Chapter 193: Why?

The sky outside the window has completely darkened, and the bedside lamp emits a soft light, it is a quiet winter night, but at this moment, Chen Yang's heart is like turning over the river and the sea.

This is a dream of different searches, until now, the blood-red eyes of the twenty-eight-year-old himself are still floating in front of him, even though Chen Yang has been awake for a long time, but the panic in his heart has not decreased in the slightest, but the sense of uneasiness is becoming more and more intense.

Chen Yang raised his hand to wipe the sleepiness on his face, he got out of bed and came to the wardrobe, the nightmare just now made him sweat profusely, he took out a set of clean underwear to change, and then went to bed again and lay down, looking at the white wall in front of him in a daze.

Since he came to this world, Chen Yang has too many questions in his heart, but there is only one question that makes him think about the most, that is, where did he go at the age of twenty-eight?

Chen Yang would not have thought that today, at this moment, his dream gave his final answer. Although this answer is a bit absurd, I choose to believe that everything in my dream is real. Because the current self is itself an absurd existence. Isn't it the most nonsense for the real world to think that you have traveled through time?

If everything is really as he thinks, then the twenty-eight-year-old self has not disappeared at all, he still exists, it exists in his body. To be precise, it should be twenty-eight years old in his own body. Because for this body, his eighteen-year-old Chen Yang is an outsider.

After coming to this world, Chen Yang always had a feeling that he was like a puppet, as if he was always being manipulated, and he felt that his thoughts at the age of twenty-eight were influencing him.

And the appearance of today's twenty-eight-year-old has proved that Chen Yang's guess is correct, which can also explain that all the feelings of being manipulated in the past are real.

Thinking of this, Chen Yang already smiled bitterly, he didn't expect that the answer he was looking for was actually in his body.

Now Chen Yang already knows the answer, but the uneasiness in his heart is even stronger, and he has even reached the point of fear.

Why are you upset?

Because he can feel that the twenty-eight-year-old spiritual world is eroding him, his mind is assimilating himself, and he has no choice but to be at his mercy and make himself a real puppet.

Chen Yang could feel even more that the twenty-eight-year-old seemed to be asleep, he was waking up little by little, although he didn't know when he would wake up completely, but now for his own erosion and assimilation, it was already an important signal, indicating that he would eventually wake up.

Chen Yang's heart began to beat violently, his face became extremely ugly, every breath was extremely difficult, and the whole person was trembling slightly.

What does waking up at the age of twenty-eight portend? If he does, what will happen to him?

Since coming to this world for so long, I have always thought that I have come through time, which is also a fact that I have identified. However, after all these things, can you still identify this so-called fact?

If I didn't come through time, then how did I end up in my twenty-eight-year-old body?

Chen Yang is most puzzled, why did his twenty-eight-year-old self appear in his dream in that form, and what does this portend?

In my own mind, the twenty-eight-year-old self was imprisoned in that iron cage, but why was he imprisoned?

Perhaps, those blood-red eyes have said it all, and the mental state of the twenty-eight-year-old himself is abnormal. I could feel that those eyes were full of hatred, anger, resentment, sadness, helplessness, all the negative emotions.

Lin Weiwei's so-called perfectionism, in his opinion, is an extremely terrifying mental illness, and Chen Yang also suffers from this mental illness. Lin Weiwei once said that even if she has undergone seven years of treatment, she is not completely cured now. So, how can the twenty-eight-year-old self be cured without treatment?

Combined with everything he has experienced, as well as all the facts now, the conclusion is that Chen Yang in the iron cage is Chen Yang who suffers from mental illness.

Are you stupid? Of course not.

If you put aside the unrealistic word of crossing and think of mental illness, you also think of schizophrenia and multiple personalities, which may be the only answer that can explain your current situation.

Thinking of this, Chen Yang felt like falling into an ice cave, and reality seemed to knock him back to his prototype all of a sudden.

Could this really be the case?

Chen Yang dispelled the idea in his heart in a little panic, this idea was so terrible that it could instantly crush him, and he didn't dare to continue thinking about it. If he could, he would rather believe that he had come through time.

However, at this moment, Chen Yang's thoughts were completely uncontrollable, and he couldn't help but continue to think.

If it's what you think it is, then what are you?

Is he just a personality split from the age of twenty-eight?

Now that he is twenty-eight years old, he has begun to slowly awaken, what will happen to him if he wakes up completely?

Will it disappear on its own?

Thinking of disappearing, Chen Yang's face had a frightened expression, his whole body began to tremble violently, he quickly got out of bed, ran into the bathroom, and poured cold water on his head, he wanted to use water to extinguish the terrifying thoughts in his heart.

Chen Yang didn't dare to think about it anymore, it was an answer that made him extremely afraid, something he couldn't bear, and he didn't want to believe it.

Chen Yang raised his head and looked at himself in the mirror, endless fear filled his face, making his face look a little hideous, but anger also slowly emerged from his face inadvertently.

If everything is really as you imagined, will you be willing to disappear like this?

"I'm not reconciled, it's impossible. Chen Yang roared at himself in the mirror.

I came into this world by myself, went through a lot of hardships, and cleaned up the mess for my twenty-eight-year-old self. However, when he suffered so much in exchange for today's stable life, his twenty-eight-year-old self was coming back.

Why?

At this moment, Chen Yang thought of Gao Yue and his daughter, everything that his twenty-eight-year-old had done to their mother and daughter came to mind, and the anger in his heart instantly burned.

Chen Yang opened his eyes and looked directly at himself in the mirror, he had already made up his mind that no matter whether he was from time in time or not, he would never allow such a thing to happen.

Chen Yang's thoughts slowly calmed down, he dried his hair with a towel, and returned to the bedroom again, he hadn't smoked for a long time, he took out a pack of cigarettes, opened them and lit one, and in the smoke, he fell into deep thoughts.

All you have to do now is to unlock your secrets so that you can deal with what will happen in the future. Even if everything is as he thinks, he will find a way not to wake him up.

Chen Yang got up and came to the window, he opened the window, and let the cold wind blow on his body, the cold to the bone slowed down his thoughts, and his thoughts slowly became stiff like his body.

After a long time, Chen Yang's eyes had become firm, and a name came out of Chen Yang's mouth: "Su Jing." ”