I am Qi Qian'er, the daughter of the Qi family. My mom died when I was very young, and my dad brought me up as a dad and mom, and I heard my dad say that our family was not rich when I was a child, and it was worse than the average family. Later, the reason why my dad worked hard was because one day we went to the street to play together, and I wanted to buy a princess dress, but because the dress was too expensive, my dad didn't buy it, and I went home and cried all night, and my dad was distressed, so he started to make some money to buy me a dress.

But what Dad didn't know was that the little girl liked skirts and liked Daddy. And when other friends are accompanied by my father, I need my father even more, but at this time, my father is not at home, he is always socializing outside, and he comes back drunk every day.

And the princess dress in my room has also increased again and again with the number of times these drunken people come back. But Dad didn't know that a home without a father was strange and cold, even if I wore a princess dress, no one would come to kiss me and hug me, and praise me for being beautiful!

So I slowly started to hate these dresses, and not only did I not wear them, but I cut them up one by one and threw them into my father's room. But Dad didn't find out, because when he came back, he was already drunk, and before he woke up the next day, the aunt had already cleaned up the things.

I hated this kind of dad, so I refused to wear princess dresses, I started wearing pants, I cut my hair short, I wore alternative, I just hoped that my dad would care more about me, but every time my dad saw me change my style, he would always pat my head for a while and tell me that I looked good, as long as it was me, I looked good in anything.

I wasn't happy because it was perfunctory. My other friends came home wearing the same clothes, and her parents beat her severely, but what about me, like other people's children, not only was not beaten, but I was praised.

They all envy me for having such a good father, only I know that my father treats me like this because he is not close to me. My behavior became more and more rebellious, and my academic performance became worse and worse, but every time my father saw me, he still praised me, even if I wrote like a dog, he could smile and say to me, "Well, it's much better than last time!"

I envy him for beating me and scolding me, and he can teach me a good lesson, but he doesn't. So I started living on campus, and I wasn't going home anymore. After my father found out, he just smiled and nodded, praising me for growing up, and saying that it was good to live in the school and play with children.

God knows, I wasn't interested in my friends at school. Little by little, I grew up, my dad gave me more and more money, and I did more and more bad things, smoking, drinking, fighting, everything.

Until I was in college, I couldn't even get into a junior college, and my dad donated a building to the school for me to enter, and I went in with many of my fox friends and dogs, everyone still talked and joked as before, played and joked, and mixed up with each other indifferently.

What changed me was the appearance of He Ximing. To tell the truth, because I was rebellious since I was a child, I never saw those good children, and I always scoffed at them every time I saw them. It's just a good study, what's the use? Especially a person like He Ximing, who can only study but has no background, even after graduation, how many people can break out of their own world?

But in the end, my scorn made me slap myself in the face.

That night, when He Ximing stood in front of me like a knight, I felt that he was the only one left in the world, and my heart seemed to beat for him alone. I felt like I was crazy, I was in love, I couldn't help but fall in love with him.

They all said that I was sick, and they all said that I was just a momentary infatuation, because there is no love at first sight in this world, but I don't think that's the case, the closer I get to He Ximing, the more I know He Ximing, the more I like He Ximing, he is obviously such a family condition, but he has worked hard since he was a child, and he has come here step by step with his own efforts.

I'm not a person who likes to hide and tuck, I like He Ximing, I just want him to know, I want He Ximing to understand my heart, so I'm getting closer to He Ximing, and I've done a lot of things for her that even I didn't dare to imagine before. I bought and read the magazines I liked one by one, even though I might not be able to read them. For example, He Ximing's favorite basketball, I go to cheer and cheer every day, He Ximing's student union, every time there is an event that needs to be fundraised, I am the most active one, because I want to leave a strong mark on his life track.

He Ximing has stomach problems and low blood sugar, for this, I specially asked people to bring back Teber's delicious chocolates from abroad, and I happily reported a lot of them and ran to give them to He Ximing, but the expression on his face did not seem to be as happy as I imagined. I don't know how, some feel distressed, some sad, but just when I was slowly despairing, He Ximing suddenly told me that he was going on a date with me, in the square where there was a fountain.

But the first time, when I arrived at that square, I felt that it was not only the fountain, not only the white doves on it, but even the water splashing out of the fountain was warm, like the man who was cold on the outside and hot on the inside.

However, I waited from day to night, from morning to night, from sunny weather to rain, but the man who promised me never arrived. I don't know what it tastes like, but I know that the feeling is like drinking seven or eight cups of unsweetened black coffee, which is all over my heart, and it seems that even the blood is bitter.

It's not that other classmates came to see my jokes, and they didn't just come to see them, but I didn't believe a word of what they said, my He Ximing, how could my He Ximing treat me like that, how could my He Ximing ask me because of a bet with others?

So I waited in disbelief, waiting, waiting, waiting, my legs were already unconscious, until the sky showed the whiteness of the fish's belly, until a strange old lady brought me clothes and cold medicine, I finally suddenly thought.

He Ximing, maybe there was something urgent yesterday, so he didn't come.

