Chapter 180: Memory Blocking
We always don't want to face the reality in front of us, but the reality is that we have to face these realities that we don't want to face.
What is the reality for Chen Yang?
Reality, that is, he has accepted reality.
Eighteen-year-old Chen Yang has experienced all kinds of hardships and dangers, endured many hardships and tribulations, and endured too much pain and suffering to allow this family to survive.
Chen Yang has taken on responsibilities that should not belong to him at his age, at least for now, he feels that he has done well.
This family is now all Chen Yang has, and for the sake of this family, he is willing to give up those doubts in his heart. In other words, eighteen-year-old Chen Yang has experienced the process of growing up, and he has let go of those unknowns in his heart, which can also be said to be a self-comforting relief.
Chen Yang always thinks that even if he knows how he became a twenty-eight-year-old, what can he do? He still has to face the reality in front of him, which is a fact and cannot be changed. What is the difference between knowing and not knowing?
However, Chen Yang didn't expect that the reality was a great joke with him again. When he wanted to give up completely, this woman suddenly appeared in front of him.
Whether it was a coincidence or deliberate, Chen Yang didn't know. What he knew was that, according to his own analysis, this woman should be able to completely solve all the doubts in his heart.
Even if such a long time has passed, the memory is still so clear, and the face of the woman seen in the surveillance is a little blurry, but at this moment, Chen Yang recognized her at a glance.
Chen Yang was 100% sure that standing downstairs next to the taxi, the ordinary-looking woman in a white down jacket was the mysterious woman who sent her a memory notebook.
Although his clothes had changed, that face had been deeply engraved in Chen Yang's mind, and he could already be sure of it just the moment of eye contact.
Chen Yang originally thought that he might never see this mysterious woman again in his life, but at this moment, he met so easily.
Chen Yang's heart was beating violently, and he was almost sure that this woman could solve all the mysteries on his body.
Regarding the unsolved mysteries on his body, Chen Yang has always believed that time will give him the answer, and all he has to do is wait.
This time, time did give him the answer.
The answer is right in front of him, how could Chen Yang miss it.
Under Lin Wei's stunned gaze, Chen Yang dropped a sentence: "I'll go downstairs, you look at the child." Without waiting for Lin Weiwei to answer, Chen Yang rushed out of the door.
Lin Weiwei reacted after a long time, and ran to the window for the first time, and saw that Chen Yang had already run to a woman's side. She couldn't see Chen Yang's face, but she could see his body rising and falling violently.
Lin looked slightly puzzled, she looked at this woman carefully, but she didn't have any impression of this woman.
This woman's appearance was very ordinary, but Lin Weiwei saw something different from her eyes that seemed to be able to speak, however, she couldn't understand the meaning for a while.
Su Jing didn't expect to meet Chen Yang here, for Chen Yang who suddenly appeared in front of her, she didn't have any panicked look, she just smiled faintly at the panting Chen Yang, stood in place and was silent, waiting for Chen Yang to speak.
Chen Yang tried his best to calm his breath, but his body's reaction was extremely intense, he could feel that his heart was beating to the limit, and he needed to find a breakthrough to vent his excitement.
Chen Yang looked directly at the woman he had been looking for and waiting for for a long time, and he asked in a deep voice, "Who are you?" His voice trembled a little, and although he tried to restrain himself, there was still too much excitement contained in it.
Su Jing was still smiling, and she said indifferently: "My name is Su Jing, and I gave you a notebook." What more would you like to ask?"
Chen Yang was stunned, he didn't expect this woman to admit it so readily.
There was a period of silence.
Chen Yang suddenly found that he didn't know what to say, but he was muttering: "Su Jing, Su Jing... ”
"Do you really want to know who I am?" Su Jing asked, with a hint of doubt on her face, and her eyes looked directly at Chen Yang.
A feeling crept up in his body, and Chen Yang suddenly found that he didn't seem to want to know anything from this woman's mouth, and even expected this woman to disappear from his eyes quickly. This feeling became stronger and stronger, making Chen Yang's thoughts instantly fall into confusion.
Why, the answer is right in front of you, why don't you want to know anymore?
Where does this feeling come from, is it the memory of being twenty-eight years old?
So why doesn't it want to let itself know the truth?
I know very well in my heart that even if I fully accept the life in front of me, but for those mysteries on my body, as long as there is one percent hope, I still want to solve it, and I can't live so unclearly.
Why does the memory of the twenty-eight-year-old stop itself, doesn't it want to solve these mysteries on its own?
The twenty-eight-year-old self disappeared, and the eighteen-year-old self arrived, maybe through this woman, you can know all the truth, but at this moment, it was ruthlessly destroyed by the memory of the twenty-eight-year-old.
Chen Yang didn't know what Su Jing said again, he could only see Su Jing's mouth moving, until the taxi Su Jing was riding disappeared from view, he couldn't come back to his senses, and his consciousness was completely silent in his thoughts.
After a long time, it wasn't until Lin Weiwei appeared that Chen Yang struggled out of his mixed thoughts.
"Yangzi, what's wrong with you, who was that woman just now?" Lin asked in a low voice, he found that Chen Yang's face was extremely bad at the moment.
Chen Yang replied a little blankly: "Her name is Su Jing, and I don't know who she is." After finishing speaking, Chen Yang turned around and walked upstairs in despair.
Lin Weiwei followed behind Chen Yang without knowing why, and her intuition told her that this woman's identity was definitely not simple.
Chen Yang sat on the sofa in a daze, while Lin Weiwei glanced at him a few times, and then went to the kitchen.
Chen Yang had a huge sense of loss in his heart, he originally thought that he would be able to solve all the mysteries just now, but it was a complete failure. In this chance encounter, he only knew the woman's name, and he didn't even open his mouth to ask for the woman's contact information.
What Chen Yang couldn't understand the most was what happened to the memory of the twenty-eight-year-old and why it prevented him from solving all the mysteries.
"Yoko, I have to go back to the treatment center, Xiaoshuai has no classes in the afternoon, you can take the child out for a walk. Lin Weiwei changed her clothes, she put on her shoes, stood at the door and looked at Chen Yang who was sitting on the sofa in a daze and said.
Chen Yang just nodded and did not respond.
Lin sighed slightly, opened the door and walked out.
She didn't know who that woman was, but she could make Chen Yang's mood fluctuate so much, thinking that the relationship between this woman and Chen Yang was not ordinary.
Lin Weiwei's heart was filled with a trace of bitterness, he and Chen Yang hadn't seen each other for seven years, and he had become unfamiliar with everything around him, and he didn't know as well as before.
Just thinking of this, the pain in Lin Weiwei's heart was a little more, and it seemed that at this moment, she suddenly understood that she and Chen Yang had become very strangers now.
However, Lin Weiwei is also fortunate in his heart, at least he still has Xiaoshuai, he still has a chance, and he still has time.
Seven years is too long.
Time is a terrible thing, it is a monster that can dilute everything, it can make people grow old inadvertently, it can make all kinds of emotions fade, and it can even erase the memories that people want to forget.
We can't go back to the past, all we can do is cherish the present, cherish time, and cherish every minute and every second in front of us.
I said I'd finish it, and I won't write anything else until I'm done. I don't want to say any reason for breaking for so long, because every family has a scripture that is difficult to read. I'm glad I've come out of the quagmire now. Let's get started, this time straight to the end.