"I admit I was too late, and I was sorry for you. ”

I nodded helplessly, and every time I remembered that afternoon, I couldn't help but sink into deep self-blame.

No matter how much Zhang Qian hates me, saying that she hates me, or how she tries her best to target me, I deserve it all and I should bear it.

But the gangster is different, he is such a good person, for Zhang Qian, he has always liked it with his life, he shouldn't be treated like this because of me.

At least for Zhang Qian, the gangster is a good man through and through, and the two of them can start over regardless of their previous suspicions.

"But Zhang Qian, he really loves you from the bottom of his heart, and please cherish him. ”

"Have you forgotten Zhang Luo, the man I like is you. ”

Zhang Qian sneered, and suddenly frowned, and a smile that seemed to mock and nostalgia appeared on her face.

Yes, once upon a time, she really wanted to love the man in front of her with her life, and even made up her mind to give him her most precious first time.

But I never said anything to her about liking, Zhang Qian is not a stupid girl, she can feel the real thoughts in my heart.

Sometimes when she wakes up in the middle of the night, Zhang Qian can't help but reverie, how good it would be if they had already had a relationship that night, at least her chastity would not be given to such a disgusting man.

It's a pity that everything is gone, and she will never return to the same person she used to be.

"Zhang Luo, if you want me, it's the first time for me. ”

“……”

I suddenly felt a little dry in my throat, and I opened my mouth to say something, but I couldn't say a word.

At this moment, the expression on Zhang Qian's face and the tone of her voice were the same as that night.

I couldn't control my thoughts at all, how beautiful and charming Zhang Qian was at that time, a pair of big eyes were full of brilliance.

But now, if it weren't for the fact that she still looked exactly the same, I wouldn't even believe that the lifeless and withered woman in front of me would be Zhang Qian.

"What a ridiculous idea, Zhang Luo, you just didn't like me from beginning to end. ”

Zhang Qian showed a rather self-deprecating smile, in fact, she should have figured it out a long time ago, even if nothing like this happened, Zhang Luo would not like her to be hungry.

It's just that she herself is too naïve and insistent on going her own way, insisting that she is good enough and will not be rejected.

In the end, she found out that it was an empty dream, and everything was just her wishful thinking.

"We're not suitable, you're still young, sooner or later you'll meet a better man than me, and then you'll find out that you don't really like me that much at all. ”

I sighed in a low voice, and began to comfort Zhang Qian in a calm voice.

Speaking of which, I should also blame my position for not being firm enough, if I could have behaved more resolutely at that time, Zhang Qian probably would not have become what she is now.

She's a good girl, and the bad thing is that all the men she meets are not good enough, including me.

"Don't say these useless things, Zhang Luo, I'm not the same me I used to be. ”

Zhang Qian chuckled, at this moment, she no longer had any emotions at all.

I could feel that she had come out of the past between us, and although the process was a little difficult, she did it neatly and without dragging her feet in the slightest.

"It's fair between us, I'll never like you again. ”

"I'm sorry Zhang Qian, it's me who was useless, and I couldn't protect you at that time. ”

I don't know why, watching her pink and seductive red lips spit out words like this, I actually felt a little heartache.

Knowing that it was the best ending for her to stop loving me, I began to feel a little reluctant to give up.

Probably because of my self-esteem as a man, Zhang Qian finally let me go, but I was a little reluctant to let her go.

I shook my head, Zhang Luo, Zhang Luo, you should still be sober, don't be what Xiaolan said, you really become a merciless scumbag.

I took Lan's hand and put it on my shoulder, I always felt that the anger in her heart had not been fully released.

As the culprit of all this, I deserve the wrath of my victims.

I couldn't agree more.

"You can beat me or scold me if you want, I deserve it. ”

"Zhang Luo, I hate you!"

Zhang Qian pounded my chest hard, once, twice, three times, until her hands were a little weak and she gradually stopped.

However, what made me sad was the words that came out of her mouth, the calm but terrifying words.

"You should hate me, and I just beg you not to waste your life because of me. ”

She said she hated me, and now not only did she not like me anymore, but she even hated my existence.

I suddenly felt a little melancholy, and I couldn't help but feel a lot of sadness in my heart, but when I thought about it, wasn't all this a matter of course.

I made Zhang Qian like this, and there is nothing wrong with her hating me.

But Zhang Qian still has such a long way to go in the future, she shouldn't ruin her life because she hates me.

"You're still so young, and there's still a long way to go. ”

"No, there was nothing back in that little room. ”

Zhang Qian took two steps back, shook her head a little helplessly, and two lines of tears flowed down instantly.

From the moment she was imprisoned by that man, she had been completely lost in that small room.

Whether awake or asleep, her consciousness was always circling in that small room, and she couldn't find an exit.

All this is thanks to Zhang Luo, thanks to his untimely, her life has been stuck in place like this.

"Thanks to your immediacy, I'm the person I am now. ”

"You can turn back. You still have gangsters and me by your side, as long as you want, everything is the same as before, you can go to school, you can have a boyfriend, you can live a good life. ”

I grabbed Zhang Qian's hand, my thoughts are completely different from hers, there is no hurdle in life that cannot be passed, the reason why Zhang Qian has become what she is now is entirely because she is unwilling to come out.

Although I am not a party and will never be able to understand Zhang Qian's experience and feelings, I am a few years older than Zhang Qian.

Her experience is still a little too shallow, so she thinks that she has seen all the worlds in more than ten or twenty years.

But in fact, the world is still big, and she should spend her whole life exploring and pursuing, instead of staying where she is.

"Come on, Zhang Luo, don't say these useless words. ”

Zhang Qian didn't nod or shake her head, for her, all the persuasion was already useless.

She understands all those truths, but life is not a stereotype on a textbook, she has thoughts and emotions, she is tired and doesn't want to go out anymore.

But what about Zhang Luo, why has her life become like this, Zhang Luo can still pursue his own happiness, which is a little too unfair.