Pray that the Buddha will let you grow in front of the window where I look into the distance every day, quietly gazing at your daily comings and goings, daily joys, sorrows, and sorrows, until you die of old age. Flowers bloom solemnly in the sun, and the expectations of half of my past life, this life, and future life are all written in the petals and leaves. Do you know how long and long I miss the fluttering leaves: do you know how long and how long the petals of the falling flowers are my longing? She once copied Xi Murong's poems and pretended to be a literary watch.

I knew that there was no hope for that hope, but I still waited day and night. I hope that a miracle will happen, but in fact, there is such a miracle in this world. It's all self-deception, indulging in their own dreams, and not wanting to wake up.

It was dark and drizzling, it was raining and drizzling outside, it had been raining for four consecutive days, and it had been almost half a month since Daddy Lin's operation, and he had recovered well and could go down on one foot. But the doctor said that it is better to wait for a while before going to the ground, so that it is better for the body.

During this time, she went back to the office once, she took all the materials, and now she is doing accounts in a rented small house during the day, and chatting with Dad Lin in the hospital at night and reading books.

Because she didn't sleep well, Xiaoxiao lost a lot of weight during this time.

If it weren't for Zhang Yunjun's call, she would have almost forgotten about this person, and in the past half a month, she didn't take the initiative to contact him, and she almost forgot about WeChat to the point that she didn't have time.

With a busy and fulfilling life, she feels like she can forget everything. Except for work and work.

She called the customers one by one and explained the situation and the reason why the door was not open during this time. There is also Du Sanmei's departure to explain, this matter, the customer has the right to know, whether to continue to cooperate depends on the customer, Xiaoxiao doesn't want to deceive people, she can get the customer's understanding, she doesn't think about it so much, she just wants to be herself.

During this time, three relatively large companies terminated the contract, Xiaoxiao still smiled and returned the money that should be refunded to others, this cannot be blamed on others, everyone has the right to choose.

Xiaoxiao also took the initiative to introduce the information of her other firms to them, which was the market research she and Du Sanmei had done before.

I work selflessly every day, and I don't have time to think about other things.

If she hadn't received that message ten minutes ago, she thought she would have forgotten about them. The content is very simple, but for Xiaoxiao, it is like Shura in hell, cruel.

Zhang Yunjun: The doctor has made an appointment, and it will be 3 p.m. on Xingliu at Bo'ai Hospital.

Xiaoxiao's heart was cold, if he hadn't mentioned it, she would have forgotten that there was another one in her stomach, her hand gently stroked her stomach, and tears rained down.

She sat on the floor with her feet crossed, her papers falling all over the ground, and her back against the edge of the bed. His face was pale, he bit his lip tightly, but he didn't make a sound, but the tears fell like soybeans. Both shoulders twitched, shaking and shaking.

There was no trace of warmth in her heart, and her hands and feet were cold.

The reality is always very cruel, when you peel off the surface layer by layer like some bloody facts in front of you, you suddenly find that you are so stupid, you dig out the people you love, but you love others, and in the end you don't even let go of your own children.

When all the oaths finally turn into a word of sorry, nothing is meaningful.

She thought she was no longer in tears, but she was wrong, she still had feelings.

I don't know how long it took, Xiaoxiao picked up the mobile phone on the ground, pressed the phone number and replied with a message: Okay, tomorrow at two o'clock in the afternoon, let's go to the Civil Affairs Bureau.

These words used up all her strength, and with every word she wrote, her heart twitched, and finally she didn't even have the strength to hold the phone, and the phone fell to the ground.

She hugged her feet tightly, and her tears were like pearls of broken threads, wetting her clothes.

This should be their last contact. Never to be contacted again. It should be a good thing, she doesn't have to see them anymore, why is she so sad.

I haven't loved and don't know deeply, but if I have loved, I know that I hate. She had never known these two men in so much hope.

If only then she wouldn't have been in that pain. From the time they met, that scene was reminiscent of that in her mind, and the more she thought about it, the deeper her pain became.

But there are not so many ifs in the world.... If there were, there wouldn't be so many infatuated men and women who were hurt by love.

The roots of love have been planted, so that there is time to remove them.

When Mother Lin came back, Xiaoxiao was washing vegetables in the kitchen, the meal had been cooked, and she could smell the fragrance of the soup, which was all over the house.

Xiaoxiao called Mom, and lowered her head to wash the vegetables, the kitchen was small, and the two of them went in a little narrow.

Mother Lin glanced at her daughter and always felt that she was a little different today. But I can't tell what is different.

Mother Lin stir-fried three dishes on the fire, and quickly ordered them. Every day, Lin's mother cooks, and Xiaoxiao can only buy vegetables, make soup, wash vegetables, and do hygiene.

