Following the address they sent me on my phone, I parked my car in a parking lot not far away. When I pushed the door open and went in, Zhou Fang was already drunk and lying in Xie Bin's arms, everyone knew that Xie Bin liked Zhou Fang, and he liked Zhou Fang since junior high school, but no one knew why Zhou Fang just didn't agree. To say that Zhou Fang didn't agree to Xie Bin because she had a boyfriend, but Zhou Fang has been alone for so many years, and there are few male companions around. For so many years, Zhou Fang's single problem has been as mysterious as Bermuda, and no one knows the reason. But today she fell into Xie Bin's arms, this move made everyone feel that Xie Bin's spring was coming, but from the perspective of Zhou Fang I know, whether this is Xie Bin's spring or winter, it depends on Zhou Fang after he wakes up tomorrow.

Xie Bin saw me come in, so he took Zhou Fang into his arms, like I would rob him, maybe I was thinking too much, but thinking about it better, that is, I was afraid that Zhou Fang would fall off his lap. Sitting on the left side of Zhou Fang, the two people are Wang Yan and Wang Dong, no one knows how the two of them got together, if it wasn't for Wen Xue's wedding, maybe everyone didn't know that the two of them would come together, there was almost no communication between the two in junior high school, it was the kind of relationship that couldn't be beaten, but after graduating from junior high school, they were not admitted to high school, and the two chose a secondary school, which is said to be a school, and I rarely heard from them after graduating from junior high school, if it wasn't for everyone talking at the banquet, I really didn't know that the two of them came together。

When Wang Yan saw me coming in, he asked Wang Dong to move in and let me sit on the edge of the sofa, so that it would be better for me to attend the party better by sitting in this easily forgotten corner. I haven't seen you for so many years, in fact, I really want to have a good time with everyone, but the time of this party is not right, the atmosphere is not right, even everyone here may not be right, everyone has some unhappiness in their hearts, not only for me personally, but also several pairs of lovers, and now the people sitting next to them are not each other. This is our first love, and now the only one who can come together is the pair next to me, they established a relationship the latest, but they are the only pair of first loves sitting now. I should send my most sincere blessings to them, but what about me, who will bless me when I get married, and who can send me and Li Yan the most beautiful and sincere blessings. The original alliance was not unrealistic, but I should also be glad that I met Li Yan.

While I was immersed in my memories, someone pulled me, and when I looked up, I vaguely seemed to remember that there was such a person. After so many years, there are only a few types of people who can remember, the first is the one who has been in contact with me, and then the one who has studied well and those who have studied poorly. But the other good girls in junior high school and the good men at that time, all their performances were so ordinary, their studies were not outstanding, and their personalities were not outstanding. If you don't see each other, you will forget it after a long time. There are some fragments of memories of them, but they are blurry to the point of doubting that they actually existed. I looked at the woman in front of me with a confused face, I really couldn't remember what her name was, but I had already honed a face that said things to people and talked nonsense at work, and I still got up and greeted her very warmly. To be honest, I was still very excited the moment she ignored me, at least I wasn't ignored at first.

"Manager He, now that I'm developed, I have forgotten who I am, why have you changed so much since I saw you for so many years, among these old classmates, you may be the best now. ”

I don't know how to make sense of her words, whether she is greeting me or sarcastic me like everyone else, but I don't care, I care about the friendship that I can sit here now.

"How can you, who can forget you, a big beauty. ”

"I also said that I haven't forgotten, I don't know who I am when I see it, you are a busy person, how can the big manager remember us little people, we are all from the poor countryside, and it is normal for you to not remember. ”

It's really realistic, even your classmates can't see that you are better off than him. If you're doing well, they're saying you're a little whiteface, but if you're doing well, they're saying you're incompetent. Today, it seems that there is no longer such innocent classmate love here.

"What you said, I'm also a worker who works for others, and I can forget that you are such a beautiful beauty. ”

"Then you name me, you can't say it, give, how about you drink this bottle of wine in front of everyone?"

I looked at the wine in her hand, and then at the classmates sitting around me, but no one could give me any hints, and some of them were heckling.

