Occasionally, when Fang Jidong mentioned going back, she always interrupted. Slowly he didn't mention it anymore, and they got along cautiously, went to see Fang Jibei together, and ate together. Occasionally, there will be physical entanglements, and whenever she wants to refuse, she can always be easily won by Fang Jidong in the end. Maybe it was because she didn't want to say no at all, which made her feel very ashamed.

She sometimes felt that her desire for Fang Jidong might be stronger than his desire for her. So at critical moments, she can always use various reasons to convince herself. But afterwards, he was extremely remorseful, blaming himself for not being strong-willed, and he couldn't even resist such a temptation.

They rarely talk other than physical communication. She was afraid to hear questions she didn't want to answer, and Fang Jidong was afraid to hear answers she didn't want to hear.

Shen Yuxi is very afraid of their way of getting along, once there is a physical entanglement between the two people, it will be difficult to calculate it clearly.

She went to the attending doctor every day to ask when she would be discharged. The results are always a few days of hospitalization. She obviously felt that she was as light as a swallow now, alive and vibrant, and there was no discomfort at all.

She went to see Francis when she was fine and complained to him that the doctors here were too conscientious. At one point, she wondered if the doctors had some purpose, otherwise why they insisted on not letting her out of the hospital.

Fang Jibei was watching the TV news, looked sideways at her and smiled strangely: "Well, maybe I think you are beautiful and I am reluctant to let you out of the hospital." ”

"I mean really, no more kidding. Shen Yuxi handed over the peeled apple.

Fang Jibei said thank you, and then said as if it were true: "Maybe someone is really reluctant to let you go?"

Shen Yuxi was thinking about the authenticity of his words, Fang Jidong came in from outside, and saw them Shen Yuxi was holding his face, looking at Fang Jibei in confusion, and his face instantly became bad. He stepped forward and pulled her up: "Go to your hospital room to rest, what are you doing here?"

"I slept all morning, I had a headache, I couldn't sleep. Shen Yuxi frowned a little unhappy. During this time, as long as she was in Fangjibei's room, he would rush back to the ward to rest. She was sleeping so much that her limbs were degrading, and when she closed her eyes, she felt a splitting headache.

"If you can't sleep, go to bed and lie down, the doctor told you to rest more, don't you understand?" Fang Jidong's words did not carry a trace of warmth, Shen Yuxi was helpless, and could only walk out step by step.

Fang Jidong snatched the apple in Fang Jibei's hand and took a bite hard, Fang Jibei looked at him speechlessly: "That was cut for me by Yuxi." ”

Fang Jidong glanced at him coldly, and Fang Jibei immediately surrendered: "Forget it, I don't want to eat much." "I'm still a sick person, so I don't care about him as a childish ghost.

Fang Jidong finished nibbling on the apple and threw it into the trash in a very chic manner.

"Brother, are you so guarding against me and Yuxi? I said that we are really fine. You see how openly we got along just now, don't look at us with dirty thoughts. ”

Fang Jidong didn't speak, and Fang Jibei continued: "Brother, you are too scheming, Yuxi has not been able to be discharged from the hospital, is that what you mean? Yuxi must not want to go back with you, and you are afraid that she will be discharged from the hospital and return to the original place, so you will trap her here, I am right." ”

"Hmph, you can. Fang Jidong finally sneered.

"You don't have a long-term solution, she will be discharged one day. ”

"I want you to be nosy. Fang Jidong picked up the tissue on the table, wiped his hands, stood up, pulled down his slightly wrinkled shirt, and walked out of the ward.

Shen Yuxi was lying bored in the ward, and when he was rolling on the hospital bed, someone pushed the door and came in. She immediately lifted the quilt and lay down, closed her eyes and pretended to sleep.

Fang Jidong stood in front of her bed and looked at it for a while, and suddenly said, "Get up and go out with me." ”

Shen Yuxi sighed in his heart, slowly sat up from the bed, and asked softly, "Where are you going?"

"Don't ask so much, just go. Give you five minutes to change your clothes, and I'll be waiting for you at the door. After saying that, Fang Jidong was leaving.

"Where is five minutes enough?" Shen Yuxi shouted behind him.

"You've got four minutes and fifty-one seconds left. ”

Cut, here again, Shen Yuxi got up from the bed very quickly, went to the cabinet to take out his daily clothes, and ran into the bathroom with lightning speed. Fang Jidong curled the corners of his mouth and smiled, and walked out of the ward.

She thought he was going to take her somewhere, very mysterious. In the end, I just went to the mall, and after a few turns, I didn't see what he was going to buy. She's been sleeping a lot lately, and she's always feeling weak, and she really doesn't want to go on so purposelessly.

"What the hell are you going to buy? Can you hurry up. ”

"Do you want to drink milk tea?"

"No, it's too sweet, I don't like it. ”

"Would you like to try the chicken cutlet over there?"

"No, it's too oily. ”

"Grilled squid should be good, I'll go buy some skewers. ”

Dressed in a priceless custom-made suit, Francis stood in front of a stall to buy squid, and she felt horrified no matter how she looked at it.

