Chapter 179: There are no ifs in life
Chen Yang parked the car not far from the kindergarten, looked at the time displayed on his mobile phone, and there were still more than ten minutes before school ended.
He thought for a moment, then called Takatsuki.
Chen Yang was ready to tell the truth, he always believed that even if it was a white lie, it was a deception.
Xiaoshuai is his own son, this is a fact that cannot be changed. In the days to come, this kind of thing will definitely happen often, and it is impossible for him to deceive Gao Yue again and again.
The phone was connected, and Gao Yue's voice came: "Yoko, I was about to call you, and my mother asked you to come back for dinner." ”
Chen Yang said: "Daughter-in-law, you can eat, Weiwei called and said that she was going to work overtime at noon, and asked me to come to the kindergarten to pick up Xiaoshuai." ”
"Alright then, be careful when you drive on the road. ”
"Got it, daughter-in-law. ”
Hanging up the phone, Chen Yang lay on the steering wheel and looked at the door of the kindergarten.
Gao Yue's empathy made Chen Yang very pleased, which saved him too much unnecessary trouble. This also made Chen Yang always warn himself in his heart that he couldn't do anything to be sorry for Gao Yue.
During this period of time, Chen Yang has always had a feeling that his twenty-eight-year-old self is assimilating himself, or that his current self is becoming a real twenty-eight-year-old.
Although he was a little hesitant in his heart, he knew that this was bound to happen. Because my current self is my twenty-eight-year-old self. Except for the fact that they consider themselves to be eighteen-year-olds, everyone thinks of themselves as their twenty-eight-year-old selves. Life, family, everything belongs to the twenty-eight-year-old self, and all you have to do is to completely turn yourself into a twenty-eight-year-old.
After a while, the door of the kindergarten opened, and under the leadership of the teacher, the children walked out, and Chen Yang hurriedly got out of the car and walked forward.
For Chen Yang's arrival, Xiaoshuai was extremely excited, and shouted loudly that his father threw himself into Chen Yang's arms. The little guy introduced his father to the children passing by from time to time, and Chen Yang responded with a smile one by one.
Whether it is Meng Meng or Xiao Shuai, Chen Yang accepts it very naturally, which may be because of the blood connection.
"Dad, why are you here to pick me up today?"
Chen Yang helped his son fasten his seat belt, touched Xiaoshuai's head and said, "Your mother has to work overtime at noon, so let your father pick you up." What, don't you like Daddy coming to pick you up?"
"Yes, I wish my dad could pick me up every day. Xiao Shuai said with a serious face.
Chen Yang smiled, but his heart was slightly sour: "Dad will often come to pick you up when he has time in the future, what do you want to eat at noon, Dad will take you there." ”
"Dad, I want to eat hot pot. ”
"Okay, Dad will take you to eat hot pot. ”
After eating, Chen Yang and Xiaoshuai returned to the house rented by Lin Weiwei. Xiao Shuai took out the picture he had drawn for his father to see, and when he heard his father's appreciation, the little guy jumped and jumped happily.
Xu was tired of playing, and Xiaoshuai fell asleep on his father's lap. Chen Yang carefully carried the child back to the bedroom, and after covering the quilt, he sat on the edge of the bed and quietly looked at the child's immature little face in a daze.
The child's words were still echoing in his mind over and over again, and every sentence would make Chen Yang feel distressed.
"Dad, I used to see my mother only once a month when I was abroad, and I hadn't seen my father at that time. Now I can see my mom and my dad every day, and I feel really happy that I am now. ”
Happiness, the so-called happiness of children, is to be with their parents, it's as simple as that. However, the reality is so cruel that even if a child has such a simple wish, he can't help him achieve it 100%.
The child is still so young, but he has already suffered so many painful things, and at the age when he needs love the most, none of his parents are by his side.
Chen Yang felt very uncomfortable in his heart, he wiped away the tears that overflowed his eyes, kissed the child's forehead, and muttered: "In the future, Dad will make up for you with all his love, I'm sorry, son." ”
Chen Yang knows that all these mistakes should be caused by his twenty-eight-year-old self, but his current self should take all the responsibility, because his current self is his twenty-eight-year-old self.
Easing the emotions in his heart, Chen Yang stood up and came to the desk, and the casual glance just now made him see something very familiar.
It was a yellow hairpin, although it was very old, but it was the first gift he gave to Lin Weiwei.
Chen Yang took the hairpin in his hand, and there were too many past events in his mind for a while, and when he came back to his senses, he found that Lin Weiwei was standing in front of the bedroom door at some point.
Chen Yang was a little surprised: "Weiwei, when are you coming back?"
Lin Weiwei has been standing in front of the bedroom door for a long time, just looking at the father and son so quietly, which also makes her feel too much happiness in her heart, although she knows that she can't have this kind of happiness now, but she still hopes that this moment can pass a little slower.
Lin smiled faintly, stepped forward to look at the sleeping Xiaoshuai, and then said softly, "Yangzi, let's go out and talk." ”
Chen Yang nodded, then put down the hairpin, and walked out of the bedroom first, Lin glanced at the hairpin slightly, with a faint smile on the corner of his mouth, and followed out.
"Why did you come back so early?" Chen Yang asked, sitting on the sofa.
"I'm not busy with work in the afternoon, I can go later, so come back to see Xiao Shuai and... You. ”
Chen Yang let out a "uh", and the two fell into silence.
Lin Weiwei has too many questions in her heart, or whether she has returned to China this time until now, Chen Yang has given her the feeling that it is a huge mystery.
"Yoko, do you hate me?" Lin broke the silence slightly, asking the question she had always wanted to ask.
Yu Lin thought slightly, Chen Yang, who knew the truth, would definitely hate himself very much, but what surprised her was that so far, Chen Yang seemed to be very good to himself and Xiaoshuai.
Maybe it was because of Xiaoshuai's appearance that Chen Yang abandoned the hatred in his heart, but he wanted him to give him an answer that could reassure him.
Chen Yang shook his head with some emotion, looked at Lin Weiwei's beautiful face and said, "Maybe I hated it once, but now that you and Xiaoshuai can come back safely, everything before is not important." ”
Lin smiled bitterly: "Yangzi, I really, really hate myself, if it weren't for everything I did, maybe we could live happily together as a family now, I... ”
Lin Weiwei's words were not continued, and the tears of remorse had already said everything.
However, there are no ifs in life, and there are no ifs in reality.
Chen Yang stood up and came to the window, looking at the bleak winter scenery outside, his heart was full of bitterness, but he couldn't tell Lin Weiwei.
After a long time, Chen Yang thought of Lin Weiwei's identity as a doctor of psychology, and he suddenly wanted to know what was going on.
Just as Chen Yang wanted to turn around and ask a question, a woman's figure appeared in Chen Yang's field of vision, Chen Yang's heart instantly rose to her throat, and she finally appeared.