Those people and past events that make us feel painful, if we can really choose to forget, how beautiful it would be, but often we can only choose to live in pain, without the right to choose.

Chen Yang was silent for a long time, and finally raised his head and began his own narration.

Listening to Chen Yang's narration, Yuan Qiong's expression changed from surprise at the beginning to shock, and even became incredible in the end.

Chen Yang did not tell Yuan Qiong all the truth, he changed his way and described his current situation as selective amnesia.

Chen Yang has checked a lot of information, if he doesn't have the clear memories of the eighteen-year-old, the shackles of the twenty-eight-year-old memory, the later awakening of himself, and the notebook that opens the memory key of the twenty-eight-year-old, then his current situation is the real selective amnesia.

Chen Yang couldn't tell Yuan Qiong everything once, but simply said some of the doubts in his heart. Because Yuan Qiong knew Gao Yue's relationship, Chen Yang deliberately avoided Gao Yue in his narration.

Chen Yang took a sip of water to moisten his throat, and then said, "That's why I don't know you, and I don't remember what happened here and when I came here." ”

Yuan Qiong lowered her head and pondered for a long time, then she looked up at Chen Yang and asked, "Have you ever injured your brain?"

Chen Yang shook his head and denied: "Probably not, I just forgot something after I suddenly woke up from a park one day." ”

Yuan Qiong said with a question: "If this is the case, it is a great mental stimulation, and the brain has activated the self-protection mechanism and temporarily sealed that part of the memory, but when you encounter those people or things that you have forgotten, you will still have a vague impression." ”

Chen Yang nodded and said, "So I had a familiar feeling when I saw you today." ”

Yuan Qiong looked directly at Chen Yang and said, "Does Gao Yue know about this?"

Chen Yang shook his head and said, "I don't know, my amnesia didn't affect our lives, so she didn't notice anything." ”

In fact, Chen Yang has been thinking about a question for a long time. There is a huge difference between himself and his twenty-eight-year-old self, why Gao Yue is so smart, but he does not have the slightest suspicion. If you really want to say an answer yourself, maybe Gao Yue is carried away by happiness.

Yuan Qiong then asked, "Then you are telling me this now so that I can help you retrieve your memories?"

"I want you to tell me something about my treatment here, and hopefully find something out of it that will give me back my memory. ”

Yuan Qiong frowned: "Chen Yang, what I want to tell you is that the reason why your brain seals these memories shows that these memories are very painful existences, and your spirit can no longer bear this part of the memory." Although the current memory gap will make you a little lost, if you really recall that memory, it may make you more painful, are you really sure to do this?"

Chen Yang did not hesitate at all: "I'm sure." ”

Yuan Qiong sighed and said, "Okay, you fill in some information, and I will do some tests on you." ”

The test lasted for more than three hours, and the lunch was also the takeaway ordered by Yuan Qiong, and the final results showed that Chen Yang's psychology was not abnormal, which was somewhat unexpected by Yuan Qiong.

In Yuan Qiong's mind, since Chen Yang suffers from selective amnesia, there will always be some clues revealed in the psychological test, but his test results show that everything is normal.

Yuan Qiong took the test results and looked at them over and over, and finally she looked up at Chen Yang and said, "It seems that there is only one last way." ”

Chen Yang was stunned for a moment and said, "What way?"

"Let you watch the video of your own treatment at that time, however, Chen Yang, this is a more risky method, maybe you will feel particularly uncomfortable in the middle of watching, if I feel that you have any discomfort in the middle, I will immediately turn off the video. ”

Chen Yang nodded in agreement, and Yuan Qiong turned the computer screen to Chen Yang, then opened one of the folders, and then opened another video inside.

It was just a picture that made Chen Yang's nerves tense, and his twenty-eight-year-old self appeared on the screen, his spirit looked very bad, and his face was unusually haggard.

Yuan Qiong's voice appeared in the video: "Mr. Chen, now after I go out, you can say all the words in your heart to this video recorder, this is the key procedure for our treatment for you, please say your truest thoughts." ”

The self in the video nodded, and then the sound of the door closing could be heard.

Chen Yang deliberately looked at the recording time of the video, and already had some answers in his heart, this should be the video he recorded shortly after he moved to J City, that is to say, it was the time when his temperament changed greatly at the age of twenty-eight.

The following is what the twenty-eight-year-old himself said.

"Weiwei is a perfectionist, and I'm not a perfectionist at all, I don't know when the idea of perfectionism has been deeply implanted in my mind, my mind seems to have been affected by it, and now I'm on the verge of collapse, I really don't know what to do with myself. ”

A painful expression began to appear on Chen Yang's face in the video: "I love Weiwei deeply, but she suddenly said goodbye, which made me very painful." I only have a brother-sister relationship with Gao Yue, but they are together by mistake, and they have children. I didn't know what to do, I was really miserable. Although a few years have passed, I know in my heart that I still love Weiwei. But before I knew it, I was actually in love with Takatotsuki now. It's something that perfectionists don't allow, it doesn't allow me to fall in love with two women at the same time, it seems to be starting to take control of me, making me feel different from what I used to be, and I realize that I'm in the middle of a huge maelstrom from which I don't think I'm capable of escaping. ”

Chen Yang in the video took a few quick breaths, his expression regained a little calm, and his voice became low: "I learned the news of Weiwei from An Ran, I will contact her tonight, I need to solve all the doubts in my heart from Weiwei, why she didn't say goodbye, why let me live in the pain of a perfectionist." ”

Chen Yang suddenly had an angry expression, and his tone also raised a lot: "I feel that everything is so unfair, unfair to me, even more unfair to Gao Yue and the child, why let me live in endless pain, I feel sorry for Gao Yue and the child in the past few years, and I feel extremely guilty about their mother and daughter, although Gao Yue is wrong, but I know in my heart that she really loves me, I must ask Weiwei, what did she do to me?"

The video was very short, but it caused an extremely strong shock to Chen Yang, and his breathing was a little sluggish.

The twenty-eight-year-old self had too much information in these words to digest by himself, but there was no memory in his mind.

Yuan Qiong turned off the video, then sat on a chair and looked at Chen Yang and said, "How is it, do you feel anything?"

Chen Yang shook his head a little blankly and said, "No, not at all." ”

"It doesn't seem to have any effect, you disappeared after recording this video, and I tried my best to get in touch with you again. ”

Chen Yang sighed, glanced at the sky outside the window and said, "Yuan Qiong, it's late, let's get here today." ”

Yuan Qiong nodded and said, "If you have any questions, come to me at any time." ”

Chen Yang explained: "Don't tell Gao Yue about this, I don't want her to worry when she knows." ”

Yuan Qiong smiled: "Don't worry, until now, you are still my patient, and our industry has the strictest confidentiality mechanism." If the patient does not allow it, the patient's information will not be disclosed at all. ”