"Yes, yes, yes, He Fei couldn't say it, so he let him drink this bottle. ”

I knew I really couldn't remember who the girl in front of me was, and I knew that there was no one who could help me at this time. I took the wine from her hand and swept my eyes over all the junior high school classmates present. I don't mind this bottle of wine, but I just hope that after I drink this bottle, everyone will leave everything behind and only come to this hard-won party with the initial camaraderie of classmates, but I also know that this is my wishful thinking. I shoved the wine into my mouth, and when it ran down my throat, it was bitter, and it was not the wine, it was the person, it was me. No one knows how much I cherish the people in front of me, but in the end, I am the only one who cherishes them. I gulped the wine down my stomach, and the bitterness made me sober up gradually. Suddenly the wine in my hand was taken away, I rubbed my eyes, wiped the tears from my eyes, I glanced at the person who took my wine bottle - it was Zhou Fang, I don't know when Zhou Fang got up from Xie Bin's arms, at this time she looked at me like a clown.

"I drank the rest for He Fei, you look at him like this, he drank a bottle of wine as uncomfortable as drinking urine. ”

As she spoke, she put the wine into her mouth, Zhou Fang was already drunk at this time, so I didn't want others to think that I relied on women everywhere to protect me, so I took the bottle of wine that belonged to me.

"Mine is better for me to drink by myself, I don't need to be replaced by others, I'm not weak enough to let others drink for me. ”

"That is, Manager He doesn't need the protection of women, people just use women to take the position, and they are still very gentlemanly in front of us. ”

Xie Bin stood beside Zhou Fang with a sneering look, he had the most strange things to say about me at today's banquet, I never thought that a brother who used to have the best relationship with me didn't believe me now, and today he is still standing aside and sneering at me. I don't want to explain to them, even if everyone misunderstands me like this, it doesn't matter, the clear ones are self-clearing, why do they need to explain. I picked up the bottle and put it in my mouth, I felt like I had been drinking it for a long time, but I couldn't see them mocking me when I looked up. After drinking, I placed the bottle on the table and looked at the girl in front of me.

"I'm done drinking. Now I can tell you what your name is. ”

"Okay, I'll tell you if you're having a drink with me. ”

"Okay, no problem, I'll drink with you. ”

I had a smile on my face, just like when I was drinking with those clients to sign a big contract, this is no longer a party, this is a party for me now, I poured two glasses of wine and handed her a glass.

"Come to the beauty, I will make amends to you, such a big beauty standing in front of me I actually forgot the name, I should be punished. ”

"That's it, it's so refreshing, why hide behind women everywhere. ”

I took the initiative to touch her glass, looked up and took a sip of the wine into my mouth. But when I finished drinking, she still didn't drink the wine in her hand, and she looked at me with a playful expression.

"Whoever made you drink so fast, I'm talking about drinking a glass of wine with me, who let you drink it yourself, no, start over. ”

I was overwhelmed by the drink, for me drinking is not a problem, I just don't want to have a glass with her, because I always thought that only the closest people would drink a glass of wine, but I can't even forget the name of the girl in front of me, can it be considered the most intimate? In my opinion, it doesn't count, it can only be limited to classmates. She looked at me standing there indifferently, and didn't mean to have a drink with her, and her strange words came out again.

"Hey, Manager He doesn't like to drink with me, everyone is a person with a head and a face, how can you want to know the name of my little person, it seems that I am self-inflicted. ”

After saying that, she pretended to walk to her seat, and said something in her mouth, but I didn't hear it clearly, actually, I didn't have to listen to it to know what she said.

"That is, He Fei is better than everyone, and the fact that he can come today is to give us all face, how can he put down his body and drink with all of us, so you don't have to embarrass others, and besides, people have to go back to serve other people's Lafayette, otherwise they will not be promoted in the future." ”

Xie Bin's yin and yang weird words standing next to me irritated me a little, but I knew that I could only endure this occasion now, but there was still a necessary counterattack in words, otherwise I would not have come to this party today.

"Lafayette at home is still relatively loose with me, unlike some people who hide little petite cats at home and want to come out to eat something fishy. Isn't it just drinking, I'll drink with you. ”

I know that Xie Bin has a girlfriend, and I just want to remind Zhou Fang to see Xie Bin's face clearly. When I said it, everyone looked at Zhou Fang, because just now Zhou Fang was lying in Xie Bin's arms, since I knew that Xie Bin had a girlfriend, it was impossible for Zhou Fang not to know. After Zhou Fang noticed everyone's gaze, he walked to Wang Yan's side without looking at Xie Bin.

