We can deceive ourselves, but we can't deceive our hearts.

After leaving the villa, Su Mucheng watched Chen Yang get in the car and leave with a smile on his face, and then turned around and entered the villa with a smile on his face like a little girl.

Chen Yang naturally wouldn't know that today Su Mucheng deliberately mentioned that Tian Cong was the marriage partner introduced by her father, in order to confirm how much weight she had in Chen Yang's heart.

Obviously, Su Mucheng got an answer that satisfied her.

If it was the twenty-eight-year-old Chen Yang who faced Su Mucheng today, maybe today's conversation would make Su Mucheng completely dead. However, by mistake, everything that eighteen-year-old Chen Yang showed made the flame of hope in Su Mucheng's heart burn more and more.

Chen Yang asked himself in his heart.

Why?

Why did Mu Cheng feel inexplicably uncomfortable when she said that Tian Cong was the marriage partner arranged by her father?

Where does that strong sense of loss come from?

I really dislike that Tian Cong very much, but I can be sure that it is not because of Tian Cong that my emotions have such big ups and downs.

If.

If Mu Cheng was talking about another person he didn't know today, how would he behave?

Chen Yang was sure that he would still be as hesitant and uneasy as he was now.

Chen Yang was a little confused, he didn't understand why he was like this. I obviously just treat Mu Cheng as my own sister, however, why is I so anxious now?

Chen Yang wanted to comfort himself psychologically, he imagined his current mood as the father of those who married his daughters, and he had extremely complicated feelings in his heart.

However, soon, Chen Yang denied it, because this kind of feeling did not exist in his heart at all.

Chen Yang's thoughts were a little flustered, he really couldn't imagine that Mu Cheng today was just casually mentioned, he would have such a big mood swing, if he saw Mu Cheng wearing a wedding dress and walking towards the palace of marriage with others, how far would he be gaffe.

Chen Yang was a little scared, he already had the answer in his heart, but he didn't dare to admit it, and warned himself that he must not touch it.

The answer is that he has a very strong love for Su Mucheng, who he believes is his own sister.

This answer was unacceptable to Chen Yang, and it made Chen Yang feel extremely frightened.

The memory of the age of twenty-eight has not affected the current self, and the current self is the mind of the eighteen-year-old.

I have always had this unexpected idea, and after getting along with Mu Cheng day and night, I already had a love for her that I had never noticed.

Chen Yang suddenly realized that he was such a bastard, and he had always thought that he was 100% sincere to Gao Yue, but Mu Cheng's simple words broke his beautiful vow.

Chen Yang suddenly found that he was so ridiculous, Mu Cheng's simple words actually made him sad to the point where he is now. And he swore that he regarded her as his own sister, but he hypocritically buried a wisp of his feelings for her in the deepest heart.

Chen Yang found that he was so hypocritical, so hateful, and had such a dirty mentality.

Chen Yang underestimated Su Mucheng's position in his heart, in his eighteen-year-old heart, even his first love Lin Weiwei could not be compared with Su Mucheng.

Compared with Lin Weiwei's hazy love in his first love, for Mu Cheng, it is spoiled and loved for many years.

My love for Mu Cheng is complex and the most pure, it is not just the so-called love between men and women, but a love with very special emotions. I can't describe the complicated feelings, but I was tortured by its instantaneous appearance.

Chen Yang drove the car to the door of the bar, and after calming down, he took out his mobile phone and dialed Gao Yue's number, and after a few small talks, Chen Yang told Gao Yue that he would stay at the bar today and would not go back to eat at night, and then hung up the phone and entered the bar.

All afternoon, Chen Yang wandered in the bar in despair, he didn't know what he was thinking, as if his soul was out of his body, his body was like a walking corpse.

Chen Yang thinks that he is a single-minded man, if he identifies Gao Yue, there can be no other women in his heart, but the reality slapped him in the face.

I don't know how long it took, Chen Yang came back to his senses at Xiaomei's call, and looked at Xiaomei's smiling face blankly.

"Brother Yang, why are you stunned here, telling you to ignore me for a long time, do you have something on your mind?"

Chen Yang looked up at the electronic watch on the wall, it was already six o'clock in the afternoon, and he had been wandering around the bar for a few hours.

Chen Yang took a breath, then squeezed out a smile and said, "Xiaomei, brother has a question for you?"

Xiaomei walked up to Chen Yang and stood still, she propped her hands on the bar, looking like she was listening.

"What do you think of your childhood sweetheart?"

When Xiaomei heard this, she rolled her eyes and said, "It's good, a little boy and a little girl grew up together, and it feels very romantic to imagine that picture." ”

But when they grew up, they couldn't be together. ”

Xiaomei said: "There are many such things, anyway, there are really not many happy endings." Often this most romantic existence will not have any perfect result. ”

Chen Yang nodded approvingly: "That's the same." ”

Xiaomei asked, "Brother Yang, why did you suddenly remember to ask this question today?"

"It's nothing, it's just a girl who remembered my childhood sweetheart. ”

Xiaomei laughed and joked: "When I think of my former little girlfriend, do you have a very special feeling in my heart?" ”

Chen Yang nodded with a wry smile and said, "It's just that I suddenly feel quite depressed." ”

"Normal, my former boyfriend, I broke up with him, but I was still uncomfortable for a long time when he got married. Even now, I dare to admit that I still have a little bit of him in my heart. In fact, people are emotional animals, and after being emotional, they will always leave some feelings in a corner of their hearts. These inexplicable feelings may exist for a long time, or they may appear at certain times. And you're talking about childhood sweethearts, there are more complicated feelings between two people, and the feelings buried in each other's hearts may not completely disappear in this life. ”

After a pause, Xiaomei continued: "This kind of emotion will suddenly appear and make us fall into confusion, in fact, as long as we see the reality clearly, let that feeling stay quietly in our hearts, and become the best little secret in our hearts." If you have to collide with the feelings in reality, you will only let yourself fall into it more and more, and become a puppet manipulated by past emotions. ”

Chen Yang's eyes lit up and said, "Amazing, Xiaomei, you are about to become an emotional expert." ”

"Hey, don't praise me. I read romance novels, but I also have some of my own feelings. Boss, I have to work, you are here alone to understand the feelings of life. ”

Chen Yang watched Xiaomei leave with a smile, and the latter's simple words opened a window to Chen Yang's soul.

Gao Yue is reality, and Su Mucheng is the past. What I care about is reality, but I can't erase the past.

I still have the love for Su Mucheng in my heart, and that's because I haven't experienced the life of the past ten years at the age of eighteen.

Those feelings for Su Mucheng should only be allowed to stay at the age of eighteen and remain in the bottom of the heart of twenty-eight, and should not appear in reality.

Eighteen-year-old emotions are not suitable for the current self, so the current self should really let yourself start to become the twenty-eight-year-old self.

Chen Yang sighed, he knew that he would not be able to completely figure out this extremely complex emotional problem in a moment and a half.

The mobile phone rang suddenly, Chen Yang took out the mobile phone from his pocket, looked at the screen, it was an unfamiliar number in the city, he swiped the screen to connect and put it to his ear.

"Hello, who?"

There was no sound on the other end of the phone for a long time, and Chen Yang was about to ask again, but the other party's voice rang at this moment.

"Yoko, I'm Weiwei. ”