I didn't go home, but went downstairs to He Ximing, and I was relieved to hear that He Ximing was sleeping in the dormitory, and I struggled all night in the library last night. Look, It's not that He Ximing doesn't like me, but because he had something to do yesterday, so he delayed!

So, I stood downstairs and waited, waiting for He Ximing to wake up, waiting for He Ximing to explain to me. Or, he doesn't have to explain it to me, just know that I don't resent him. Unexpectedly, after all, the people below were too big, and the noise was too loud to wake He Ximing to sleep. At that time, I was timid, I was afraid.

Timid, afraid that because of my relationship, I disturbed He Ximing's sleep. He Ximing is different from us, we don't have to go to class, we can go back to sleep whenever we want. But He Ximing is a well-behaved child, he has to study, and if he doesn't sleep well, it will affect his learning.

The girlfriends around me all said that I was crazy, He Ximing was not as good as I thought, but I just wanted to tell them, no, He Ximing was far better than I imagined, they didn't know, just because they didn't really know He Ximing as a person.

He looks cold on the outside, but in fact, he is warm inside. For example, when he said vicious things to me, he looked at me with guilt and guilt. I, I can tell.

For example, now, He Xi clearly said this sour thing, but in fact, the shock, panic and guilt in those eyes were still captured by me, and I wanted to tell him that there was no need to feel guilty, no need to blame myself, this is what I should do.

However, I know that not saying a word is a big burden for He Ximing.

Between us, it seems that there is a large Mariana Trench.

He Ximing has been slowly estranged from me since that day, I know that he just doesn't want to hurt me, I don't care, I like him, I want him to be with me and respond to my liking, but I won't force him.

Later, there was gradually more girl around He Ximing, that girl was good at everything, and He Ximing was a perfect match, I was inexplicably jealous in my heart, I didn't dare to let He Ximing know, let alone show it. So, after the girl smiled and extended an olive branch to me, I began to quickly mingle with her and became good friends, I tried to learn from her, I tried to make me change.

It's a pity that the changes I made seem to be useless in He Ximing's eyes. Because he carried me behind my back, he applied to study abroad on public scholarship. There are not many places in the school, in fact, his conditions are good, but he has no background, so it is easy to be brushed down. But I didn't want to, why should the man I like be worse than others? So I turned to my dad and asked him to help.

My dad didn't say anything when he found out about it, he just said to think about it. But as a result, I was rejected. It was the first time that my dad and I had such a big conflict, and I told him all about the bad things he had treated me since I was a child. To this day, I can't forget my father's heartbroken expression.

I regret it, but there is no way to take it back if I say it and spill it. My dad and I were stuck in a long period of stasis. In the end, the father felt sorry for his daughter, and my father finally gave in and only said one condition.

He asked me not to meet He Ximing in the past few years, as long as I persisted in the past few years, if I still like He Ximing, if He Ximing still loves me, he can fulfill the two of us. I was so excited, I happily went to look for He Ximing, but I saw the picture of He Ximing and Yan Junchen hugging each other.

I think I should have been so distressed, I think I should have been so distressed that I forgot how I walked at the time. When I recalled it later, I could only think of the icy and biting cold wind at that time, which was as cold as a knife.

He Ximing is gone, my life has returned to the same way, eating, drinking, and having fun every day, I follow those people to become more and more unlikely, follow those people to live a life of drunkenness, and I even have a boyfriend.

Until the other party pulled me into the hotel and I refused, when he scolded He Ximing, the emotions I had been suppressing finally collapsed, I slapped the other party without saying a word, and after someone beat him hard, I went home in despair.

The memories of He Ximing that have been deliberately sealed in my memory are so vivid and vivid, only when I am next to He Ximing, I feel that I am still alive, I am a person, a person with feelings. But I thought about it, and I could only think about it, until I met Yan Junchen again at school, that I realized that things were not what I thought, they were just saying goodbye and hugging.

I was so excited and so guilty. How could I think so much about my He Ximing? How could my He Ximing do such a thing? So I didn't say a word and decided to go to He Ximing for a ticket, but my agreement with my father was still there, and I couldn't see him, so I could only hide in the corner, peeping at him slowly, admiring him.

He Ximing probably didn't know that in order to get close to him, I learned Y, F, and X, just to be able to arrange everything for him.

For example, when he desperately needs money, he will find a good part-time job. For example, when he needs help, a stranger may come to help, and in order not to be exposed, that person can be from various countries. I have spent so many years with He Ximing so happily and happily.

I don't understand why He Ximing wanted to go back when he graduated, I thought he would stay in this country, after all, He Ximing used to be so eager to succeed. But I have a little joy in my heart, will his return to China have anything to do with me?

But in the end, it was still my wishful thinking, He Ximing returned to China, and the first thing he did was not to look for a job, but to find Yan Junchen. Seeing them standing together talking and laughing, I was very sad. How can I tell He Ximing that I have been with him for so many years, and how much I wish he could look at me for so many years?

I left in despair, and when I came home, I saw my father with a stack of documents on the table, I opened it and looked at it, it was He Ximing's information in the past few years, looking at my father's perceptive eyes, I lay in my father's arms and cried.

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