Wang Dong looked at Zhou Fang and moved out of the way and let Zhou Fang sit next to Wang Yan. Xie Bin originally wanted to explain something, but when she saw Zhou Fang's disgusted expression, he stopped, turned around and glared at me and sat directly in his original position. At this time, the atmosphere of the scene was very embarrassing by my words, I don't think I said anything wrong, as a friend, I need to remind Zhou Fang, lest she fall into it. The awkward atmosphere may make everyone feel uncomfortable. Someone finally came out to break this oppressive atmosphere, for me to break or not to break is actually a matter of fact, I think the awkward atmosphere is the most suitable for me now.

"Everyone should have fun when they come out to play, don't be unhappy, isn't it just drinking, I'll accompany Li Qian to drink." ”

As he spoke, he picked up the wine glass in front of him, walked to Li Qian's side and was about to drink with Li Qian, the wine glass was close to Li Qian, but Li Qian stretched out his hand and pushed it away. I just knew that this woman's name is Li Qian, and the person who said this is called Feng Xuelei, I remember that in junior high school, he was the top student in our class, the proud protégé of the teachers of various subjects, almost all the teachers liked him very much at that time, but some people were not born with exam material, and he could only take a second-rate college in the college entrance examination that year, which is not to say that he did not study well in high school, but because he did not know how to take exams, especially those big exams in life.

It is said that he was admitted to graduate school, and now he teaches at his former high school and is a teacher. In my mind's eye, I probably only remember his grades, and there are almost no other extras about him. Perhaps for him, only studying was the most important thing at that time, and everything other than studying was a waste of time for him. In those three years, he was very disgusted with us ruffians in the eyes of the teacher, especially me, because he was pressed by me for every exam in the past three years, and always thought that I plagiarized every exam and belonged to the wrong kind of way. I really didn't expect to be able to stand up now.

"You sit down for me, there's your business everywhere. ”

Li Qian didn't give Feng Xuelei any face at all, didn't look at him with straight eyes, walked directly to me, picked up the wine glass in front of me and handed it to me.

"You owe me it back and don't hide behind anyone else, come, drink it with me. ”

It's strange, did you force me to drink, and I owe you if I don't drink, and I still pay a glass of wine. I took the wine glass she handed me and looked at her, I found that there was a hatred in her eyes, I don't know where I offended her, I haven't seen her since I graduated from junior high school, if it weren't for Wen Xue getting married, maybe I wouldn't have crossed paths with her in this life, but what flashed in her eyes was a kind of hatred, very strong, staring at her eyes made me very uncomfortable. In the end, I had to compromise, not because I was doing it myself, but because I didn't want her to make things difficult for me and sour me about it. Maybe after today, I'll soon forget that I had a drink with her.

"Okay, I'll drink with you. ”

I took the glass, went around her arm, and raised my head to make the wine flow down my tongue into my stomach, and even if I was reluctant I could only go with her, I didn't want to let the atmosphere that had been so hard to ease fall into an impasse again. Li Qian, this girl, I have been looking for a long time in my mind, and I vaguely remember that she used to sit at the same table with me for a while, but I was in the kind of person who was assigned to the frontier at that time, and I was extremely rebellious at that time, and I slept in class almost every day in the days I sat with her, and rarely talked to her, even after class, I didn't stay in my seat. After sitting for a few days, I was transferred back to the center, which is the front row, and I lived under the teacher's nose. So there is a good chance that she will be deleted from my memory, and it makes sense that I can forget her name after so many years, but I didn't expect her to remember me, and now she still shows a deep hatred and hatred for me.

"Come and I'll drink for Li Qian. ”

I felt my arm being pulled off at once, and the wine in my mouth was spilled on my clothes, and the sound was so familiar. She stood in front of me, and I watched her take Li Qian's wine, less than half of the wine in her hand was left, and mine had already been drunk by me. I shook my glass at her, signaling that I was done. Seriously, I feel sorry for Zhou Fang, I have been alone for so many years, no matter how much suffering I have suffered, I have never cried in front of anyone, even if I cried. I remember that someone chased her when she was in college, and in order to chase Zhou Fang, the man also placed a lot of candles on campus to confess, at that time, such a scene was very romantic for girls, but Zhou Fang directly rejected the man in front of so many people, and afterwards I joked with her that I was careful that I couldn't marry in this life, she just smiled and didn't respond. Nowadays, everyone is almost one-on-one, only she is still alone, I really want to see her find a man who loves her and loves her.

