Memory is a thing that we can choose to escape, but we can't choose to forget, memory binds us like a shackle, although we struggle, but it is only in vain.

Chen Yang knew that it would come eventually, but he didn't expect it to come so quickly.

Without waiting for Chen Yang to say anything, Lin Wei choked up on the phone with a crying voice and told Chen Yang an address to meet tomorrow, and then hung up the phone directly.

Chen Yang sat in front of the bar and was stunned for a long time, he picked up his mobile phone and wanted to call Lin Weiwei back, after pondering for a while, he finally chose to give up.

Lin Weiwei's sudden call made Chen Yang completely panicked, he needed to calm down and think about some problems, and he also needed time to stabilize his emotions.

All along, Chen Yang has been running away from a problem that he dare not face. That is, Lin Weiwei is still the first girlfriend he likes very much for his eighteen-year-old self. Her smile, her beautiful face, and the sweet and romantic past between herself and her are still deeply embedded in the memory of the eighteen-year-old.

I have been numbing myself with excuses in my heart, using the fact that I am now a person with a family and children as a reason. But I knew very well in my heart that it was difficult for me to forget Lin Weiwei.

For her eighteen-year-old self, she is her first love, and before she came to this world, she still likes her deeply. For her twenty-eight-year-old self, she is the woman she loves deeply, a woman who has kept her waiting for seven years.

At this moment, Chen Yang even forgot the questions he had already thought about countless times in his mind to ask Lin Weiwei, and the eighteen-year-old Chen Yang completely fell into the memories of his first love.

Chen Yang didn't want to let himself sink into his previous memories like this, he understood that the more he thought now, the more complicated the thoughts in his heart would be, and the more confused he would be about the direction of his future life.

Chen Yang glanced at Lin Weiwei's number on his mobile phone, then got up and explained to Xiaomei, and drove directly out of the door of the bar and drove home.

Chen Yang rushed back to his home at a gallop, he didn't know what was wrong with him, he just wanted to see Gao Yue as soon as possible.

After parking the car, Chen Yang trotted upstairs, he pushed open the door and walked in, Gao Yue stood up from the sofa with a surprised face, trotted over and said, "Yangzi, didn't you say that you won't come back for dinner at night?"

Chen Yang said with a smile: "Why, I don't want your husband to come back." ”

Gao Yue suddenly jumped on the spot happily, directly put her arms around Chen Yang's neck, and her whole body hung on Chen Yang's body, but fortunately, Chen Yang reacted quickly and hugged Gao Yue tightly.

Chen Yang stood up with some difficulty, and said with a wry smile: "Daughter-in-law, what are you doing so excited, is it good to come down, don't let Xiaofang and our daughter-in-law see it." ”

Gao Yue Nunu said: "Our dad came to pick up Xiaofang and Mengmeng, and I won't come back tonight." ”

Chen Yang rolled his eyes, hugged Gao Yue to the sofa and sat down, then let Gao Yue sit on his lap, looked at Gao Yue's cheeks that were a little flushed with excitement and said, "Tell me, what's wrong with making you so happy." ”

Gao Yue let go of the hands that were holding Chen Yang's neck, picked up a leaflet from the side and said, "Husband, look, I have already chosen a house." ”

Chen Yang smiled and sighed: "I guess this is the only thing that can make you so excited." ”

Gao Yue shook her head proudly, then lay on Chen Yang's chest, pointed to the leaflet in her hand, and introduced the house she had chosen to Chen Yang, talking about the various benefits of this house. Chen Yang just listened quietly, looking at Gao Yue's happy appearance, he had a strong love in his heart.

"Husband, how do you feel?"

"Good, very good, my daughter-in-law's vision is definitely the best. ”

Gao Yue smiled sweetly, hugged Chen Yang's neck and said, "Then you will go to see the house with me tomorrow." ”

"Okay, I'll go see it tomorrow. ”

Gao Yue raised her arms excitedly, shouting long live like a little girl, Chen Yang couldn't laugh or cry when she saw it, but she liked Gao Yue very much in front of her, and she kissed Gao Yue on her soft lips.

The sky is full of stars, the moon is hazy, and the night is so peaceful.

Gao Yue stayed in Chen Yang's arms and said softly: "Husband, I'm too excited to sleep, what should I do?"

Chen Yang laughed and teased: "What do you say, or we'll do it again." ”

Gao Yue twisted Chen Yang's waist lightly and said, "Don't, I've been tossed enough by you, I want to sleep." After finishing speaking, Gao Yue broke away from Chen Yang's embrace and turned over directly to the side.

Chen Yang leaned over and teased Gao Yue for a while, but it obviously didn't help, and the latter was already breathing heavily with a happy smile on his face.

Chen Yang gently covered Gao Yue with a quilt, kissed her cheek, and leaned on the bed to look at the night outside the window, thinking about the complicated things in her heart.

Now Chen Yang is a complex and tangled body, with the memory of twenty-eight years old, although it is not the actual schizophrenia, but it is indeed another way of thinking.

He has the mind of an eighteen-year-old, but he has the memory of a twenty-eight-year-old, and it is obviously an extremely difficult process for him to use the mind of an eighteen-year-old to understand the memory of a twenty-eight-year-old, and then to deal with all the problems that a twenty-eight-year-old has to face in front of him.