Shen Yuxi sat on the bench, took the squid skewers handed by Fang Jidong, and took a bite, the taste was better than expected. She went down in a bunch, and Fang Jidong was gone. After a while, he appeared out of nowhere, holding two cups in his hands.

"Freshly squeezed juice, I bought two movie tickets and went to the movies together for a while. Is it okay to eat after watching a movie? Or eat first and then watch a movie. Fang Jidong seemed to have arranged it properly, but Shen Yuxi was uneasy.

"That's what you're going to do when you brought me out today?"

"yes, don't you young people like that?"

"Dating? You're so weird, we're not a couple, why are we dating?"

"Shen Yuxi, we are together every day, doing the most intimate things, what do you say is not a couple?"

"We're just ......" she stopped, if the body needed these words to say, Fang Jidong would probably be angry again, she carefully considered it and continued: "Even if you do it, it doesn't mean anything, what age is this, and I don't need you to be responsible." ”

In the end, the movie didn't work out, and they almost broke up. just found a place to eat, Fang Jidong was still angry with her, and when the food came up, he almost didn't move his chopsticks. Shen Yuxi also ate little at night, so he had to pack it for Fang Jibei to take back before leaving.

They communicate less with each other, and sometimes they can't speak a few words throughout the day. Until the day Francis was leaving, they each occupied one end of the sofa and kept a proper distance.

"I booked a ticket for tomorrow and went back to City C. Fang Jidong said lightly.

"Well, a safe journey. ”

"Yuxi. He called his name softly, "I'm 37 years old, my grandfather is old, and my health hasn't been good lately, if you refuse to go back with me, I think I'll get a girlfriend seriously, and then get married and have children." Are you sure that's what you want? Do you really mean that I'm someone else's?"

Shen Yuxi didn't speak for a long time, and Fang Jidong continued: "I can't stand still and wait for you, if you give me even a little hope, I have the confidence to wait." I thought you still loved me, and you didn't resist my closeness these days, thinking that you would be willing to go back with me, but every time you ran away, I became disheartened. ”

"At that time I agreed to break up, only if you were going to punish yourself. Three years have passed, and if you are happy and happy now, it would be fine, but you are not doing well, and I think this punishment is enough. Do you want to stay in this place forever, living a lonely life? Why do you have to do this when you can have a better life? ”

Yuxi looked up at him, his eyes were sour, and the next moment tears flowed out. She whispered: "I can't go back with you, I hate myself, I will always bring misfortune to those around me." My mother, grandmother, Grandma Fang, this time it's Fang Jibei, I'm afraid that one day, you will also ......"

She didn't continue, Fang Jidong understood, he was helpless: "You actually believe this." ”

"I'd rather believe it. ”

Fang Jidong sat down beside her, wiped away her tears, and hugged her into his arms: "Don't cry, you know I will be distressed." Yuxi, I'm gone, and I probably won't have a chance to meet in the future. I respect your choice, and no matter what, I want you to be happy. ”

"Big brother. Shen Yuxi hadn't called his eldest brother for a long time, and for a while, both of them felt a little sour in their hearts.

"I'm sorry, I can't go back with you. Find a good girl to marry, I will pray for you here. ”

Before dawn the next morning, Shen Yuxi lay on the bed, pretending that he hadn't woken up yet. Fang Jidong got up gently, washed, and finally stood in front of the bed and looked at her silently for a long time, and finally sighed and opened the door and went out. The moment the door closed, her heart was closed.

Shen Yuxi went to see Fang Jibei, who seemed to disagree with her choice, and kept sighing.

"You've sighed all afternoon, are you so disappointed?" Shen Yuxi finally couldn't help asking.

"Why are you so stupid? Do you want to go back to that small town where there is no development? My brother is so big, rich and powerful, how many people want to be Mrs. Fang. If I were you, I would hold this thigh firmly, and I don't know how refreshing it would be to eat and drink spicy food in the future. It's just that you don't have enough brains, and you waste a good opportunity. Fang Jibei looked like he hated iron but not steel, as if the old girl who should marry smashed his hands.

"I'm just stupid. Shen Yuxi muttered to himself.

Shen Yuxi finally knew that she had not been able to be discharged from the hospital, and it was Fang Jidong's instructions that there was only one purpose, that is, to keep her. In the end, he didn't succeed, so he must have left disappointed.

Shen Yuxi completed the discharge procedures and went to resign to Fang Jibei. He is recovering well from his injuries and has a nurse to take care of him, so it is superfluous for her to stay.

Fang Jibei didn't say anything more, probably thinking that she had made up her mind, and Fang Jidong couldn't persuade her, let alone him?

Life has to go on, life is dull and boring, she will always remember what Fang Jidong said to her when he stood in front of the bed when he was leaving: "You have to take care of yourself, don't forget to eat, your stomach is not good." Sleeping pills should also be eaten sparingly, which is not good for the body. Don't cry all the time, you didn't cry so much before, I'm not by your side, no one will coax you, learn to comfort yourself......"

He said so much, every sentence was like a goodbye. She probably won't love anyone in her life, and her days without Fang Jidong are like a pool of stagnant water, lifeless.