She looked at the empty wine glass in my hand, pointed to the wine bottle on the table, and motioned for me to refill the wine, I looked at her who had already drunk too much, I really didn't want her to continue drinking, so I snatched the wine from her hand and drank all the wine in one gulp.

"Okay, since you all want to drink with me, then don't drink it, I'll just drink it alone, don't pretend to be weird there. ”

Seeing that they were all sitting in the yin and yang weird at me, and now Zhou Fang is still in front of me, which makes me extremely angry, for so many years I think I have never done anything that is wrong with everyone, but since I broke up with Wen Xue, I have directly become a street rat, they are aimed at me, do not understand me. I can not care about other people's, but I can't care about what Zhou Fang thinks of me. I think that I have been a friend for so many years, even if I am a classmate, then Zhou Fang knows me well enough. But the truth is that she is now on the opposite side of me, and misunderstands me as much as they do. Zhou Fang had tears in her eyes after listening to my words, maybe I was already dizzy at that time, and I didn't notice these at all, I just didn't want to be misunderstood by others like this again, and the fire that I had suppressed for a long time spewed out all at once.

"You always think that I abandoned Wen Xue for a promotion and salary increase, and you think that my current achievements are given to me by the Li Yan family. But what am I doing when you're shopping with my girlfriend, I'm fucking working overtime, what am I doing when you're partying with my family, I'm still fucking working overtime. When I broke up with Wen Xue, you never asked the real reason, I don't know who told you, I abandoned Wen Xue for a promotion and a salary increase, this is fucking bullshit, I was already the assistant manager when I broke up with her, but at that time I had been running around, maybe I rarely cared about Wen Xue's feelings so there was something later, even Li Yan and I looked for it after Wen Xue and her husband confirmed the relationship, and besides, who of you can know my pain during the breakup, even if she got married today, you don't know how painful I was, the person who was originally standing next to her was me, but it became another man, who of you fucking knows how hard I am. Just here will say some cool words, have this time to deal with your own affairs, don't care about some things that have nothing to do with you like an eighth woman. It's disgusting to look at your face right now. ”

I stood directly in front of Zhou Fang and vented to everyone, I knew that I couldn't stay anymore, but since I had already said it, I would vent all my unhappiness today, not against someone, I just didn't want Zhou Fang to continue to misunderstand me after this.

"You all think that I eat soft rice, I don't mind, originally in this real society, no one will believe that someone will climb up with their own efforts, especially young people, I also admit that my current achievements are not only because of my efforts, there are other additional factors, but I swear by my own personality, there is absolutely no help from the Li Yan family, you can think how you want to go here, if you can't get used to it, then please close your single eyelid that you can't roll up by nature, don't end up blind, you can't see your own shadow that you have stuffed into the toilet。 Put away your disgusting looks, and don't show how much you care about others here. Call me disgusting, say I rely on women, you just want to rely on it, but you don't have the ability. Out of this door, you know better than one another, the person who pretends to be here looks like a dog, in fact, the most disgusting is you. ”

I don't care how many people will get angry or even shoot at me after I say it, but I have to say it. Even if it becomes a target for scolding them when they want to sit back and enjoy it but can't get results, I don't care. How far you can go depends on how much you have paid, now people just can't get used to seeing others live better than themselves, and if you can't do it, you feel that others can't do it, I still work there when you are enjoying it, I don't know how many sunsets I have missed, and most of my achievements today come from my own efforts. No matter how good your family resources are, if you don't work hard, then you are Adou, and you will never be able to help up.

After Zhou Fang listened to my words, she thought I was scolding her and pushing everything on her head, and tears broke down all of a sudden, looking at her painful expression, I really wanted to comfort her, but I was angry and ignored it directly. She slowly squatted on the ground, buried her head between her legs, maybe she didn't want others to see her crying, but in the end she couldn't hold back and cried out all of a sudden.

