November, 18th.

Fine.

I just came home from the hospital, and I don't know what I'm thinking until now.

Tomorrow I will leave the city and go to the doctor, the doctor said that the condition is very serious, and I read the worry in the eyes of the leaves and the book.

I can't see the direction of the future, what the future will be, this disease came too suddenly, too unexpectedly.

Or maybe you didn't notice it, right?

But forget it, it's come to this, there's nothing to say, just work hard.

Hopefully, in the near future, the leaves are crying, but I can't see or hear, so I can only lie in the ground engraved with the tomb of Chu's Nange.

I still have a lot of things to do, a lot of books to read, a lot of scenery that I haven't appreciated, I don't want to die, but right now it seems to be out of my expectations.

Forget it, everything is settled, I have thought a lot about it in the past two days lying in the hospital, I think a lot, I don't know if I can cross over, but according to Ye Zi, I won't be at home for my birthday next year anyway.

So I wrote down a diary in advance, and if I couldn't cross it, it would be a suicide note.

If you can see it, please say sorry to my parents on my behalf, and say sorry to my sisters and sisters, I haven't been able to grow old and go on.

Of course, I hope you don't see this journal, because that means I've stepped over.

As for the contact information, it is written on the last page of the diary.

Ye Zi, Shuhuan, Shizi, thank you all these years, I don't know how to come over without you, there are many, many things I want to say to you, but I don't know how to speak, how to write down in words.

All in all, thank you.

Thank you for bringing me all these unforgettable days, big and small.

Do you know why I always win more every time I play poker? That's because I keep a hand, and you don't gamble, how can you play with someone like me who has a friend of a gambler?

Because I only won the stone in terms of drinking, well, don't refute the stone, in fact, the weakest of the four of us is you, of course, you will come to me later.

There was also a rock-paper-scissors guess on the boat, and the loser jumped into the sea, do you remember? I remember, the fastest loser is the leaf, right?

I'll tell you why secretly, because the three of us conspired to exclude you first that day, you guess too well, there is a seventy percent chance of punching first, thirty percent of the cloth, but then rotating, there are only a few chances to produce scissors, you didn't find out yourself, right?

I've been secretly observing it for years, and you haven't changed this habit, so as long as the three of us only go out, your chances of losing will always be high, so high that you can't see a shadow.

Well, and those instant noodles, please don't do this kind of stupid thing again, no matter how delicious it is, you can't stand it for half a month, a month, no one can stand it, will people die?

It's just a little Chuzi who is dead, with instant noodles in his mouth and stomach, biting instant noodles and coming back to you, are you afraid?

There are many, many memories, but they are all blurry, after all, they are too far away.

By the way, Shuhuan, you should get married too, Tong Tong, I look good, and I don't have a boyfriend, try it?

I won't talk about the stones, there's nothing to say, Xiaohua is also very good, live well, it's better to get a small stone.

As for Ye Zi, you are more troublesome, sometimes beauty is a sin, so you are a sinner through the ages, that sentence I look very good, everyone thinks I have a boyfriend, and then no one chases me, this sentence is very suitable for you when I look at it.

Beauty is a sin, and your sins are more and heavier, so I am worried about your future, so, if something really happens, my house will send you to retire, and you won't see it if nothing happens, forget it.

Don't worry, they won't fight for a room, and with my handwriting, I can only rest assured that this house will be handed over to you.

Formalities, Shuhuan, you have to get it done for me.

Is there anything else in the end? It seems to be there, and it doesn't seem to be... Forget it, so be it, but more hopefully you won't see this diary.

If we really see it, may we not forget it in the next life, if there is an afterlife.

Chu Nange.