Lu Shengnan looked at the person in front of her quietly, she never resented Xiao Rui's farewell, she always believed that Xiao Rui really liked herself at that time, and there must be a reason for his departure, so she subconsciously waited for him for more than ten years of separation, but she didn't know that his departure was full of blood; 。

Xiao Rui looked at her worriedly, he didn't dare to tell anyone about this experience, especially her, he was really afraid that she would hate herself after knowing that she was so unscrupulous; Lu Shengnan, I have always wanted to find you, but I can't go to you, at that time I lived in the Ye family, that person is just this one daughter, she is like that, even if we get married, we still live in that person's house, and he has been paying attention to my movements, I dare not go to you, if they know about your existence, I don't know what harm it will bring you. ”

"So you chose to come to me after taking care of everything? But Xiao Rui, have you ever thought about your wife's dependence on you? What about placing her in the best nursing home, is it important that she can be worthy of the company? No matter what mistakes her father committed, she didn't participate. ”

"Lu Shengnan, how do you let me accompany her? Not to mention her past experience, nor to say that I have always loved you, just the fact that I sent her father to prison, how can I face her? I am not completely selfish and cold. ”

With a chuckle, Lu Shengnan spoke: "Xiao Rui, thank you for telling me this today, and let me know that it's not that I'm bad." At that time, after you left, I always wondered if it was because I was too stupid to keep up with your thoughts and actions, if I was too stupid to respond and cheer for you in time when I was on the basketball court, if I was too fat to let other classmates laugh at your bad eyesight······ These questions have bothered me for more than ten years, and in the first few years, I always wanted to find you and ask you clearly, and then I was slowly relieved, but the knot in my heart has always been there, and today I am finally completely relieved. Over the years, you've worked so hard and tired, haven't you?"

Xiao Rui suddenly felt that the sourness in his eyes was terrible, this was the silly girl he had always loved, and he suppressed the sour feeling and said in a low voice: " Lu Shengnan, I don't feel hard, really, sometimes I think of you when I feel that I am about to be unable to hold on, at that time you stupidly followed behind me, I always think, if I can't hold on, what should my silly girl do, will someone buy you your favorite books like me, will someone remind you to read less, what should you do if your eyesight decreases, will someone take my silly girl to eat delicious things, will someone lead my silly girl to cross the street, she is always unresponsive, what if she is hit by a car······ Thinking about it like this, I don't feel tired of doing anything, I must take care of everything and come back to take care of my silly girl. ”

It was false to say that he was not moved, and tears welled up in Lu Shengnan's eyes, which slowly dripped onto the black sweatshirt.

Xiao Rui wanted to wipe away the tears that hurt his heart, just got up and sat down down, he didn't know if his stupid girl had forgiven himself, so he had to pick up the tissue on the table and hand it over, and said abruptly: "Lu Shengnan, you don't deserve to cry for me, really, I'm sorry for you." ”

"You're not sorry for me. In the past, when I saw the word fate in books, I always scoffed, and always felt that it was an excuse, but now that I have experienced it, I know that it is really a sigh of helplessness. ”

"Lu Shengnan, I don't believe in anything that has no fate, I only believe that everything has to be fought for by myself! I fought for justice for my parents, and I also wanted to fight for you to return to me, so I contacted Ye Yun to calculate Li Ruhan; I can't rest assured that I will hand you over to anyone, I only believe that you can live the best life by my side! Lu Shengnan, can you forgive me and return to me?"

After being silent for a long time, Xiao Rui thought that she would be silent forever, and she slowly spoke: "Xiao Rui, because of your arrangement, I did break up with Li Ruhan, but we can't go back." Seeing that he was anxious to distinguish, Lu Shengnan gently waved his hand, looked into his eyes, and said, "I don't blame you for being so calculating that I broke up with Li Ruhan, really." But we really can't go back, these people who have been separated for more than ten years are blocked between us, at that time I really liked you, and I knew that you really liked me, so I never thought about which of us was sorry for whom. I wasn't by your side when you were the most difficult, and you weren't with me when I was most embarrassed, we have all experienced a lot of happy or painful days in the past ten years, how can you say that we can confidently deny that the people who have accompanied us are together?"

"But now there is no one else around us! I have already divorced, and I have given her the best arrangement, and you have also separated from Li Ruhan, why can't we be together? Lu Shengnan, have you ever thought about how sad I will be when you deny it like this?" Xiao Rui asked her bitterly.

"Yes, there is no one else around us now! I can't question your means and methods of doing things, put yourself in your shoes, if I were you, I would probably make the same decision as you; but Xiao Rui, no matter how you took advantage of your wife, no matter how unbearable she was, it was always because of her that you can have what you have now, no matter how well you arrange for her, don't you feel guilty in your heart? Can I enjoy all this she has brought you with peace of mind? Xiao Rui, I can't do it!"

"Because of these, do you want to deny my feelings for you? Because of a person I don't treat badly, do you want me to watch you accompany other people? Lu Shengnan, have you ever thought that you would be cruel to me like this?" As he spoke, he walked to her side and sat down, hugged her tightly in his arms, and Xiao Rui said in a trembling voice: "Lu Shengnan, you are not sorry for anyone, I will bear all the mistakes and guilt!" As long as you stay by my side, I'm really afraid of the loneliness without your bones, you just need to be by my side, it's okay if you don't love me, let me love you well, okay?"

After speaking, he rested his chin on her shoulder, and his arm slowly tightened, Lu Shengnan knew that he was crying, and the liquid on his shoulder had already seeped into the sweatshirt and burned on her skin, and the sourness in his heart gradually amplified; How cruel is the slow flow of time, none of them have ever turned their backs on each other, but they have been separated from each other at both ends of time, one has learned to be tenacious and independent, the other has learned to calculate people's hearts, but they are all heavy and depressed in this river of sadness······