Xiaoxiao was eating, and only raised her head halfway, "Mom, tomorrow is Friday, I want to go to City A." ”

Mother Lin looked at the daughter opposite, "Well, don't worry, I am here, and your sister-in-law will come out tomorrow night." She took two more chopsticks to Xiaoxiao, "Have you lost weight during this time, your face is a little thin." ”

"I know, you eat more, too. Xiaoxiao also sandwiched two quick dishes for her. The two of them ate quietly.

"Is there something you haven't told your mother? Mother Lin put down the bowl and looked at the daughter.

"Mom, what can I do, you don't know. Xiaoxiao smiled. The smile was a little unnatural.

"What's wrong with you and Zhang? I didn't see him when such a big thing happened. Mother Lin looked at Xiaoxiao.

Xiaoxiao's hand paused and continued to eat, but her face was a little pale, and she pretended to say nothing. "Mom, we're divided. ”

The voice was not loud, but Mother Lin could hear it clearly.

It's like thunder on a sunny day, and the chopsticks in my hands are a little unstable. It's as if time had stopped for a second.

Xiaoxiao still acted like this, as if it wasn't her who spoke just now.

Quietly, only the sound of Xiaoxiao eating. Mother Lin sighed half-loudly, "Let's divide it, let's find it." ”

Mother Lin didn't ask the reason, she knew her daughter's personality, and she was a dead eye, this should not be her daughter's problem, but the problem of the surname Zhang.

Looking at her daughter who was casual on the other side, she was really heartbroken, she should have forced such a mask, but she was afraid that they would be worried, and she didn't dare to say it if she had grievances in her heart.

She felt so heartbroken for such a daughter. How she wished that her daughter could come into her arms and cry for a while, so that it would break her.

She should be sad, and the more sad she is, the calmer she will be in front of her. I wanted to deceive them with my appearance, but she didn't want to think about it, she was born by her, and she could guess what she was thinking in her heart.

She had wanted to ask for a long time, she had a bad idea, more than ten days had passed, and she hadn't heard Xiaoxiao talk about him, and he hadn't even heard Xiaoxiao take a call or message.

Such an excellent man does not belong to her daughter in the end.

Knowing this, she didn't know to force her Lin Qin, if she hadn't pressed her too hard, they wouldn't have been together.

Xiaoxiao put down the chopsticks in her hand, her eyes were full of tears, "Mom." ”

Just one word, shouted out all her grievances during this time, she thought that the people in the family would not understand her. She never dared to mention it in front of them. It's just that I'm afraid of breaking their hearts.

"What are you crying about, fool. No matter what you do, mom will support you. Come back when you're tired, raise you, and your mother can afford it. Saying this, Mother Lin's eyes were still a little red.

For many years, she hasn't seen her daughter shed tears, it should have been more than 20 years, they are all people who feel pain in the palm of their hands. And now it is hurting like this.

It's fake that she doesn't feel distressed, at this moment she hates Zhang Yunjun a little, her daughter, who has never been wronged, has been wronged like this in front of her.

If her dad knows, she doesn't know what it will be like to be sad.

"Thank you. Xiaoxiao wiped her tears with her hand.

Mother Lin handed over two tissues. patted her on the shoulder, "Hurry up and dry it, and it won't be good for your dad to see it later." ”

Xiaoxiao nodded. Sobbing and brushing tears, but the tears can't be brushed no matter how they are. It rains down like raindrops.

Xiaoxiao came to the hospital as she could, and she put on a light dress, and from the perspective of outsiders, she didn't see her pale face.

She took a deep breath, pushed open the door of the ward, and greeted Uncle Song in the same ward with a smile. I didn't tell I was crying just now.

As usual, he smiled and poured soup for Dad Lin, told jokes, and sometimes read the newspaper.

Even Uncle Song was very envious that Lin Dong had such a filial daughter, and there were two unfilial sons like him, who did not show up once for ten days and half a month.

A pair of comparisons, both sons have become scum. always joked to Lin Dong and said, "Lao Lin, does your daughter have a boyfriend? ”

"Uncle Lin, I'm not married, and I'll be with my father for the rest of my life. Xiaoxiao replied with a smile on behalf of Lin's father.

Every time, Dad Lin always said with a smile, "Xiaoxiao is the most well-behaved in my family, have you heard it, Lao Song, accompany me for a lifetime." Father Lin said to Song Yuanci in a sudden.

It seems that Xiaoxiao is not married, what a happy thing for him.

"Dad, tomorrow, I have something to do, I want to go back to A, I won't come over to accompany you at night, you have to be obedient. I'll go back for two days. ”

"Well, I know, I still have to work to take care of my old man, and I've worked hard for you. When Dad is discharged from the hospital, he will make something delicious for you to eat. ”

"Good. Xiaoxiao said with a smile.

Xiaoxiao gave a bowl of soup to Song Yuanci, and during this time, she always made a little more soup and gave Song Yuanci's portion.

Looking at the two old men and drinking the soup she made, she felt a sense of accomplishment.

Xiaoxiao thinks she is still quite likable to the elderly. Although it doesn't get along well with other people.