160 Bitterness and Happiness
Growing up, my father's hard work created a relatively stable living condition for our family, which meant that we did not go hungry or get naked. But I never felt what it was like to be rich. I am full of admiration and gratitude for my father's efforts, and I know very well that my father is making money with blood and sweat for the sake of his family.
I will never forget my father's direct piercing of his foot with a nail in order to earn money, but he still endured the pain and was busy with household chores. I will never forget the scene in the eyes of others when my father used one leg to commute on a bicycle after one leg was injured. I'll never forget the haggard feeling after my father's head injury that year......
In the second year after working, the unit's welfare housing came down. Many colleagues have bought houses with the help of their families, and the houses in the flats are much cheaper than the market price, which is an opportunity to buy a house. But I didn't dare to think about it, I knew that my family didn't have any money, and if I decided to buy a house, I would have to let my father figure it out for me, and I had just worked and didn't have much savings.
During that time, I was stuck in a tangle and contradictions. I really don't want to add any extra burden to my family, but if I miss this opportunity, the pressure to buy a house will be even greater. One day, I mustered up the courage to call my father. My father seemed very tired, I told him about the flat house, he hesitated for a moment and told me not to buy it yet, and to wait until the conditions were a little better later.
I understood what my father meant, he was tired, he was already under the pressure of foreign debt. After that call, I decided not to buy it. Save some money for the time being, and talk about it later.
After a while, I saw that the company's house was about to be sold. I thought about it before and after that, if I didn't seize this opportunity, this benefit would be lost to me. I called my father again, and I did the math on the phone so that he could help me borrow some money, make a down payment, and book the house.
My father agreed, and for the down payment, he did everything possible to raise 100,000 yuan from his relatives and pay me the down payment.
When you get the money and have to pay a down payment, the pain in your heart is self-evident. It felt like I had stabbed myself twice with a knife, but I couldn't cry out in pain.
When I got the key, there was still a gap of about 10,000. I didn't dare to speak to my father again, so I quietly borrowed 5,000 from my aunt in my name. After getting the keys, it costs a lot of money to live in the new house.
In order to save money, my father and I discussed and planned to let my father build my house by himself. My father has been working on the engineering team, but he is not good at decoration, so this time it was also an attempt to work for me.
In the bitterly cold winter, my father was stationed in my rough house and worked for me day and night. At that time, my father was estimated to be the only resident in the community, and after half a month of hard work, the house basically met the conditions for moving in when I rode an electric car back and forth to deliver food.
On the day it was finished, I bought a string of firecrackers and lit them at dawn, and the explosion of the firecrackers broke the silence of the neighborhood. My father happily looked at the fruits of his labor, and my face was full of smiles, and I thought that this would be my new home in the future. Compared to the house that cost a lot of money to renovate, this house of mine is not worth mentioning, and even a little shabby. But I'm satisfied! That's what I'm capable of, and what I'm doing is what I'm capable of.
A few years later, I bought some furniture and necessities in my house. Every thing is not up to the grade, every purchase is the most affordable thing with the least amount of money, and after a few years, the house is basically full. When I got married, my wife said that the house was shabby, and I didn't want to spend some money to decorate it.
Poor people always have many reasons, and I said to my wife: "I feel too depressed to renovate the house, and I don't feel comfortable anywhere." How nice we are in this house now, it is wide and bright inside. When we have money, we will definitely decorate it again!"
My wife saw that I was very determined, and complained to me, "Do you know why I don't dare to let my colleagues come to our house?"
In fact, I already knew her answer in my heart, and I deliberately asked, "What is the reason?"
"Our family looks so poor! I'm sorry to let them come!"
I really don't feel good in my heart, why don't I want to give my wife a gorgeous new house? Why don't I want to live in a beautiful house? However, with my current ability, I am only suitable to live in such a house, and I think it is already very luxurious. In my heart, I am still worried that my brother is still renting someone else's house, and he doesn't even have a house like mine. In such a situation, how can I bear to let my family worry about it anymore!
Although I couldn't fulfill my wife's wishes, it was just for a peace of mind. I don't want to be in a dream, a kind of panic of being collected.
After living in the house, everything in it was added one by one, and I was embarrassed to ask my father to find a way for me. Looking at the things I bought by myself, I felt a sense of accomplishment.
When you get married, it's another big expense. The money to buy a house for me has not been paid off yet, and my younger brother has taken out another loan when he gets married, so my father's pressure can be imagined. In order not to burden my father too much, when I got married, I took out another loan in my own name, and my father's mood was relaxed all of a sudden.
When the mortgage and credit loan are combined, most of the monthly salary is taken up by the loan, and only a little living expenses remain. However, this is the steadiness and peace of mind that I have never had.
A friend asked me, "How cheap are you buying a car?"
I smiled wryly and replied, "I can't afford to drive the car!
I also like to drive if I can. In order to realize such a dream, I also learned a driver's license a few years ago, I don't know how long it will take to drive my own car, I believe that as long as you take every step steadily, everything will come true!
There are also some peers I know who have flaunted his solid assets in front of me, and I clearly feel the sense of superiority and wealth in his every word, and I listened carefully and kept smiling at him. When he finished, I would nod my head sincerely and say to him, "I really envy you! You are so rich! Compared to you, I have not yet been lifted out of poverty." ”
I never make fun of others because of their difficulties, but when I face people in more difficult situations, the most I say is encouragement and comfort.
"Everyone has their own way of life, there is no need to compare, and there is no need to be inferior. As long as you keep your head high, everything will slowly get better!"
I watched some people who lived in hardcover houses, drove cars, and dressed in high-end clothes complaining day after day that their income was too low and that their parents helped him too little. My heart suddenly calmed down a lot, and I was happier than them.