Give your heart

After Yan Bianzhao recognized his new father, he didn't argue to find the old father, and he never mentioned the original people and things. It was as if the rainstorm had washed his brain and refreshed him, and the earth-shattering hail shook him to amnesia and was completely reborn.

He's much better behaved now, not so tough. Dad, father, and father called Yan Yongnong's heart warm, that is, he didn't leave Yan Yongnong for a moment.

If the family wants to buy some things, Yan Yongnong needs to go to the mountain, Yan Bianzhao wants to follow, Yan Yongnong doesn't want to take him out. Because of the long distance, it is not a big deal to carry or hold the child when you go, but there is a heavy burden on your shoulders on the way back, and it is not easy to carry and hold at this time. More importantly, he didn't want to take his children to the downtown to show his face, lest he be recognized.

He left early the next morning after finishing his son's work, and did not return until the sun went down.

Yan Bianzhao saw his father as if he hadn't seen each other for dozens of generations, and hurriedly rushed forward: "Dad, why did you come back!

"Yan Bianzhao, you think your dad is fake, think the snacks he brought back are real. Wang Huilan quipped.

"No, I think my dad has more. Yan Bianzhao said.

"It's a fact, he kissed me first and then went to the basket to find food. Yan Yongnong said happily.

Yan Yongnong's heart was all on Yan Bianzhao, and his son's every demeanor and subtle movement touched his nerves.

He found that his son did not often stare blankly at the sky with a dull gaze, and sometimes sit quietly on a small bench and stare at a place for a long time. Yan Yongnong felt so sad when he didn't have his son like this! But he didn't say anything or do anything.

One night, when he slept until midnight, Yan Bianzhao suddenly got up from the bed, stepped over Yan Yongnong's body, got out of bed, and walked straight to the door.

At this time, Yan Bian Zhao was in a state of half-awake and half-asleep, and it was not until he touched the table and chair that the severe pain made him wake up. Yan Yongnong, who had been tired all day, fell asleep at this time, and he didn't even know when his son got up, and he didn't wake up until he heard an "ouch".

"Son, what are you doing when you get up? Do you want to drink water?" Yan Yongnong asked in a panic.

"Don't drink water. Yan Bianzhao cried.

"Do you want to pee?" Yan Yongnong asked as he got up and lit the lamp.

"Not really. Yan Bianzhao choked with his hand over his right knee.

Yan Yongnong picked up his son and picked up his trousers, and saw a big bag hit on his knee, he rubbed it and kicked the table foot with his foot: "You are still in my son's way, and you hit my son's knee with such a big bag, see if I don't break you!"

Ren Yan Yongnong coaxed Yan Bian Zhao to cry all the time. The pain of the table was only one thing, and on the other hand, the pain in his heart had flares up again, and he must have dreamed of his original parents again, so he went to pursue it in his dream.

Yan Yongnong didn't know about this! He couldn't mention this matter, he couldn't poke his son's pain, he could only say that it diverted his son's mind. Yan Yongnong immediately put his son on his back, walked around the house and the patio, humming a lullaby as he walked, and slowly fell asleep when he reached the fourth watch.

His son's actions were enough to make Yan Yongnong sad, his son was in Cao Ying, and his heart was in Han! What he got was only his son's body, and he had not yet gained his son's heart, or he had not completely won his heart. This is the most sad and sad for Yan Yongnong, and it is also the most intolerable to him.

His possessiveness of his son became stronger and stronger, almost occupying. Usually, when Yan Bianzhao gets close to his wife and daughter, he is a little jealous and indignant.

When Yan Bianzhao made intimate gestures to his mother, such as kissing his mother on the face, or fighting with his daughter for the fucking arm, or arguing for the fucking "horse head and feet", Yan Yongnong felt lost in his heart. He immediately shouted: "Obediently give Dad a kiss too, come to Daddy obediently, Daddy's 'horse' is tall and big, and it runs fast and steady." ”

Parents wish others would love their children and treat their children well, but Yan Yongnong is different, he thinks that his son has his own love, his own care, and his own care is enough.

Between their father and son, he doesn't want anyone to come in, he wants only the son in his world, and the son's world only him, and they share a world where there are only the two of them. So when he learned from his son's strange behavior that his son was still thinking about his father and the original person in his heart, his heart was torn apart.

How could he tolerate the shadow of another father or someone else hiding in the corner of his son's heart? Out of jealousy and hatred, he cursed those shadows in his heart: "I wish your family would disappear from the face of the earth as soon as possible, and without you would have destroyed the disaster." ”

After scolding, he felt another tingling in his heart, are the biological parents who cursed their son worthy of their son? After all, the son's life was given by them, and without them, where would the son come from? This is not the way of life!

