wedding

When I received her wedding invitation, when I saw her wedding photo, I smiled wryly, I was originally standing next to her, but now it is someone else. She is my first love, and it is also an emotion that has lasted for ten years. If you think about it, my love with her is the most beautiful love story if it is before graduating from college. However, as we graduate and join the work, we are in a different working environment, and gradually as our minds mature, we understand many things, our love can not withstand a little test, and the two people pursue different ways, and the way of life gradually goes in two directions. I always thought it was because of a long-distance relationship, but the more people I came into contact with, the more people I came into contact with, and I understood that the living environment was different, and gradually the two of them would go farther and farther apart, going in two different directions, and finally breaking up may be the most perfect ending. I didn't marry her, this is the worst and perfect part of our first love, except for the last time, in fact, my love with her is still the best emotional experience in my life.

When I arrived at the wedding, I saw a lot of junior high school classmates, who I hadn't seen for many years, and when I stood in the middle of them, I could see in their eyes that it was a pity, a mockery. They thought they should have attended my wedding with her, but now that the groom has been replaced by someone else, and the female companion next to me has become another woman, it seems to me that they have a little contempt for me, or maybe I think too much. Looking at the people they wore one by one, there were indeed better than me, and some worse than me, but I can't see it today, because both men and women are beautifully dressed, in the world, everyone just wants to use this wedding to show their current life in front of their classmates, but who doesn't know what who's living is like when they go out of this door, but in this environment, everyone doesn't want to spoil today's atmosphere.

I was greeting and farting with a few classmates, listening to them boast about their current "rich" life, and I saw a woman in a bridesmaid dress walking towards me from a distance, because, among all the junior high school classmates over the years, except for today's bride, she is the one I have seen the most. Because she is the bride's best friend today, and also my college classmate, I am in charge of the project partner - Zhou Fang.

"He Fei, come with me"

Zhou Fang almost didn't look at all of us and said such a cold word to me and left, watching her walk through the auditorium towards the door, I could vaguely feel what she was looking for me, for so many years, I was almost like a brother between me and her, I lived and studied in the same school with her from junior high school to high school to university. After so many years of getting along, I think I know her well enough, so I know what she wants to say when she opens her mouth, but since I broke up with her, gradually Zhou Fang has a mustard for me, and she is getting farther and farther away from me, only once Zhou Fang came to me to persuade us to get back together, but when she saw the woman next to me, she never paid attention to me again, nor did she contact, I contacted her several times, that was because I didn't want to affect my relationship with Zhou Fang because I broke up with her, but every time she rejected me, things got worse and worse in the end, and even I didn't know the reason。 I met a few times in the end, but it was all because of work. Her unit and my unit are in a long-term cooperative relationship, and I can't avoid meeting her, but every time she talks about work, she turns around and leaves, ignores me, and doesn't even give me a chance to ask why. As for her looking for me today, it is nothing more than the bride today, but it is time to make this matter clear.

"You're beautiful today. ”

When I saw her, I didn't ask her why she was looking for me, but I digressed, but she was really beautiful today, and I had never seen her so beautiful in so many years.

"Thanks, you're the same, handsome. ”

She is still always cold, no, it should be said that Zhou Fang has never smiled at me since I broke up with "her", and she has hardly looked at me squarely, and she rarely even talks to me, as for being able to say such polite words today, it is not an exaggeration to say that it is a miracle. I stood next to her, neither of us spoke, I looked at the wedding photo standing at the door, and there was a pain in my heart, I knew that I had broken up with her, but this relationship would not disappear, it would always remain in my heart.

"Can you tell me why you two broke up? I'm going to hear the truth. ”

I knew she was going to ask that, but to be honest I didn't know what the reason for the breakup was. On the day of the breakup, she quarreled with me inexplicably, and said that she would break up when she was done, and I inexplicably agreed.

"Can I say I don't know why?"

I really don't know why, and even if I do, I can't say it, because this is a matter between me and her, and I don't want to be a topic for others to talk about after dinner, not to mention that now she and I have our own lives.

"I knew you would say that, is it because of her?"

I looked in the direction she was pointing, and I knew who she was referring to, it was my current girlfriend - Li Yan, and I knew that most people would misunderstand Li Yan now. The reason why Li Yan and I can be together is because Li Yan understands me better, and Li Yan and I will forget a lot of troubles and live a very relaxed life. But not for my junior high school classmates, they felt that I was using Li Yan's family relationship to get into the position, and in their opinion, Li Yan became the junior between me and her. But what the truth is, maybe only me and her know, or the real reason for the breakup, only she knows.

"Haven't you thought about other reasons? I can tell you clearly, the root cause of my breakup with her is not me, let alone Li Yan, you can say anything about me, just don't involve her, between me and Wen Xue is not because of Xiao San at all, she doesn't tell you and I can't tell you, I really don't know the specific reason for our breakup, you can think of me as much as you want, just don't involve Li Yan, she has nothing to do with me and Wen Xue. ”

Wen Xue is the name of the bride today, originally I may rarely say this name again, but today it came out of my mouth, it always felt very awkward, I never shouted "Wen Xue" in those ten years, because I called "Wen Xue" when the two of us were together, she always felt rusty, I kept calling her "Xue" but today I couldn't shout, I don't know why the words were inexplicably frozen in my mouth.