"He Fei, what kind of fire does a man have, don't be angry with Zhou Fang, go to Wen Xue in the past, people tell everyone that you broke up with her for promotion, don't you dare to admit it if you can do it yourself? Do you think Zhou Fang will say these words to all of us, you go and ask Wen Xue yourself, how do we know these words, don't vent your anger here, you can stay at this party, if you don't wait, get out. There are also people Wen Xue who also said that people have never liked you in the past ten years, and they have been trying to make up for the regret that you have rejected others in the past ten years, and also let you experience the harm you have done to others. When you think about it, you feel so sad, you think you have ten years of feelings, but in fact, you are a doll in the hands of Wen Xue in the past ten years, a doll with a line, and people directly play with you in the palm of their hands, you are really sad. ”

Xie Bin saw Zhou Fang squatting in front of me crying, and suddenly couldn't help it, and rushed up directly to stand in front of me and yelled at me.

"Fuck you, shut up Lao Tzu. ”

But his words did knock me into a trough, and this love that I was once proud of, I don't know how pathetic I am until today. Judging from everyone's sympathetic eyes on me at the beginning of today, I am indeed very sad, my girlfriend who has been talking for ten years finally said nothing in front of everyone, telling others that she has not loved me in the past ten years, just to make up for that regret. His ten-year relationship is now a joke in the eyes of others. Xie Bin is right, in fact, I have been someone else's doll for ten years in ten years of love. No wonder everyone misunderstands me, no woman will take her failed feelings for everyone to talk about after dinner, since it is said, there is no one who will not believe it, no wonder some people sympathize with me, look down on me, how successful my career is not to be played by a woman I like for ten years, until today I understand, how sad I am for so many years, how pitiful I am in love.

"Xie Bin, shut up, what are you talking nonsense. ”

Zhou Fang immediately stopped Xie Bin's irrational truth with a crying voice, but I was already broken down at this time, and I really wanted to ask her why she couldn't leave a good memory of our two former love at the end. In this way, she tore up my youth, my first love, and my pure feelings in the past ten years in front of everyone. Now I don't understand whether I was too stupid or Wen Xue hid too deeply in the past ten years, from the beginning, maybe I was toyed with by her in applause, in Xie Bin's mouth, no, it should be in Wen Xue's mouth My ten-year relationship suddenly became a fart. At this time, I was hovering in the depths of my own heart, and I didn't know whether I should believe Xie Bin or my ten-year relationship. I couldn't control the fear in my heart all of a sudden, and I felt like I was a clown, and I felt that anyone was terrible, and they were all wearing masks and carrying a sharp dagger in their hands, and they were all stabbing into my heart little by little, and everyone was laughing and watching me bleed. What was once sweet love has now become a joke, and the friendship and friendship that they cherished are now ruthlessly trampled on by each of them in this place.

Wen Xue I have loved you so much in the past ten years, and what am I in your heart, a doll, a clown, or a vacancy for you to make up for regrets, I really want to ask you if these words are really what you said. Everyone's eyes and everyone's words directly made my youth completely collapse. I turned my head and ran out of the door, I've been playing the clown here for so long, enough is enough, there's no need to stay any longer.

"He Fei, wait, where are you going?"

"Zhou Fang"

Zhou Fang chased me out, and Xie Bin chased Zhou Fang out. But at this time, I don't want to see anyone, I just want to be alone and quiet, I don't want to be a clown in the eyes of others, you've seen enough of the jokes, it's time to let me go. As soon as I arrived in front of the car, Zhou Fang stopped me at once, and her body blocked in front of my car. Xie Bin stood not far away and stared at us

"I've been performing as a clown for so long, haven't you seen enough, haven't you trampled enough?

I yelled at Zhou Fang in front of me, watching her cry in front of my eyes, I always felt very fake, I felt very disgusting, very contrived, I grabbed her and fell to the ground, I didn't get my head back into the car, tears immediately couldn't stop flowing out, I started the car and I sped away, Zhou Fang in the rearview mirror sat on the ground, her head buried in her legs, Zhou Bin leaned down and put on his shirt for her, at this time I had no pity at all, I felt like a madman at this time. In the past ten years, my entire youth has been lost to love and to her. My youth was arranged by Wen Xue as a disgusting tragedy, and I played the clown for ten years.