Then he comforted himself: It's only your shadows that are torturing my son! Caught between our father and son, it affects our feelings, no wonder I want to scold you. I will drive you out of his heart once and for all, even if you are firmly rooted in his heart. I don't believe that a loving flesh-and-blood man who is always with me can't fight you illusory shadows!

Yan Yongnong knows better than anyone that it is difficult to completely erase those shadows from his son's heart, as clean as wiping a table, without leaving any traces. There's a long transition period here, be patient. There are a lot of taboos in this transitional period, and when he is in a trance, you must not pick an opportunity to break him, such as asking: "What are you thinking?" and "Are you still thinking about your original parents?" That would only hurt him and push him further.

Yan Yongnong made up his mind to exchange hearts for hearts, and poured all his love into Yan Bianzhao, even if his own daughter was happy, he didn't want to share a fingernail.

He always takes his son with him, and as long as he sees Yan Bianzhao, he doesn't go elsewhere to find Yan Yongnong. Yan Yongnong's hands were empty, he hugged Yan Bianzhao in his arms, his shoulders were empty, and his back was empty.

Most of the time their father and son walk the path of two people together, and Yan Bianzhao's feet are simply on his father's body.

People don't believe it, but it's the truth. Yan Yongnong carried a deputy burden on his shoulders, Yan Bianzhao grabbed his chest like a monkey, his feet clamped his waist and his hands held his chest, and he also had one free hand to clamp it.

Yan Yongnong was in the field, holding the plough in one hand and the ox rope in the other, and Yan Bianzhao in the cloth on his back held his neck with both hands, and his face was closed on his back. After walking a few feet, Yan Yongnong shrugged Yan Bianzhao up. Yan Bianzhao on his back said: "Dad, it would be nice if you had a bag on your chest like a kangaroo, I would be comfortable living in it and wouldn't get in your way." ”

Look at Yan Yongnong's answer: "Dad's chest can't grow a meat bag, so you can grow a cloth bag! Later, Yan Yongnong really asked Wang Huilan to make a bag on his chest according to the appearance of the backpack, specifically to save Yan Bianzhao.

The people I saw on the road couldn't help but say Yan Yongnong: "People, you really sing with a bowl, and the drama you sing at a loss is not good-looking." Isn't it better for an adult to lose a stomach and let a child suffer from it! It's not good to let him play alone and walk alone?"

Yan Yongnong replied: "Okay, that's good, that's good!"

Yan Yongnong listened to a lot of gossip in front of him or behind his back!

said to your face: "Fortunately, you have few children, like our seven or eight or ten children, there are few opportunities to meet them every day, how can you have the time to carry them." What a blessing is it to be a man who has come into your house, and he who has come into our house has done all his iniquity!"

"The fine baby should be raised cheaply, and it is useless to raise it delicately. The flowers in the greenhouse do not stand up to the wind and rain. ”

Behind the scenes, it is no longer taboo to say: "He." In his previous life, he was a lonely old man, and he had never seen a cub, so he was envious of the cub to death. ”

"He is not an adoptive son, but an adoptive grandfather, and the adoptive grandfather has not seen such piety. ”

"Crazy men raise Jiao'er, Jiao'er is not filial. ”

"The old saying goes: No grievance and no hatred cannot become a household, Yan Yongnong owed that cub in his previous life. ”-------

People say that they can't change Yan Yongnong's views and practices, and Yan Yongnong also goes in one ear and out the other. For some words that hurt him too much, he secretly scolded: "It's your business! Eat your own food and take care of other people's affairs." We are tired and we don't ask you for help, one is willing to fight and the other is willing to suffer, and you intend to see the thatched house to mention. ”

He didn't just shout affectionately when he hurt his son, but he didn't just hug and hug him. The important thing is to let his son be well fed, warmly dressed, and let him live a prosperous life. But now it is difficult to maintain food and clothing at home, and in the past half a year, because Yan Yongnong "did not do his job" did not earn a penny to come in, but took money out of the house, and the fields were also abandoned.

The sky does not fall from the ground, how easy is it to let Yan Bianzhao live a prosperous life? But this did not stump Yan Yongnong, he has diligence, some strength, some strength, and his son, the power machine to drive him. He worked in the fields day and night, rain or shine, and was determined to find soil and get back the food that he should have paid.

Most of the people shook their heads when they saw it and said, "You are jumping for your life, changing the plough to the harrow, and doing the work of cattle and horses, and if you continue like this, you will not get rich is a piece of rotten iron." ”