"But I asked Wen Xue many times, and she told me that it was because of your current girlfriend who intervened, and it was because of her that Wen Xue broke up with you. Now many classmates think that you abandoned Wen Xue for promotion. He Fei, I actually want to hear how you explain, but your explanation today is really disappointing. Forget it, everyone has their own ambitions, even if you don't, you can't ...... Forget it, I can't take care of your affairs, what does it have to do with me. ”

After saying that, he turned his head and went in, leaving me alone to stand there in a stupid daze, alone there to bear the indifference behind the words. I finally know why Zhou Fang and I can have such a quarrel. In Zhou Fang's opinion, I am a modern "Chen Shimei", Wen Xue put all the responsibility on Li Yan after I broke up with her, but Wen Xue didn't tell others, she and the current man have a definite relationship earlier than me and Li Yan, and I was the only one who was in pain in the days after the breakup, but Wen Xue was in the circle of friends to bask in all kinds of happiness, what is the reason why the result can be like this, maybe only Wen Xue knows now.

The wedding banquet is over, and my classmates all said that they would make an appointment to find a place to get together, I looked at Li Yan who was holding my hand, I knew that she had suffered a lot of blank eyes and a lot of grievances at the banquet, but she didn't say anything, I knew that I would not be able to get together or break up at the next party, because the initiator was Zhou Fang, from the beginning to the end, all the spearheads were pointed at me today. I don't want Li Yan to be involved in it and let her suffer these unnecessary grievances. I know that Li Yan doesn't want me to go, because today she saw the grievances I suffered, and heard those people mocking me. But if I don't go, then this meeting will lose its original meaning, and I am sure they will not let me go. I don't go to them sarcastically who goes, how they vent their dissatisfaction and dissatisfaction with life.

"I'll send Li Yan back first, and I'll come when you send me a location at the place. ”

I'm not asking for their opinions, even if they don't let Li Yan go back, I have to send her back, I don't want her to suffer the grievances she shouldn't have, there's no need for this. I didn't even look at them, I stuffed Li Yan directly into the car, I drove away, looking at the group of people pointing at the back, I didn't have to think about it to know what they were talking about, it was nothing more than that my current life was all given to me by this woman next to me, I was just a little white face who was raised, and I abandoned my girlfriend for ten years for promotion and salary increase. Now in their eyes, I am the modern "Chen Shimei". I don't care, I don't care what people say about me, I hate because I'm jealous. But I feel sorry for Li Yan, she shouldn't have suffered these grievances in the first place, but because of me, she has suffered so many grievances today.

"Fei Fei, can you not go?"

Li Yan looked at me almost pleadingly, but I really can't help but go today, even if I am wronged, I have to go, because I want to know why everyone thinks of me so much, and I want to know the reason. Maybe after this party, everyone won't be eating and drinking together, and even if I have the chance, maybe I won't go.

"It's okay, don't worry, go home and wait for me, I'll go home when it's over, it won't be too long." ”

I don't know if I'll be able to endure all the cynicism at the banquet, but I really have to go, even if they say it's useless, and then it should be the end of the party of so many years of friendship.

"Fei Fei, why has Zhou Fang been targeting you?"

"Because your husband is handsome, she is jealous of you, so she targets me everywhere. ”

In order not to make Li Yan think about it anymore, I can only divert the topic, I don't want her to be unhappy at night, not to mention that she is prone to nightmares.

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"Fei Fei, you are so narcissistic, why did you say that you are so shameless, why didn't I find out about your shortcomings in the first place. ”

"It's too late now, my husband is relying on you, and it's sticking to you like a dog skin plaster, and you can't get rid of it. ”

Caught off guard, Li Yan imprinted a happy lipstick mark on my face.

"Whoever wants to get rid of you, you're a dog skin plaster, then I'm ...... It is...... Fei Fei, what do you say I am?"

In fact, Li Yan is very simple, she doesn't have any big ideas, she just thinks that I can accompany her to old age, just like now, two people in one world, holding hands and watching the sunset.

"I'm a dog skin plaster, then you're ......"

I just wanted to tease her, deliberately didn't say what was behind, and pretended not to know.

"That's it, you say. ”

"That's it...... It's just..."