For Mu Cheng, she is her childhood sweetheart who grew up together, her eighteen-year-old self, she is regarded as her own sister, and the twenty-eight-year-old self is the same, but what happened today made me understand that there is indeed a wisp of love for Mu Cheng buried in my heart. In the years of getting along day and night, this kind of love has long become a habit, but I have never noticed it. It wasn't until I felt that Mu Cheng seemed to be really leaving him that this kind of love instantly rushed out of my heart, and I completely woke up, so that I understood the existence of that special feeling for Mu Cheng.

Now I have to admit that whether I am eighteen or twenty-eight years old, I do have love for Mu Cheng subconsciously, which is condensed by getting along for a long time. It is hard to forget, planted in the heart, but it has not taken root.

For his eighteen-year-old self, Lin Weiwei is his first girlfriend and has a deep love for her, maybe this is far from love, but Chen Yang knows his heart, and he is happy and sweet in his first love. When Lin Weiwei called today, her state at that time had completely changed to eighteen years old, and her crying voice would make her feel distressed, worried, and helpless and uneasy. At that moment, the eighteen-year-old thought completely suppressed the memory of the twenty-eight-year-old.

In the memory of the twenty-eight-year-old, although Lin Weiwei's memory is very vague and very tangled. But Chen Yang can feel that the twenty-eight-year-old himself is deeply in love with Lin Weiwei. However, he is also a twenty-eight-year-old himself, but he has a fear and fear mentality towards Lin Weiwei in his memory, Chen Yang can't figure out what is going on with his twenty-eight-year-old self, and after watching the video in the psychotherapy center, Chen Yang deduces that the so-called perfectionism may have caused the twenty-eight-year-old to have this mentality.

Chen Yang closed his eyes and turned his head to look at Gao Yue's sleeping face, there was a faint smile on his perfect face, and the corners of Chen Yang's mouth couldn't help but smile.

Chen Yang gently hugged Gao Yue into his arms, kissed the corner of her mouth, and felt the soft body in his arms, he recalled all the days he had experienced with Gao Yue since he came to this world.

Eighteen-year-old self came to this world inexplicably, and fell in love with Takatsu in a very short period of time under the shackles of thoughts and memories at the age of twenty-eight. Sometimes when I think back, I feel that experience was so magical, but now I am very grateful to the age of 28 for allowing me to have that experience.

The fact in front of me is that I have completely fallen in love with Gao Yue, and I can't do without her completely, and sometimes I think about how I should live if there is no Gao Yue one day, there is no answer, because I don't even have the courage to think about it.

Now I love this woman so much, I don't have any other thoughts, I just want to live a plain and happy life with the woman I love deeply in my arms.

She has experienced too much torture and destruction in life, and her twenty-eight-year-old self has given her too much pain and suffering.

For his twenty-eight-year-old self, he has a commitment to Gao Yue's mother, and he wants to keep the promise he made, but he has no feelings between men and women for Gao Yue.

Later, a series of things happened, which made the twenty-eight-year-old self and Gao Yue husband and wife. This is undoubtedly a huge soul impact for him, who regards Gao Yue as his sister. He loves Lin Weiwei deeply, but because of commitment and responsibility, he has to endure pain and live with Gao Yue.

He has a strong sense of guilt in his heart, but this guilt is a little inexplicable, while he is doing things that hurt Gao Yue, the guilt in his heart is also increasing day by day, as if everything is not what he wants to do.

At this moment, Chen Yang seemed to suddenly understand why the twenty-eight-year-old self gave up on himself and chose to fall.

That's because he's numbing himself in this way.

So, why did the twenty-eight-year-old do this?

Although I have the memory and body of a twenty-eight-year-old now, I am the mind of an eighteen-year-old. It is impossible for me to deal with the problems in front of me according to the mind of the twenty-eight-year-old, and I have to face the future life according to my own thoughts.

If he was a twenty-eight-year-old self and Lin Weiwei returned, would he really divorce Gao Yue without hesitation, and then enter a new life with Lin Weiwei? Chen Yang didn't know how his twenty-eight-year-old self would choose, but he would definitely not choose to do so.

Chen Yang dissipated the thoughts in his heart, he hugged Gao Yue tighter, Gao Yue in his sleep stretched out his hand and hugged Chen Yang's neck, and said in a dream: "Husband, look, this house is really beautiful." ”

Chen Yang smiled, because Gao Yue's lovely dream words made the haze in his heart disappear suddenly.

My heart is this family, it's Gao Yue, it's my daughter, why do I have to get along with those mixed thoughts of myself, in fact, I just need to stick to my heart.

Thinking of this, Chen Yang seemed to have figured everything out, he hugged Gao Yue's body, felt the temperature on Gao Yue's body, closed his eyes and fell asleep.

Chen Yang didn't know, but he understood that tomorrow's meeting with Lin Weiwei was not just a simple reunion after a long absence, there were too many unexpected events that could happen, but he didn't have any way to deal with it, he could only improvise.

No one knows what will happen in the future, can Chen Yang, who is a collection of contradictions, complexities and entanglement of various emotions, really stick to his heart?

Those unknown factors are threatening this hard-won home all the time, how should eighteen-year-old Chen Yang and twenty-eight-year-old Gao Yue face the unknown?

Chen Yang never thought that the fate of this family would be so troubled in the future, the road ahead was full of thorns, and every time he advanced, he and this family would become scarred.