtime and walked to the gate of the community, and a figure stood up by the door, staggered a few steps, and shouted my name with my eyes closed and leaning against the wall.

It's Xia, she is wearing a fat school uniform, wrapping herself in it, Xia has lost a lot of weight, she can't support her clothes at all, like a leaky balloon, the sky in April is still very cold, Xia hugged her arms, and before she spoke, she sniffed first.

"Brother. Xia stood at the door stiffly, the security guard stopped her, and Xia squatted at the door waiting for me after school in the afternoon.

I gave Xia a cup of hot water, I bought a kettle, and began to drink hot water every day, Xia covered the cup in the palm of his hand, looked at the water cup and whispered, "Can you lend me two thousand yuan?"

Xia's voice was too small, and when I stood aside and poured water, the sound of the slap covered her voice, Xia clasped her hands and said, "I'll pay it back, I have two months to take the exam, and I'll pay you back when I earn money after the exam." ”

Xia has no money, when he came to me, he had already eaten pickled vegetable steamed buns for a week, Yan Ye was not at home, Yang Fan's grandfather was unwilling to lend money to Xia, for fear that Xia would not come back if he was admitted to college, and he would have to pay the last tutoring fee tonight.

"You've lost a lot of weight. I said.

"It's okay, they can't reduce it if they want to. "When Xia spoke, I looked at Xia's face, which was no longer as fleshy as it was a year ago, his round chin was also thin, his face was pale, and his eyelids were drooping.

"You're selling blood again. ”

"Nope. "When Xia spoke, her tone was weak, I really wanted to yell at her, I can't tell the priority, is blood so easy to sell?

Natsu said I'd changed, "How has it changed?" I asked. "Finally, it's not like twenty-four or five, it's like thirty-five. ”

I laughed, time doesn't hold what I want to leave behind.

I looked at Xia, who was once perverse and ghostly, her eyes, stubbornly fighting against everything in the endless darkness, stubborn, I rubbed Xia's hair, a short hair, because I didn't care about the frizzy, Xia shrunk her neck, looked up at me, twisted her head to the side, Xia's eyes softened, began to redden, she held back the grievances for too long, endured too much pressure, and there were two months of college entrance examination, this was Xia's last chance to get out of the city and never come back, she had nothing, and even the money to support herself to live was not enough。

Xia walked on the road, still couldn't suppress the cry, no sound, only tears, Xia tried hard to close his eyes, but the tears couldn't be stopped, I rubbed Xia's head, squatted on the side of the road with her, Xia sat next to me, and asked me, "Brother, why do you say that we are the first in our class, and if we don't study every day, we can't catch up with him?"

Xia asked me again, "You said that if I can't go to school and can't go out, what should I do, I won't live in that tube building for the rest of my life." ”

"You say, why just look at that time, I usually do well in the exam, in case I don't play well that time. ”

Xia has millions of anxieties in his heart, almost a year ago, Xia was still sitting at my house comforting me with reason, persuading me to open up, don't think about useless, I can always comfort myself to accept anything, this time, Xia himself can no longer convince himself.

I took off the peace blessing around my neck and handed it to Xia, which was asked for by going to the temple under the sun at noon last summer, the yellow charm had faded, Xia looked at the charm, smiled, and asked, "You won't still have insomnia." ”

I shook my head, Xia took the talisman and the three thousand yuan below, Xia's voice was a little choked, and said, "I'll give it to you after I finish the exam." ”

"Don't be in such a hurry. ”

"Don't worry, I'll give it to you for sure. ”

Xia held the money, ran across the road like the wind, ran into the school, and disappeared into the night, I looked at the back that was fading away, and made a wish in my heart, God, let this little girl's wish come true.

After the college entrance examination, I walked into the alley and entered the familiar bar, which was a strange store manager, it seemed that Yan Ye went to the south again, and handed over the store to an unknown person, I asked him, is there a girl named Xia Xun.

Xia didn't come, and after the exam, he never appeared in this alley again, and the store manager pointed to the drawer under the counter and asked, "Is the book in it hers?" ”

I packed up all the books in Xia, and the store manager looked at the book covers of the colorful and domineering president, picked up a copy, and after reading it clearly, threw it on the table again, and said, "I think about good things every day." ”

I didn't speak, the books under the skin of this book are all ancient and modern masterpieces, which Xia picked out one by one from the books that collected waste, and it was these books that did not let Xia sink in this place of Huamen Liuhu. I put away all the books, and when Xia was looking for books, he ran to my house angrily and smashed the door and asked me for books.

Xia never came, one day, when I was waiting for the red light, I met Jia Ru, she dyed yellow hair, permed instant noodles, wearing tight and shiny clothes sitting in the back of a young man's car, the horn of the car shook the sky, ignoring the traffic rules interspersed in the traffic, I called out to her.

"Jia Ru, do you know where Xia Xun is?"

"Yes. ”

"Where. ”

"Whatever. ”

"She has something still with me, and I'll give it back to her. I stuck my head out and shouted.

"She's not coming back, she's going to work in an electronics factory. What's her where's it to you?"

"Some books. ”

"I thought why, I should keep it for myself and sell it. Before Jia Ru finished speaking, the young man waited for Jia Ru to pass through the red light.