"It's what, say it or not, don't you know, hmph, I know that you perfunctory me every time and don't want to pay attention to you. ”

I like this kind of girl, I like to be coquettish in front of the person she loves, like a little girl, but not messing around, not capricious, in your world she is your princess, in her world you are her prince. Just like Li Yan's fantasy every time, when I got old, I walked on the country road with crutches and her hand in the sunset, enjoying the scenery on the side of the road. Every time she told me this, I would joke with her, saying that when she couldn't walk, I would run out alone and take the hands of the other old ladies, and come back and tell her what was out there. At the beginning she would cry and say that I didn't love her, that I liked other old ladies, and that in the end she would raise a bar with me and say that I dared to take the hands of other old ladies, and she would come back and chop my withered little brother for dinner. Every time the two of me would end the topic with a slapstick. Li Yan is a girl who likes to look forward to the future, and she also likes to put all my dreams into her world, in her words, "stealing my ideals to dress up her future world." ”

"I know, but I won't tell you unless ......"

"Unless what?"

"Unless you kiss me again"

"Forget it, I don't want to know, I think what I want to be yours is yours, it doesn't matter, you're just my person. ”

Suddenly, I felt that it was my turn to be anxious, and I originally wanted to hang people's appetites, but my own stomach words were blocked in her heart like this, just like when you were about to rush to the finish line, other people's races were canceled, and the results didn't count, which was embarrassing.

"Don't, how can you be so complacent, I think you should be a woman who pursues a perfect life, and you won't settle. ”

"If you beg me, or if you kiss me, I will promise you. ”

She leaned over and looked at her pretty face, I pulled over to the side of the road and stopped, holding her face with both hands, and gnawed hard, and I sat next to me with a wicked smile like a child who had succeeded in her plan, and she held her face and stared at me viciously.

"No, you bit me, I'm going to pay it back, quick, stretch your face over to me. ”

I knew I didn't bite her, I looked at her outstretched hands, I immediately took advantage of the situation, her body took advantage of the momentum to get closer to me, I picked up her face, stared straight at her.

"What are you going to do?"

She put her hands on her face and looked at me with a pitiful look, and I kissed her softly on the lips. It took me a while before I separated, and she kissed so strongly that she put almost all her worries into this kiss. Looking at her red face, I smiled happily and I started the car and continued walking. It's not the first time we've kissed, but today this kiss was easy for me, and the kiss was the most sincere for her, because this kiss was the only one in my eyes. She stared at me with a wicked smile, and I knew what she was going to do.

"You think that's the end of it, no, I'm going to go back, I'm going to bite back. ”

I was about to rush to my face, I looked at the road, while dodging her outstretched hands, so we arrived home in a big fight, I stopped the car and looked at her next to her with a reluctant face, there was no way to solve it still had to be solved.

"It's okay, I'll be back soon, wait at home for me to come back. ”

I looked at her back as she got out of the car, feeling a kind of loneliness, a kind of worry, and I suddenly decided in my heart that I would rely on her for the rest of my life and love her to the best of my ability.

"Yan, wait for me. ”

Hearing me call her, she turned her head sharply and looked at me getting out of the car, smiling, maybe she thought I wasn't going, but I just couldn't bear to watch her go home alone. I ran up to her and pulled her into my arms, feeling the heat coming from her body and breathing in the scent of her body, which I would rather go on like this for a while.

"Fei Fei, I'm really afraid, I'm afraid that one day you will leave me behind, leaving me to live alone, just like her and marry a man I never thought about, then I will die of sadness. ”

I just know what she has been worrying about today, maybe Wen Xue's wedding is a warning to herself in her opinion, or a warning, no one can say for sure in the future, just like Wen Xue and me, it is not an exaggeration to say that childhood sweethearts, and the ten-year relationship is not broken up in the end. The object of her marriage is not me, and there is no her in my future, who said that Wen Xue and I did not look forward to the future at that time, but in the end, it was not to eliminate each other in our own world. Li Yan's worries are not unreasonable, and I don't dare to guarantee that I can go to the end, as long as she doesn't leave, then I will definitely not leave.

"Yan, let's get married!"

Li Yan immediately hugged me tighter when she heard it, I touched her hair, I knew that this is the only thing I can give her now, maybe only in this way will she not be cranky, and I myself can cherish her better.

"Fei Fei, do you know, I've been waiting for this sentence for a long time, Fei Fei, let's get married, I don't want to continue to worry about it like this. ”

I kissed her at once, because I knew what she was going to say, I didn't want her to be swayed by her own worries, I just wanted her to be happy, and since I said it today, it came from my heart.

"Okay Feifei, go quickly, or they should talk about you again, remember what you said today. ”

She pushed me away and took my hand, afraid that I would run away, or that I would change my mind, and coaxed her to be happy about marriage, but I was really serious, and I was also afraid that one day I would lose her.

"Eun, I watched you go back and turn on the lights and I'll leave. Go ahead, wait for me at home, I'll be back soon. ”

I watched her step by step, and when she was about to enter the community gate, she shouted at me: "I will handle everything when we get married, you just help me choose my wedding dress." ”

Seeing that the lights in the room were on, I got into the car, honked the horn, told her that I was gone, and looked at the figure lying on the window and waved at me, I knew that I was dependent on her in this life, and I couldn't do without her. And Li Yan's heart was full of dreams of her wearing a wedding dress at this time, I kissed her forehead and said "I do" in front of all the guests.